CHERENE IS THE BEST!!!!! HAHAHA...she asked me to write one..hahah..

wahz...it definitely have been many days since i came here and post..i got no time at all over the weekends...wahz...today is a monday ....so sian..haiz..hmm..monday...monday blues...i hate today..things didnt turn out well...i feel like crying... all this week i havent been myself...i don know how some things happen...i don know what happen...i don know..Shit...feel so shitty..haiz..went out for a movie on friday...the show was okie..makin me dizzy...but the plot is excitin...then scroll down along orchard and it was a bad decision.haha..u guys should know..haha..hmm..then sat in the mornin i went to work..hmm...scary incident happen..right? i cried durin work...i gona kill KAK ELLY..hahha..no lahz..jus kiddin..haha..hmm...lucky nothin really happen..then after that i heard some news concernin work that i find it hard to believe certainly hard to believe...was so damm shocked...haiz...ya like huan wei said treasure the things...hmm..then after that i went trainin in kallang..oh my..my training still sucks...hoow come? what am i thinkin? what am i doin? everythin jus seems so not right..i wasnt playin what i used to play.,.i sucks durin trainin..wahz..certainly have been such a long time i haven been down to kallang and play....wahz..i miss the place there...hahaha...then the sun was sorching hot..hehe..i love...haha..can tan myself..but i think doesnt really help...cos i never become dark..haha...then after that the whole sp netballers went down to toa payoh sports hall to watch the finals for nsl..hehe...and our coach team won...YEAH..and i saw Miss chan!! so long never see her...she played well...congrates..haha..then after went to meet yeo and vin...wahz...we talk and talk and talk..everyone is so emotional...ahha..hahah..haiz...everyone cheer up k..including me ah...hahah..hmm..then on sunday work mornin..then somehow i was asked to work at 7 in the mornin...cos midnight not enuff ppl...then work at outlet for one hour..then i went kiosk...YEAH!! finally i work kiosk...hahaha....i love it...hahaha...alone there..sometimes i want to be alone...did all the cleanin..CLEAN right..JEREMY!! hahah..he workin kiosk in the afternoon..but then kak elly thought i need to go off at 3 then ask fauzi to cover me..then i went to storeroom with kak...we talk..haha...she so funny..then i brin some things for kiosk..then i do a IB there..then i don know how come so many ppl were there when i there...alot customers sia..so i stayed and help jeremy awhile...then i did my Ib and go back outlet and punch out..then this JEREMY very good...call outlet and ask me to brin detergent over...good..good..hahha..no lahz..then after that i went off..to study maths awhile ....then so super paiseh...i gona kill LUO..hahahha....but it was fun..then i went home ..sleep all the way until 4 wake up intendin to do my report but not what i expected,..my com SPOILED again..DAMM.....then i sleep sleep..till 7 plus..intendin to skip CD and go library to do my report..800 words okie...but in the last i wrote 1508 words...YEAH..okok..later i got trainin..hope by the time i got home i can use my com ready,....feelin so funny..haiz...somethin i donknow...ahiz...hope later i am myseld..ena..friday i am really MYSELF ah? really thanks..so great to know that i am bein back to myself..i miss myself alot..haiz...

What is happenin to me??

haiz...i dont know what's on my mind..jus doesnt seem myself for the whole of this week...don know whats goin on with me...feelin like givin out a loud and nice scream!! there is somethin in me i wish to vent out..but i got no idea what is inside of me? i donknow why i felt so bothered...don know why i cant focused!then jus now got netball trainin..IT SUCKS...i may not the trainin sucks..is me myself...i don know whats goin on in my mind..i jus couldnt focuesd...and i didnt play well...SUCKS man..don know what i am doin either...my frens told me that i was the CHUNPEI on court today..seems so not me...i think likewise too..cant defend properly..have no idea where the ball is throwin too..they are jus a weak team and i play like shit..SUCKS man...so bothered by it...cannot play well..what am i thinkin...ARGH~~~then sorry jiayi and cher..make them go all the way to sports complex jus for the audio thingy..then after that they still need to climb back...haiz..wasin feelin right..Damm!!haiz..then trainin i wasnt playin what i use to play either...is it that i can playh under pressure? i don think so..haiz..how? what is goin on with me this week??then today wake up late as usual..i think i am jus too tired to hear my alarm ringing..cant hear it sia..then overslept..then reach class 20 mins late...then nothin much in school...slept in the STSC..haha...i don know..i jus like fell asleep..hahah....haiz..everybody wasnt feelin right...this week is a down week...and Miss entertainer goes to Miss Jiayi again this week..although she also have some problems...but she manged to joke and smile..i lost the energy to laugh le..i lost the energy to think...i was so sad..so emo today...while waitin for my train back to SEngkang...i was hearin jerry's new song...i know that it wasnt the song that make me shed some tears..but somehow i shed some tears...the reason behind this..i really have no idea...jus feel like cryin..maybe stressin myself too much..maybe i am jus too tired..maybe i jus need some rest..maybe i jus need sometime for myself...i used to be so so sso cheerful...but haiz...i couldnt cheer myself up again..haiz..maybe i need care...my leg hurts...it is still alittle painful...haiz..it stills swell...haiz...
All this time,
i didnt realise until recently,
that i am bein treated like a fool,
thought u were true,
but i was wrong.
till now then i realise,
i am jus a decoration,
to make ur life happier,
jus a decoration,
to liven up ur life,
jus a decoration,
to make u feel ocuppied.
u throw me aside when u found love,
u nelgect my feelin,
leavin me alone,
but i was brave enuff to stand on my feets,
showin u how strong i am,
and i am glad that i see the TRUE COLORS of you!
wahz..once again i written somethin...haha..didnt know i am capable of this too..hehe.....haioz..emo eh...yeo ah..influ me..haha..no lahz..i am jus bein bothered by somethin me myself isnt sure of...maybe somethin bad is gona happen..u know those feelin u will have before somthin bad happen?? haiz..don know lahz..tml is a friday..a busy day too...hmmm....havin been treated by attitude problems...

OH MY!! i upload a song!! HURRAY!!! i copy from other blogskins then i paste it on my own blogskins..and here it is...PRESENT TO U ALL HILARY DUFF-SO YESTERDAY...this song really brought back my sec sch memory...cos this song is my super fav song is sec sch...somehow..somewhere...it really brings back alot of my sec sch memories...all kept within myself...but i am happy that i got a song in my blog..haah..searchin more for other songs..hehhee....YEAH..okok..my eyes is shutin ready....hope tml i will have a better day..nitezzz....

