What is happenin to me??

haiz...i dont know what's on my mind..jus doesnt seem myself for the whole of this week...don know whats goin on with me...feelin like givin out a loud and nice scream!! there is somethin in me i wish to vent out..but i got no idea what is inside of me? i donknow why i felt so bothered...don know why i cant focused!then jus now got netball trainin..IT SUCKS...i may not the trainin sucks..is me myself...i don know whats goin on in my mind..i jus couldnt focuesd...and i didnt play well...SUCKS man..don know what i am doin either...my frens told me that i was the CHUNPEI on court today..seems so not me...i think likewise too..cant defend properly..have no idea where the ball is throwin too..they are jus a weak team and i play like shit..SUCKS man...so bothered by it...cannot play well..what am i thinkin...ARGH~~~then sorry jiayi and cher..make them go all the way to sports complex jus for the audio thingy..then after that they still need to climb back...haiz..wasin feelin right..Damm!!haiz..then trainin i wasnt playin what i use to play either...is it that i can playh under pressure? i don think so..haiz..how? what is goin on with me this week??then today wake up late as usual..i think i am jus too tired to hear my alarm ringing..cant hear it sia..then overslept..then reach class 20 mins late...then nothin much in school...slept in the STSC..haha...i don know..i jus like fell asleep..hahah....haiz..everybody wasnt feelin right...this week is a down week...and Miss entertainer goes to Miss