hmm..another day had passed....heard happy news...have disappointin happen to me...today went school...have java lesson..was payin much attention either..*u guys must be wonderin what the hell i do in sch?* sorry..this is jus me in school...haiz..then had break...was havin much mood to eat too...today the break wasnt havin much fun..cos cher is sad...today the only person hyper is our Miss JIAYI..haha..then after break went for java practical...in class surf jerry's website...doin nothin...not doin anythin related to java..then after that we stayed back for STSC...i began to start drawin..try to draw as much as i could...then after that went to sports complex for our audio project..and this is like the first time felt that sports complex is so quiet...cos is like only the floorball havin trainin...and other than them..not a single soul is there...then the floorball have their IVP jersey..is like ORANGE colour..thats my color...haha...somemore is adidas brand!!!ARGH~~not fair!!then after audio..went back to foodcourt 6..never step into the foodcourt ah..but i think i saw naj sittin on the bench*wonderin why*.....haiz..then i decided to go town..cos i want to get a roxy CAP...but to novalid...i didnt get one...SUCKS...haiz..walk so long..i didnt manage to get one...so disappointed...i wanted a brown one..but could get one..left with PINK AND BLACK...not nice...haiz..then want to buy ROXY shirts cos i cant get the cap..but the shirts arent very nice...haiz..then walk walk..went to zara..saw some shirtts..but don intend to buy cos i wanted to get cap as my piority...but in the end i get none...haiz...what a day!!too tired and speechless to say anythin..but i am happy that i might be usin the story that i thought of to film my group short movie...is about A different race couple(malay and chinese)..then we need to have some culture inside the film..so this chinese wanted to intro the mooncake festival to the malay...then the malay doesnt seems at all interested...then is like they quarrel...then the chinese hold the lantern alone...suddenly the malay appear with the lantern..hehe..sweet eh...hahaha....i am thinkin too much...but isnt this a good idea?? heheh..hope it is..hehee....and tml gona be a long day...nothin much for today..heard one good news from one of my buddy..now i really know what it means HAPPY FOR UR FREN...hahah..YHEAH...wasnt in the mood this week...have no ideas..haiz...
Songs bring back memories
Places flashed back memories
Happy memories for kept
Sad memories for throw
But, somehow no matter it is a bad memory or happy memory it will be left intact in ur mind!
Memories are difficult to erase,
Memories are somethin people detest,people love.
Should u treasure the memories?
or Should u forget the memories?
No one can give u an answer,
No one can help u solve.
The answer lies in YOURSELF!
YOU KNOW BEST!!!
how come i am so emotional suddenly...haiz...cos suddenly someone remind me of my past...
Feelings are strange
Feelings are mystery
Feeling are something that is beyond control
It might happen suddenly,
For some it might take some time.
It isnt somethin that u can rush
It isnt somethin that u can get whenever u want it
Feelings jus happen the way it wants
It is unexplainable
It is interesting.
Feelings developed,
Feelings grow deep in your heart when u have no idea.
Feelings might be good,
but for some it SUCKs...
however,people are still pursuin for it.
Cos,all HUMANS have feelins!
hmm...was i out of my head? was i out of my mind? somethin is so wrong with me today and i have no idea...became so emotional suddenly...haiz..okie..i sure stop here..if not it will take K-YEO 1 hour to read..haha...jokin...haiz..managed to avoid!haiz...tml trainin..another long day!! haiz....

ARGH~~~have to retype my whole blog..cos the previous one was succesful in publish!!SHIT!! ARGH~~what a stupid com...idoit...haiz..see lahz..don feel like typin ready..ahiz..also forget how i started..haiz..okok..no choice have to retype...okok..today as usual i woke up alittle late...and as usual i went late for my maths lecture...and i wasnt payin attention for the lecture cos i know nuts about it...i don understand at all...as much as i could i wish that i could understand but i jus couldnt...then was quite stress the moment i step into the class...cos is like so many things need to be done today and this week..then today after the maths lecture..my frens jiayi,cher,ting went to our sch cafe and bought some ice-blended drinks..it was pretty nice..not bad..i didnt buy cos i want ot drink starbucks one..haha..then at 12 i went back to sengkang cos i have to go and take my english oral..then when i reached compass point..i went to the bank..then this china old lady wasnt patient enuff in waitin and she shouted" isnt there any manager around?cant u see that there is a long queue here? and there are ppl talkin there? want to talk about invest go another side" the bank-tellers also don know what they should do..cos the bank-tellers was talkin very long to the customers...then got one more old lady join in...what sia..i don like them ah..i also don want to wait very long ah..but this isnt the right attitude to shout what...i pity the bank-tellers...they get scolded for nothin...is as if they want to "Chit-Chat" with the customers,is that the customer got quieries then they ask the bank-tellers one what...the old lady lac ah...so fierce for what...aiyo..then after i withdraw the money i went to starbucks and buy drinks...there it was a malay old adult workin...woman ah..is not i racis.is that woman of 20-30 can work at starbucks there..i envy mahz..then i order my drink..i told her i want "CARAMEL-MOCHA FRAPPE" then she say okie..then i was puzzled why she never ask.."izzit CARAMEL FRAPPE plus MOCHA SYRUP?"...then i knew somethin gona go wrong..jus as i expected...she didnt hear my CARAM\EL!! in the end i drank mocha frappe...i want CARAMEL!!! haha..okie..then i took a bus to NORTH VISTA SEC SCH..then it was so unfamiliar to me..then it was all private candidates today...i thought it will be gona mix some students...then one of my fellow sec sch mate also supposed to take oral today..but he didnt turn up..i msg him but no respones..i guesse he forget ba...then my oral SUCKS!! SUCKS TO THE CORE!!! i was stutterin, mumerin..i keep sayin and then and then ah ah ah...WTF!! sian sia...oral was SUCKY...haiz..i wasnt organise and pause for very long..nothin is gonin on in my mind..haiz..disappointed in myself..i was calm all long till i was in front of the invigilator...when i saw them i was shiverin ready...haiz..sad sia..haiz..and NORTH VISTA SEC SCH got no AIR-COn in their hall..i miss DUNMAN SEC SCH AIR-CONDITIONED HALL!!! DUNMAN IS THE BEST!! then after the oral i went back to sch and do my audio project..then make us feel like clown eh...or some retarted like what jiayi mention..then after that i went to attend some traini orientation classes for my work one...then lucky got khairi and izan to accompany me..if not i will be so damm bored..haiz..then ended like arouund 9..then reach home...and now here i am...bloggin here..second time writein..then first one cannot..hope this one can...if this one cannot i GIVE UP!! was avoidin...hahah...hmm...don know...tml gona be a day...this week gona be a packed week...then thur cannot stay abck cos i got traiin...then fri maybe have to edit audio..depends..then sat got work and traini(netball) then monday got trainin..then tue can stay back..and wed is the deadline..haiz..stress right..isnt it?? once again i want to ask"WHO THE HELL TOLD ME POLY LIFE WAS RELAXING?? IT SUCKS!!"hahaha..haha..okok..gona sleep soon if not tml cannot wake up...cher,jiayi and ting..sorry i wasnt able to participate much in the STSC and IDEAS project..sorry tons...

Wow~~had such a busy day today..woke up late as usual...and was late for maths as usual...haiz..jus cant pull myself up early in the morning...*wonderin why*haha..then reach sch and went for maths..then was payin much attention..cos i cant understand a single thing..haiz..then really stress..have so many things to do..then jiayi,cher and ting went to the cafe in our sch and bought ice-blended drinks..was quite nicee..then i didnt buy cos i want to drink starbucks..then i went off at 12..then reach Sengkang..then i went to the bank..got commotion sia..this china old lady was not patient in waitin anymore..she jus shouted"isnt there any manager around? cant u see there is a long queue here..keep talkin and talkin" cos the bank-teller explainin things to the cutsomer for a very long time..then she keep shoutin sia..then i not happy with her..although i don like to wait..but she didnt spare a thought for those bank-tellers...cos is as if they want to "Chit-chat" with the cutomers..is bcos they got quieries then they ask the bank teller..is that china old lady chose the wrong time to go to the bank cos durin that time is lunch break..i pity those bank-tellers..they doon know what to do sia..they after i withdrew money i went to starbucks and buy my drink..the staff is a malay old adults..then i told her i wanted CARAMEL-MOCHA FRAPPE....i was shocked that she never ask like so is caramel Frappe add mocha syrup..and she jus took my oder..then when i drink is was only mocha...Eeeekkksss....i want CARAMEL!!haha...but nvm ah..i jus take it and go...took a bus to north vista sec sch for my oral examinations..then felt so strange in a sec sch which i have no feelings for have nothin at all..then saw all the private candidates..i thought might mix with the sch students..but lucky never ah..i was the No.4...WOW~first time so front...haha..feel so kan chiong..and my ex-sec sch mates suppose to come but he never turn up..i think maybe he forget..then my oral SUCKS TO THE CORE!!! ARGH~~SUCKS MAN!! haiz..was total disappointed in myself..i was calm all the way until i was infront of the invingilator..i was stutterin..and keepin repeatin and then and then..sucks man.i got no organisation for my pic description and while readin the passage i feel like i am on a train..talk so fast..haiz..i sucks to the core..was disappointed in myself..how could i? haiz..and NORTH VISTA SEC SCH got no AIR-COn in their hall..i miss DUNMAN SEC SCH AIR-CONDITIONED HALL!!! DUNMAN IS THE BEST!! haiz..then after that i rush back to sch for my audio project..then we feel so retarted ..like some clowns..then after that i need to rush to myyh work HQ for some trainin classes..haiz..wasnt really fun..but luckily got izan and khairi..if not i sure bored to death..then jus finished washin up and came here to blog before i go to sleep..hahah..then tml right goin to do audio again..thur i cannot stay back cos got netball trainin..then fri maybe need to stay back for audio..depends ah..then monday cannot i got trainin...then tue can stay back..then wed is the hand up day...sorry cher,jiayi and ting..haven been participatin in the projects for STSC...so sorry...haiz...ya..thats about all for such a busy day today...i think this week gonna be a busy week too...haiz...al the best to myself...hope i don wear out so fast....

what day is it today? is a monday!! is monday blues!!right...DAMM!!is only the starting of the week and we have so many things to rush and get it done...SIAN!!!ARGH!!! the four of us are screamin right now!!right..haiz..we got STSC comic to draw and the 30 sounds for DIGITAL AUDIO which is that this two are due this friday!! ARGH!!how..then i got so many things packed in this week...okie..see ah...tml i need to go sch in the mornin,then in the afternoon have to go to NorthVista sec sch to take my retake Oral(okie..maybe i deserved it)...then after oral i have to go back to sch for my audio project...then after that i have to go to orentation thingy for my work one...is only a shity tuesday and i am so packed..then wed i have to stay back to edit my audio then still have STSC...then thur no need to say another damm long day..then friday is the day i hand up this two assignment..then still got video..oh ya..still got that stupid IDEA!!STRESS!! and i am growin chubby..or chubbier...SUCKS!!haiz..mean i am gettin fatter lahz..okok..back to the topic..then sat right..i bet i wil be workin in the mornin..then so sorry have to ask to leave early..cos i have trainin at 3 at kallang which i long time never been there..then after that goin to toa payoh sporrts hall to watch netball NSL final...then go home...then after that rest..then after that sunday mornin..i bet i will be workin..then after that i want to study..i purposely took mornin shifts cos i want to study after i work..got test next week..then after that i bet it gona be gone..haiz..see i already can see my schedule for the whole of this week ready..haiz..STRESS!!! ARGH~~~ then today i went to the MOE to get my replacement entry proof..then is like so strict..i jsu need to go to the customer service then also need to use my ic to change pass....so troublesome..then i went trainin..obviously..i went trainin..despite my leg isnt fully recovered...cos it still swells alittle...like so not nice..then i very scared to run all the way..sortt of drive ah..cos i scared to hurt my ankle..i don want to hurt it again...lucky i bought ankle guard..it really gives me more support...then now i walk still not like normally walk lehz..then after that...trainin was fun as usual..and before the trainin ..i ran three rounds the track cos last trainin i never really run alot..i rested..cos i sprainked my ankle..maybe i am stubborn in some way...but no choice..have to push myself to my limits...then today finally the soccer boys are havin their trainin back again..so disappointed sia..they lost and so poor thing...No. 8 all the way ah..hahah..cos i took notice of him..quite a not bad player..but never seen him in sch before..haha..okok..then now doin my project..then do finsih one..then come here and blog sscared later no time to blog..then i want to say JERRY ROCKS!! cos his lastest songs are all so nice!!all the way..he sort of rap alittle lehz..haha...YHEAH!!!i think i am a super woman!!still disappointed!!

haiz..so borin..another day passed and i also never go work today...why? bcos of my leg ah..stupid sia..haiz..then stay at home again..but i woke up late..cos i slept at 2 yesterday night..cos i watch the korean drama...haha..the first one is act by Song Cheng Xian..and now i realise Chris look like him..oh no...actually chris is handsome and cute lahz.haha...but he is in army now..hehe..and eve,caren,chris,frankie and me..long time never contact le...haiz..miss them...i bet eve and caren is studyin now...wish them luck..must work hard...haiz..then today ena came myy house to do some pro..sorry ena...my com siao siao...not workin properly..then after that i decided to take out the bandaged from my leg...and the swell not as bad as the first time...better but still alittle swell ah..i hope tml mornin i wake up can walk properly and run le..cos jus now i walk like i forget how to walk..seems like i am Jiankang...*touch wood*then is really a borin day..but i kinda miss the times when i am so free at home..laze around watch tv programmes..then wait for 6 plus then go joggin...but now i don have the time..everytime end lesson like at around 4..then sometimes either have to stay back to complete my assignment or have to meet frens..then weekends i spent my time workin..it actually good ah..cos i like my work frens...they brought laughters to my work..hehe..special thanks to Kak elly,jason,izan,jeremy,khairi,fad,rodiya,dee,wati, haha..and lots more man..haha...then in sch i got my dearest cher,jiayi and tingting...they tell me lame crappy jokes to laugh...MOSCOW should sign us!!haha..then outside i have ena,ana,khairi,ruzaini,F4 and fad to keep me company...hehe..yeah..then super sian now thats why i am here bloggin...and i havin my test next week..and i don know a single thing about Java and my maths!!help..who can help me!!haiz..i don want to fail..now really headache ready....then nothin much..hmm...i know everytime i will forget to said somethin...but i know that i am like alittle back into chinese songs which i don really wish to...i am so addicted to english song that i don really wan to go back to chinese songs..but it is kinda of attractin to me..haha...okie..i am lame..then i am so bored now...haiz..okok..i know what to do..go search for nice blogskin..so next time when i am feelin not right i will change my blogskin..haha..and i am totally disappointed in somethin..super ...maybe i am really thinkin too much!!! *DISAPPOINTED* -Brandy-Have you ever!!!

Oh!!! my leg is uglier than yesterday!!cos it is bandaged!!!It more like elephant leg now...haiz...poor leg..and bcos of my leg i cannot work today and tml..sorry ah..sorry..i really cannot work..then i went to bedok reserivour there and see..then waitied for like one hour plus sia..jus to see my leg..WHAT THE!! luckily got the Super Sunday i can watch..then so lucky is ZaiZai and XiaoTian...they are so damm handsome!!WOW!!! Handsome sia..then Jerry is so coming back sia!!!i miss him..hahah..what sia.,..he so handsome..his songs so nice...oh my god..he is really like.........lost of words for him..so gorgeous...hehe..so charmin...so handsome..wahz..goin crazy over him again? i think not that much either too..but i admire him..cos his voice really improved alot..damm alot..i think he really put in a lot of effort..hehe..JIA YOU JERRY!! hehe..then today went to see the sinseh right...he massage massage my leg...then i scared pain..i keep waitin for me to like twist my leg here and there then like make the bone back or whatever..but never sia..he jus keep massagin massagin...only twist alittle to left twist alittle to right..then massage..then okie ready...ALAMAK!! like that only..scared me sia..then now my leg is bandage..so ugly..luckily that sinseh said monday morning can take out ready if not i am not goin to sch ready..so ugly..and so paiseh...then while he massagin i keep givin him this veryh scared look...then end up..not pain..haha...then now here i am writin my blog..actually don intend to write so early one..but i got nothin to do..so i write..
Cher and JIAYI!! i went to see sinseh ready...and monday no smelly foot..haha..Cher..okok..he is not ur type..i help u find k..hahah...u wan tan one and not bamboo right..can can..i help u..hahaha...hmm...hmm...if not now i will be workin with .......... ah..FAD...hehhe..hahaha..hehe...nvm...oh ya..then today afternoon i watch TV..then i saw METEOR GARDEN!! AHHHH!!! haha...everybody is so comin back!! F4 is back!!! haha... shoo to 5566..haha..no lahz..everybody be frens..hhahaha..ahha...hmm...then nothin to write right..but alittle disappointed in somethin...haiz..thinkin too much either...ARGH~~~haiz...nvm..nvm...Givin up!! hahaa...

What the hell am i doin today? isnt i like to be such a nice person until ......i got nothin to say sia..i am not tryin to say i am a nice person..but feel like am i suppose to help them?? is like i want to go myself but actually it isnt!!! i also didnt mean that i don want to help them is jus that i feel like a fool again!!! DAMM IT!! BIAN DI ZHI JI!! haiz...whatever ah...nothin to say...then my leg swollen like hell man..it hurts damm!! cant walk properly...and ppl are laughin at me limpin..so sad right? and wasnt in a very good mood today mainly bcos of this elephant leg lahz..SIAN 1/2 ready...but lucky got cherene,jiayi and ting...the whole break we were laughin like hell..my stomach so pain sia..haha...cannot tolerate them sia..but they make sch days fun..YEAH!! and Jiayi also sian 1/2 today after readin that stupid UNCLE friendster...how come apperance can cheat....really..haiz..then today our mood not very good too..then i also don know why i am so okie to help iqbal to type his report out...i think i was out of my mind...i think i wasnt myself today....wasnt feelin good anyway...haiz...my leg is very painful!!! HELP!!! haiz...how sia..i want to play on mon..i don want to sit there and watch them train only...haiz..how sia..i am not goin to work tml..need to see sinseh...have to..sorry ppl in CBTL...sorry..i didnt mean to...have to rest my leg...sorry...then today in idea was actually super borin..i think is a total waste of time lor..but me and jiayi and ting entertain ourself..me and ting was like countin how many ALL RIGHT the teacher will say in every sentencee...super funny lor..then jiayi come over and tell me things about our CHERENE AND EDMUND...hahahha...so funny sia...now i am still laughin..today we tease cherene until she blush..ahhha..right cher? haha..funny sia..maybe edmund really like cher ah..cher...hahaha...then after that i stay in sch until 7.40 and HAKIMI can laugh at how i walk...and IQBAL can mimic how i walk...what sia...so bad sia...hahah...then here i am ...in front of the com..doin nothin and waitin for chattin..haiz..then okie..cher and jiayi..i will go see doc..then monday u all will smell my smelly foot k? hahhaha....don complain ah..haha..then monday i hope that my leg is okie..i seriously don want to be out of the team bcos of my stupid injury..in sec sch my injury wasnt bad uuntil like that..haiz..how ...haiz..HELP!!
there are many things which i never really say...i scared to fall in love...scared to trust ppl..scared to know the deeper inner of ppl...scared to know the truth..scared alot of things..i still haven really grow up..haven learn to accept reality although i have experience quite a nunmber of things..number of things that i keep to myself...i realised alot of things thru alot of experience...mayhbe i am those kind who doesnt tell things to my fren,doesnt really open up...but i am those who can definitely lend a listenin ear and solve and give some advices...I don know how i am feelin now...deep down...so emotional...cos i can cry while i hear a song....i think emo season is comin..haiz...okie lahz..wish my leg will recover faster...PLS PLS PLS....
have to ah..and lets all study for test cos i got test the next next week..and three projects due next week..wish me luck then..hahah..

Someone pls help me!!!!! My leg hurts!! is killing me!!!feel like cryin!it is really very painful...now i feel like a cripple...haiz...so sad..but i really hope that by monday i can recover..pls...but my leg is like swollen,...very big...how?? help me help me help me...pls...it really hurt....i really feel like cryin...haiz....how? how?

Haiz..what day is it today? is a thur..and i MISS SINGAPORE IDOL!! bcos i got training..and today while trainin...i Sprained my ankle...it was definitely has been a damm long time i haven sprain my ankle...is like so PAIN!!! AWW!! really pain sia..haiz..nearly wanted to cry but i RENG!! TOLERATE!!! never cry....bcos is really damm painful...damm i sit down and ice my leg for the whole training...EVERYTIME i SPEAK things too fast lahz..yesterday jus said trainin coach will be workin on defender..but i couldnt train as much as i wanted to..Damm...feel so bad seein them runn so much then i jus sit down there only...somemore in the last they still did suicide run...feel really bad..sorry gers...hehe...and today coach announce the ppl that are selected for the IVP...but should only be 14 ppl..but sort of selected more than 14....Am i in? Yeah!! i am in...and of cos Carely,Maryanna,lynette,MeiJie,Rodal was in!!HurraY!! Three cheers to everyone again...hehe...happy for carely and maryanna...cos we sort of quite close inside the team..but waiching i believe the next time u come back u surely in the team back....maybe luck is on my side...i was in...then today hmm..wake up half an hour late than the time i was supposed to wake up...then rush ah..then went to math lec...then to Java lect...then BREAK!!then again..laughters filled the canteen with cherene,jiayi and ting....the 4 of us keep talkin lame for cherene and crap for us...keep entertainin ourself..then i eat fried mee hoon..have to eat something cos got trainin mahz..then after i eat ready right..,i went toilet...stomache again...haha..forever...then after that slept in STSC class..cannot tan han..not enunff of sleep and super tired..then after that we discuss our project on STSC...the comic strip..then later after bloggin i goin to the report...hehe..then...tml friday.hope i can walk up the hill smoothly...with the help of my lame fren cherene,ting and crappy jiayi..haha..and got the stupid IDEA lesson tml..haiz..and when i sprain my ankle today right..nette went all the way to KFC to buy ice for me..feel so bad sia..haiz..thanks nette..hehe...and surprisingly abi msg me and ask me to rest well and put icece on my ankle..*haven spotted any cute guys in school* hahahah..and i thought of ************************* when i sprain my ankle..hahhahaha...shhhhh...a secret..ahhahahha...okok..stop here..have to do my pro..if not tml wake up late again..then later need to take half an hour to climb up the hill..haha...

Sleepin late again!anyway,goin late to sch tml too...but tml have netball trainin...YEah...but everytime want to work on defender..haiz..haha..but nvm more work...haha..can burn fats..but is always netball that make my day brighten and happier...don know why..but it does seems so to me...then today nothin much in school...but i saw the "cool guy"..things are so irony..the person u don wish to see anymore will appear everywhere near u...but those person u wish to see wont even appear near u...funny ah..he isnt cool anymore...haha...mus find another cute and cool and handsome guy ready..if not sch so borin..then today after sch stay in the lab for awhile to do my pro..then jiayi seems so tired..can see..then there are still ppl doin DVID pro..Aiyo...Kan Chiong for them sia...hahah..then in the lab got hakimi and iqbal...then iqbal ask me"eh, today never go down tampines?" haha...funny sia he..i only told him and hakimi twice and everytime they will ask me "eh, never go down tampines?" haha..so funny...then after that i went to meet ena and chal...long time never see ena...then after that ruzaini also came down and ana also came down.....so sad..chal say i grow fat ready..haiz...time to slim down ah..haiz..sian..i hate slimmin session..hahah..then jus finished readin ........................yupz...sorry, i didnt mean to let u feel that way....i never really told u stuffs about me is bcos there isnt anythin nice,fun and happy that happen in my life...those are jus normal like...and bout my crush in sch...is jus somethin that i don really think that will work out..and everyday nothin much is happenin in my life..maybe i am a person who is hard to open up to ppl...i don really tell mym problems to anyone..actually,now come to think of it...i don tell others my pro..i don know..last time jas was my really best fren..i thot she was really the one who i can turn to for help to for my problem..yupz..there was time when we were so close..there were also time when i flood her with my problem...but what i can remember is that she did nothin...Yes..to me like ahmad said...FRENS are important to me!!C.P!!i hope that every of my fren will tell me all their problems and i will know....i cant help but i can give advice...i cant do anythin but i hope by sayin out it does help...after this,i might seem close to alot of ppl, but i never tell them my real problems..maybe jus complain only...i never tell my problems to ruzaini,neither any of the f4.There are alot of things i keep it to myself...but now seriously i don have any problems..and to say the truth....u help me solve one of the problem indirectly....thanks..hehe...i don find any bother or anythin when u tell me ur stuffs...i will be more glad to hear...cos sometime it isnt nice to see my frens sad,depressed..i hate it.....so i hope i can do somethin....but don worry, next time i will tell u things first hand..the hottest new...hehe..and i arent avoidin u...is jus that alot of projects are comin and i am quite busy..sorrty bout that..i really feel sorry that i haven been meetin u recently that u felt so lonnely..and i am sorry to make u feel that way...cos sometime i feel that my energy is runnin out...i hate it when i cant cheer a fren up...u arent puttin me in any difficult situation...and i think i am handlin pretty well....i arent close to..................there are many things i knew..there are many things i hope...there are many things i wish it didnt happen...there are many things i could have forsee...there are many things i could have prevent...i jus didnt realise it...but now alot of things changed..not even a year..i really don dare to think how things will turn out to be down the road...but i hope we will still be frens forever...i am really happy that u treat me as ur best fren...and sorry but i also would still want to be frens with......................hope u don mind...and i hope u trust me in tellin me stuffs and i keep it mummm......but i will promise to tell u myh stuffs from now on!! don find me a pester ah...hahahhaa..hahaa....no...wont angry..and please dont stop tellin stuffs..i don wanna lose a fren like i lost jas.....k....hehe...sorry to make u feel that way....but there are times u have to bear with me..cos i am busy...with school work eh..hehe...*sorry for my frens readin this blog....if i offended any of u while writin this...is my deep down feelin* i might seem to have many frens around here and there..but there isnt really someone i can really openmy heart and tell my problems too..all those who i trust and rely on have left....
life hasnt seems good since i enter poly...there are so much things i have to try to adapt..i hate it man..i miss myh sec sch life...so much of complainin..i stil miss it....argh~~~although poly life isnt bad...cos got cher and jiayi..but i still doesnt feel comfortable at all...i miss my fun and jokes...i miss my frens..i miss all my night class...i miss myself durin that time..sorry to mention but i miss the times when ruzaini,ena,ahmad,faisal and me havin so much fun after lesson..i miss everythin alot...haiz..don know what gettin into me!! gettin emo...hahah...okok..stop here..sleepy ready...ermm....hmm...fad....saw ur blog too..hmm...i know is hard to forget a person...i tried and i succeed...try to see the bad point of him...and try focusin on the other guys.....right..u know who i am referrin to....FORGET HIM!! Guys jus doesnt know how to appreciate girls...they are jus takin girls for granted...but i don condeem al the guys jus becos of some stupid guys...take it easy...u are young arent u..take ur time to find some that suit u...FORGET HIM!! and ya..ENA!! SWALLOW UR FOOD DOWN!!! pls pls ..don torture urself....u know who u will be like if u continue and u know u wont want to be like her..someone jus doesnt worth u doin this....GUYS ARE BASTARD!!But still not all the guys!!hehehe..hehe...

wow!!Hurray!!THREE CHEERS TO cherene(not chereen,haha..) and JIAYI!!! YEAH...Finally,after days of hard work we finally complete our first VIDEO assignment...but is the only first one we are already so happy about it!!and so proud bout it...but there are many more coming up...so lets not be happy yet and be more hardworkin..and lets promise each other no more last min work!!hehee..hehe..then are we gettin better with amanda they all?? NO NO!! i dont think so....pls don let me...maybe is jus that i like the serious part of them rather than the stupid childish and idiotic part of them...then today i went school but didnt attend any of the lesson..i skipped all mym lesson and went to complete mty project in the video lab...all the way sehz..until there are classes ah..then went to foodcout 5 to buy CD-R...then on the way down the staircase i saw the cool guy...he jus walked so pass me..but NAHZ...he isnt cool anymore..he doesnt attract me anymore..hahaa...hahah..no lahz...i have bad taste...hahah....hahah.....no lahz...jokin...but he no longer become someone i look forward to see in school..hahha...okie...then after that went back to my foodcourt to eat...then after that i got two hours break as usual for every tuesday..then i went to library to look up books on JAVA! JAVA!! did u all see wrongly? nono..u all never...is right! JAVA!! cos my java sucks..have to buck up!!then after that...iqbal ask me to help him act in his film...i don know what to say and i think is alright..so i jus say yes...then like so funny..haiz...haiz...nvm..then after that i went audio lesson but suppose to be java..cos need to complete my video assignment ah..then after that from 3.30 i start workin my Video until 7 plus sia..first time stay in sch until so late for my project cos usually is bcos of netball stay in sch until like 9 plus..but today like...haha...hardworkin ah?like real sehz..haha..then after that suppose to meet ena and ana..but i was late to get out of sch therefore i never go and meet them...sorry eh...meet u guys soon...then went home so shag and tired sia..goin to sleep soon ah..cos is like not enuff sleep recently...haiz...anyway, more projects coming up...DIED for sure....all the way ah, cher and jiayi..hehe...YEAH!!

haiz...never post for sunday i supposed..haha..forget ready...then sat workin wasnt really fun at all..cos don know lehz...maybe my project have been botherin me...but maybe not...i also don know whats botherin me..btu i know there is somethin botherin me..hahaa....hmmm....i mean workin on sat night wasnt fun at all...cos kanna bully..was alittle sad cos kak nor transferrin to outside...and i think she msg me this mornin...cos i never say her no.donknow whether is her..she say"take care bitches of t2t...c u wen i c u" hahah..she so funny and cute sia..haiz..then sunday went out...at first wanted to go and watch fireworks one..but then decided to change my mind to go shoppin instead...haha...then bought an adidas bag which i took a super long time to think...but dedcided to bag in the end..and was pretty nice ah..hehe..then yesterday also met F4!!haha...hehe...funny...yupz..was definitely great meetin them..once in a month...somethin great to keep it up too....right...haven been meetin ena and ana for a very long time..sorry...really got no time...but i will try kl..sorry..sorry...hmm..then today could wake up..so tired..but pull myself up and was late for the CD lesson..and the teacher praise me say i wear until very nice today...he what sia...anyohw only..then today was pissed by don know what..never even smile at all...no mood to smile at all..got no idea why also...and i only really smile and laugh when i had my netball trainin..despite my project deadline is tml..and i am not even half way there...i sitll decided to go for my trainin..and i never regret cos it did brought me fun...hehe..i really love netball...i can laugh like hell and hyper like nothin there..hehe..don know why also..hehe...then i know that somethin is still nbotherin me..but i cant figure it out what is that...and tml is tue..hmmm.....don know what to do...whether to stay back ..but decided to skip math lec ..and this will be my sec time and i think i will receive a warnin letter...whateve ah...today i don know whether i shold be happy about somethin..but this shoudl not be mention..hehehhe..keep in my heart..hehehe......

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intedned to update more since i got time left before work..supposed to start work at 11 but the manager ask me to go at 9?? 9...SIAO ah....so early....i say cannot but i can try to go at ten ah...then he say okie..then i ok ah..go one hour earlier..haha..anyway,in the mornin i will be leavin two hours earlier..cos i need to go back sch and finish my project sia...sian sia...deadline in on tue and seems that everybody is fightin for the com..i don want to fight the com with other class cos i quite like the other class..like so bad sia want to become enemy...i already become enemy with my class ready..don wanna be with other class..then got this two gers from myh buddy class want to have a class transfer...i feel like what sia..i also feel alittle sad ah...like we okok ready..then want to change clas..to say the truth who doesnt want to change class? i also wish so much to change class...cos myhy class simply suck and slack to the core...sian sia...I ALSO WANT TO CHANGE CLASS..haha..but hope they consider carefully before they change class ah..i hate my class ppl..and havin stupid IDEA Module...haha..haiz..then tml i confirm shag...work then go sch in the mornin sleep inside the mrt then after that do my project then after that go home sleep..then after that work at night..then sunday mornin go home sleep then go out...see how it goes ah...haiz...why am i torturin myself by workin??hhahahahha...but i need the money..hahaha..

hey.today is a friday...weekend comin soon..but it doesnt seems anythin to me..cos i will be workin durin the weekends..somemore is midnight..sian sia..then after that yesterday i never online...cos was damm super tired...really tired sia..even O.C i also never watch...then after that went to sleep...then nothin really yesterday cos the trainin was alright..we did court craft...is like so different from sec sch..then i think dunman sec sch netball is really strong..cos to me..SP...like not very strong..really...maybe the main players arent realyl down yesterday thats why...is like ....no i understand that teamwork and discipline really counts alot...if now i am the captain i know what to do...hahhaahha.....but last time i sucks man..toatlly sucks as a captain...haha....doin nothin much..sorry girls..haha..didnt manage to brin us thru the finals...hehe...but they were formaiable this year..they got national second..hehe..wahz..that amazin..i have been dreamin abou that since the moment i step into netbal....hahah..then yesterday i think i give attitude to someone..hahahaha..don care ah...then sorry ah ena..never reply ur msg..cos i was dead asleep..hahaha....don think too much k...cannot write too many things here ah..haha..hmm...then finally i am editin my viedo..but alot of hard work sehz..cos have to do alot of things..sian sia..stay back stay abck...liek waht sia..a long day in school sitll need to stay back and do the editin..damm..so tired..feel like sleepin anytime..somemore tonight workin..sian sia..haiz..tired...haiz...arghz......i desperately need sleep!!i need sleep...i need rest!!i need everything that make me feel awake..haiz..sian...somemore tonight manager..is...........haiz..don wanna mention ah..sian sia...i want to work kisok on sat midnight..pls..anyone let me be there..i need the rest..pls..thanks...ahahha...hope is izan..then i ask izan let me work there can? okie..i own u a treat izan..haha..pls let me work there..haha..thanks ah..ahha..i want to say i am completely heal from the wounds i had from my fal last tme..real completey heal..hahahahahha...thats somethin i have to be happy abuot...but now i don bother to think much ah...but i know my mind is thinkin ......hahha...hahaha....but this person like to give me attitude pro ah..i know somethin..i must be more decisive...i must make decision firmly and stick to it...hahaha....okie.stop here..wokrin tonight..hope it is fun and i wont be sleepy...hahah..i don wwant to do CASHIER!!pls///but i think that manager surely wil put me cashier one lor...haiz..

haiz..today is a thursday...nothin special right..got netball trainin later..then jus now saw the cool guy..haha..ahhha..hahah..he look so like bartendar..ahahha.oh my..how come he isnt good lookin anymore as i thot in the first place..then jus now after lesson i took lift with another guy alone..ah..he was so damm handsome..really handsome..so cute..then he is so polite that he ask me which floor i was going 1st or 2nd? then i say 2nd..hahah..ahha..he so cute....but i forget his face ready...haha..then nothin more today also the release of the o level chinese result..last year i was so so scared of knowin the result ....now everythin pass so fast eh..haiz..i htink this will be my shortest blog....haha..cos i got nothin much more to say..jus hope that later trainin will be fun and nice..hehe..oh my god..yesterday the concert for the national day it totally rock man..cos is so fun and so high..they really dance to their max...the dancing was nice also..hehe..hehe..power!!hehehe...then now i am in school surfin site..and lookin at jerry..oh my god..he is still as handsome as forever..hehe..haha.....okie..stop here..don know waht to say ready..

today another borin school day...haiz...only got three hours lesson..then slack for all the lessons bcos it is java!!it sucks!!haha..then after my break i got a real bad stomach ache.really painful sia...spoilt my day...then seriously painful..never see my cool guy..maybe i wasnt expectin to see him or i don have the urge to see him...that particular day of his dressin spoilt his image ready...hahah..then today decided to stay back after school to do some runnin cos my fren cherene doin some filmin..but in the end lucky i ran first before she came..cos she isnt usin the tracks..she is only usin a little part of it..then i ran six rounds my sch field..is the stadium those tracks ah...so altogether i ran 2.4KM..but i never maintain my sec sch timin...i de-proved ready..last time i ran the most is 12 or 13 mins but jus now i ran about 14,15 mins sia..damm....then after that saw floorball trainin there...but never see hakimi....thot he is floorball..but he came super late ah...he chillin sehz...hahaha....other ppl start ready he still walkin...then after that met k-yeo..he came to my sch to tour my sch..right yeo? hahaha..then we went to look for bao...then went his studio...really very steady and ZAI...wahz..power ah..no wonder he is havin so much fun in sch..cos his classmates are all so funn and funny and friendly..and is not childish..unlke mine..ahhaa....then his phyo(hope i spell her name correctly) she is very small small cute cute so sweet...hhahaha...very friendly also...all the goodlookin guys and pretty gers in the other side ah..ahhah...then after that we went to the RED BRIDGE....haha...then after that went home...then was so damm tired...so sian ah..then watch the singapore idol..so funny..aha...LEMON TREE!!haha...then wathc the room in my heart..i really love JIANKANG...he care for other so much..then his mother still want to make him suffer...poor JIANKANG..i think Qi Yu Wu actin not bad..i like him..hehe.but the show sad ah...poor JIANKANG....haiz...love love love...everythin happen bcos of LOVE!!haiz..tml trainin..hope isnt a very tough one..like not very fair ppl never come for trainin regularly like later selected...we so committed they never select...i really hope that me,carely,wai ching,nette,mary anna get in ah..hehe..good luck to all of us!!haha..

Today?nothin special..skip my maths lecture cos i film that thing until 5 in the mornin...then decided not to go for the lecture anyway it doesnt help me much..i go there also waste my time...might as well sleep more..then i went school then went for math tutorial..then okie ah...then after that eat at foodcout 4..but no appetite to eat..also don knwo why..jus drink..then after that walk to foodcourt 6 back..then today i got 2 hours break but i am alone..then i walk all the way to the main library there...cos need to pay the school fees..also don know why cannot pass...then i walk all the way there also no usae..they say cannot pay whatever ah..then i went to the main library and see see look look..alot of cool malay guys sia..or should i say alot of handsome and cool guys..haha..then after that i slowly walked back to my block alone...then went to my school library and search books about JAVA!! cos i really have to learn to be self discipline to study hard and well....and then durin the break JIA YI told me that he saw my cool guy and she say today he really very cool lahz..wear cap then the outfit also not bad..then i keep searchin for him..then after searchin i saw him...but eekksss....he isnt COOL today...he look terribly not COOL today..maybe he isnt suitable for wearin cap.and also bcos his CAp isnt cool at all...and the shirt he wore wasnt nice..wahz..i very strict ah..hahaah...but today i am not eager to see him at all...but keep bumpion into him..then today i don want to see ..........then suddenly came out of class saw him....alamak...actually feel like goin back but don ah..later very obivous...haha..then today have to take cab home after sch bcos of some problem...ahha....haiz..then was tired that i fell asleep for awhile in the cab...heheh...then so sad..no more SMALLVILLE!!~~somebody save me~~no more charmin CLARK KENT...no more gorgeous LANA...no more pretty chole...no more gentleman LEX...haha..hope season 4 comin back soon..hehehe..okie..i think nothin more to update ah...hmmm...i don thkn so...update tml....

Hey..Happy national day!!Happy 39th birthday singapore...but it seems like a normal day to me...cos i have no celebrations in school at all..unlike sec sch..we can wear red and white to sch..so fun..and i remember last year national celebration was my most unforgettable memory and most fun one..cos i wore red and white..and somemore i wear up stage to collect the long service award for netball..Thanks MR TEO...never had a chance to say that to him...and had alittle celebrations in class..we brought food and drinks..and we invited our class teachers to our class and eat the food..and it was definitely fun..and after that i remember i went to play pool..that was my very first time...playin pool..hahaha....so funny...then after that i went to watch the match of the YEAR! 5A VS 5B!! wooo...one year has passed eh..1st anniversary..ahhaha....and who won!5B....with the assist of siddique too..hehe..but if siddque still in sec 5..he will deefinitely be in own class...so he is our own ppl too..hehehe...he power sia...good good...then after that match me,ena,ruzaini,jan and ahmad went to breeks and eat...nice sia..but i somehow forget what i eat then after that we went to watch how to deal...wahz..damm nice show man..mandy moore ROCKS!!and the guy inside so handsome sehz..hahaha...hmm...that day my face was so red...and past two years i went to the national day either the preview or the actual day parade..but this year don have..i stayed at home the whole day...watched tv...eat...and sleep again..cos sleep is what i needed badly..and i silent my mode...sorry fad..never pick up ur call and reply ur msg...despite ur endless callin and msgin...never hear my phone...and i shouldnt switch it to silent mode..cos "H" msg me sehz..DAMM!!haiz...but he was definitely very sacarstic...reply me.."i think u off ur phone better,tml then reply" wahz..pissed me off..FINE! i apologise alot of times right..but u never even say NVM..IS OKIE!....give me this ........but nvm..nvm..i chill...i chill...COOL down..cool down...argh...maybe is my fault anyway should not have switch it to silent mode....haiz...then why am i still up now..is like so damm late in the night and damm early in the mornin..cos i jus filmin my EGG video..so tired sia...alot of production behind it..and my bro help me alot..without him i could not be able to finish it...haiz..okie..don knwo whether it wil turn out good and well..hope it will..tired ready sehz...hope tml i will have a smooth day...i don want to see him tml in sch!

Wahz..is has been like two whole days i never update my blog..ppl..gona spent awhile readin here..is u all are interested...hehehe..i didnt know my blog can keep K-yeo occupied for 30 mins...hahah..K-yeo this one maybe 45 mins ah..ahhahahah...ahhah...see 5 mins wasted..ahhaha...no lahz..okie..back to work...fri..hmm...what happen on fri?OH YA!!i saw the cool guy in school sia..finally man...i was like so shocked and happy..when i see him..i was like"eh..eh..the cool guy the cool guy" haha...he so handsome sia..he wear spec..and i think his hair is really very cool...then i keep murmurin in class that "eh..finally i see the handsome guy"hahah..my frens cannot stand me..haha..then hmmm...want to say about "H"??nothin much to say..or should i say i got nothin to say..i also don know why got one day he lied to me..he told me that his fren want to go but in the end his fren told me that he is the one that want to go?wooo..who is tellin the truth i think is his fren..cos his fren isnt those kind that want to go one...so i also got no idea why he want to lie..but let him be ah...hahah...but even though i thought i like "H" but the thing is that when i see him my heart wont be bumpin...funny..maybe i dont...maybe he is jus another guy that i can look out for in school...the have the idea lesson..super lame sia..we were given a task to do a project -an innovative product...so on fri we present the power point..then is like so lame..the damm idiotic teacher is damm sarcarstic....eeekss....then finish lesson...then jus nice saw hakimi they all and took the same train as them...then hakimi told me that he saw a cute ger yesterday..funny sia..didnt expect him to tell me this kind of stuff...hahaha....then went home...bath go out again...went out to buy vin present...and everyone was late..hahaha...but is okie..cos i took the time to shop alittle..then joey bluff me sia..he can be a little good actor...he small small size but with very wacky ideas up in his head...he joker ah...he keep makein me laugh ....so funny..then after that went to work..i work midnight shift sehz..first time eversince holidays..then work with farihan,izan,farhannah,jermeriah,aka nor and sallehan...okie ah..quite fun ah..but suddenly like little things to do sehz..like very fast do finish the stuffs...funny ah..then in the mornin as i expectedd..did cashier again...then went home with aka nor,farhannah,farihan and izan...first time ...then like so funny...not very comfortable ....then in the mornin reach home then went to sleep cos i was really damm tired..when i do cashier i take orders also like want to sleep sia...so sleepy...then after that sleep until 5 plus wake up..was alittle shocked i wake up so late cos i thought i will sleep until 2+..then go out and meet F4 and joel cos yesterday was vinson birthday..we sort of have alittle surprised for him.,.and after that they went hockey court to play soccer....then i went home first...then after that i work jus now..work in the mornin...haiz...CASHIER again..Sian sia...nothin to do.but cashier...but ialso did alittle EB ah..fun sia...i fallin in love with steamin the milk..hehe...then nothin really much while work jus now..and now i decided to stay at home...i realised i really really don know..seriously don know how to judge ppl....ppl may appear decent in the first place btbu the more u get to know them..the more they reveal themselves....the more u think u judge that person correctly the more it provin u wrong...how sia..i really feel like havin a machine to tell me what kind of and character this person is..so that i wont feel like i keep makin wrong judgement...thats so sad to know that i don know who to trust and who not to...i know now i got one person i really trust...a fren that i never thought i would be close to..wahz..this sentence seems so familiar to myself sehz..i think is hard to fall in love..but is easy to have crushes...cos i find myself hard to fall in love again...i don know ah..alot of different things on my mind now...and sometimes i wonder if something never happen will other things happen in my life..maybe i wil be a happier person now...don know ah..too many things happen ...too many ppl walked passed my life..few stayed by my side..i thought i treat them well but they still walk out of my life..there is no way i can make them stay...the only thing i can do to let myself hurt less is not to make too many good new frens..cos if they do the same thing to me..i will be sad over it....losin ppl in life is never a good thing..and is a heartache which is hard to cure..but if that person is someone u hated..then let him/her go...forget bout it....i appreciated those who stay on by my side and i continued to try my very best to be their good fren...i might not be the best one or what ever...but at least i know i try....those cannot see will get out of my life...those who stay are also those who appreciated..i hope this is what i thought..i hate to have wrong judgement...that make me look so stupid and foolish...damm!!

What day is it today? IS THURSDAY!! hahaa...How is my day? Fine...nothing much really..but i must scream out that "SINCE MONDAY I HAVENT SEE THE COOL GUY IN SCHOOL!!"hahah..really sia..also don know how come never see him..so funny..last week see him almost everyday..then this week none...haiz..but nvm..he is jus someone for me to look in school..cos my school hopeless no much handsome guy..ahahaah....but i also wont jus for the sake of lookin at handsome guy then go foodcourt 4 and eat...is only my class is there..anyway,ppl say my foodcourt 6 sells the nicest food...hehehe...and i agree..haha...but my fren very cute..every foodcourt got her fav food..so cute and funny sia..haha...then today nothin special...had my netball trainin and it was terrific fun although it was tough...but i was super hyper durin traini and i got no idea why...haha..jus super hyper..was very happy...and i did have my last time laughter back..the CP's LAUGHTER THAT PPL MISS..haha...right..myh 5B classmates...they do miss my LAUGHTERS right..hahaahhahahhahaa....ahhaahahahaaah...okie..see how crazy can i go? ahha...okie..hmmm...then surprisin SP soccer havin traini today..btu is like so weird they doesnt look like SP soccer players...haahah..don know ah..but i love my netball frens ...all so friendly and nice..and i seriouslyy hope that every of us get into the team for IVP..hope so..please...ehhehehe.....but Shyuan..DUNMAN NETBALL IS STILL THE BEST!!MISS THE TIMES!!i miss u guys and hope u guys do ur best in Os ah..pass the msg around work hard and send my regards for them..as well as CC,HQ,WL,ANGELINE,XY,YP and all the other..oh ya..and LX..oh my god.so long never see u all le...must study hard ah..then after that can really play hard...hehee...i am afraid to fall in love..but also waitin for ppl to fall in love with me..hahah..SIAO!!hahahaha....haiz..hopin to do well for my studies as well...JIA YOU CP!! JIA YOU EVERYONE!!.....hehee..hehe...all the best and take care...*JAY CHOU-QI LI XIANG*

what day is it today? is wednesday....and i haven see my cool guy in school yet...oh no....haha..never see him sia..haiyo..but maybe tml i will ah..ahhaa..hahha...don know...hmm....what to say today..had a short school day in school...went to java lectures...not listenin not studyin..not doin anythin...waitin for answer for everything..haiz...don know lahz...then when break is sort of like the canteen so empty cos we break early today again..then like no handsome guy to see also..haha...then my canteen seems like got alot of nice food but none are appealin to me...end up eatin my fav fishball...hahahah...then today saw "H" in the canteen...hehe..talk to him for awhile...and he is so cute when he say BYE to me..hahaa..haha..sometimes he do make my day too...but somehow have to control my feelin...somethin is jus so far for me to reach...and even gers in his class say he is good-lookin..bet he got alot of admirers..haha...don know don know don know..have to stay up late to finish my assignment..haiz..headache sia...and my stupid flu still here...so worry about my work..so pack...seems like i got no time at all...i think i have to really work hard..i bet next week gona stay back for almost everyday cos i have to edit my video...aiyho..i hate individual projects!!cos i cant rely on anyone except myself...haiz..how how how? tons n tons of work comin in...but audio finally i complete but it sucks and by tonight i have to complete my STSC report...then the storyboard also..didnt manage to do it jus now..haiz..okie..guess i wont stay online for long..so many things to do...anyway..after someone's GREAT advice i still think that LIFE SUCKS...don try to change my view of thinkin when u don F**Kin care! jus carry on with ur good life...doesnt make any difference to me...haha...hmm..havin netball trainin tml...hope i can tanhan..cos i feel sick..sick sick sick..sian..sian.sian..hope i will recover..khai also sick...so poor thing...we very poor thing...haiz...Fad,sorry to say but i still think LOVE n LIFE sucks..not yet change my view of thinking..but since today, i feel that i no longer miss sec sch ever more than i did last time...maybe i should try to let go of the past..cos i cant and wont be able to hold n remember n still ponder about it forever...as something jus have to let it go..if i don let it go i wont find fuun in sch..but actually i ready find that school is fun with my new friends -JiaYi(she got alot of nicknames like WAN ZAI ZI,QUeen)haha..then cherrene(Mummi-Zi)hahah...and i got one same as me Jerry's lover -ting ting...these three will make me laugh and laugh which i thought i will never be able to laugh like that anymore..and my netball frens make the trainin even more funn and happier...but life still sucks!!haha..thats all about it..update if i want to say anything...take care ppl...

Wah..now i remember what i want to write le...i have been sayin things too fast..cos on monday nette is sick...and we were like talkin about it..then i told my netballmates that i don mind havin flu..cough or fever...i don want to have sore throat..cos that the worst it can be..and then today i have such a damm terrible flu which kinda of spoilt my day..so sucks man...then i remember my very very super sick time was that time durin O level..like want to die soon sia..really...seems like dyin those feelins...then somemore is my maths paper...then i don know lahz..so never sudy..then now i got this stupid flu..see what i mean by sayin things too fast..haiz..ok lahz..eyes closin makin me sleepy bcos of this stupid flu..haiz..headache thinkin of what to wear tml..hahha...siao...okie lahz..then what do i still want to say..nothin more..but i think i am alittle happy...but i don want to crush myself into endless things/relation at all!!haha

haiz..jus now went to the concert..a mini stella concert it was fun and quite okie..but somehow i don know why i jus feel so uncomfortable...seems so funny..then jus now they SPSU official was so fierce and so not polite...we were alittle unpleased at him for somethin ah..then my fren say somethin i think he heard it then he scolded "F**K YOU!" then i was shocked..then slowly we go in..then when my fren walked passed him he shouted "BITCH!!"hey what kind of man are u?they my fren really very pissed and angry somemore my fren very pretty okie...treat a pretty lady like that...then it was also this that i didnt have fun in the concert ah..like i feel gulity..is like bcos of me my fren they all are wan tto go...thats why ah..don know lahz..then i also want to say that i kinda of scared to fall in love again...don know? if you keep lookin out for this person,is this called love?if u wish u could call him and tell him every single thin that happen to u today is it called love?if u treasure the time u talk to him is it called love?u would wish that u could see him everyday is it called love?i don know and i don wish to know...i feel like i am stoppi myself my heart to fall in love....haha..why? i don know...cos i am tired of it..and is always kinda of happen to me that every guy i like......nothin will happen in the end..so why wasted my time? so...don know ah...jus hope feelin don ever come to me...but i am only a simple girl wishin for a simple love..haha...this one also difficult....but even though ppl know that they might end up gettin hurt in a relationship they still crush themselves insidee it...how stupid can us human be??and i am so stress on sch work..seems like everyone is doin their work..but not me...maybe i am more suitable for ITE!this is too stressin and maybe i can only study uunder stressless environment..cos durin sec sch...i feel no much stress..haiz..don know lahz..life goes on doesnt it?

haiz..wahz..never update my blog yesterday cos i am very tired..really very tired...cos i had my netball trainin yesterday but was quite a slack one...then wasnt very happy in the trainin...then yesterday saw my handsome guy...but don know somehow i was waitin for today to arrive..and it came .....YEAH...i am happy now..cos somethin somethin somethin..hahahhaha....actually also nothing to update but is like my sch project is gettin more and more and i am gettin stresser and stresser..haiz..what am i goin to do....STRESS!!!and i have been dreamin and dreamin and dreamin...haiz..i think i haven know wheres my limit...is like my limit for netball or limit for work..is like i keep pushin myself to the highest climax that i get reached and i know that i still can pushed....haiz..seems like not many things to write..havin monday blues yesterday..but now i am alittle happy...or should i say happy?? hahahahah..hehehehe..hahhaha..hehhhe..YEAH!!hahahaha...hahahha....but jus have to keep it low....low...low...very tired lehz....haiz...if i rememeber anythin then i update ah...too happy to think about anythin now..hehedon know lahz..can be moody can be happy at times..heheh...stop here for now...

wat a day....

haiz..was alittle pissed at work jus now..mornin was alright ah...but i stay until 6 then is alvin who is the manager..then i feel that he doesnt appreciate ppl who stay and help his shift not like jason,kak elly or kak nor..they will say thank you thank you and ask u to take any drinks..this one don even bother to say thank you....or should i say bcos i never filrt with him...sucks...he like very girl treat so nicely..goosebumps comin up...eeekkss!!!don know him lahz..then when around 5+ i alittle pissed but don know at what..my face like no smile at all....also don know why....then help him stay until 6 good okie...if i don care don bother 4 sharp i jus jolly well go home sia!!!idiot....haiz..nvm...nothin make my day today..but i was alittle happy yesterday..heehhe..cos i jus msg someone a forwarded msg...and that someone replied like so shocked and like so appreciate my msg..somemore is jus a simple forwarded msg...thanks...hehe...he make my day..then somemore,yesterday work with fad...is was okie...isnt as silent as i thought it would be...yupz..and i forget what i want to write about ready... hmm...oh ya..then finally i msg bani yesterday also...really like a fren man but what weird is that i don really know him well but is so like a friend to me..ahha....he say"so,ur coffee skills improvin ah?" haha..AM I? hahah...then i have been thinkin about how to film my project sia..two weeks more to deadline..oh ya...this tue i am goin to my school..SP..for a small stella mini concert..hehe...and waitin for this tue toooo...for my two hours break..hehe..hope .....haha..then tml netball trainin..haiz...tired sia...also don know why i so tirin myself out..and somemore i feel like punchin ppl ah...right....guys guys all type of guys..but i think all guys are the same.....see one like one....but why so many guys we meet..alot are in this caterory....sad man...haiz...yeah.,...but singlehood rocks...and LOVE S**CKS!!!doesnt it?but we are still pursin for it....human are stupid creature...hahaha...i am stupid too..don know lahz..jus hope i have a good week startin from tml...all the best man...oh ya..hope to see my cool guy in sch tml..ahhaha..hahhaah....ok lahz..forget what i want to write already...if i ever remember then i update again..FREN...don be sad...lets be happy...bastard (nono....not even worth a bastard) arent worth to be sad about...okie...take care guys...hehe :)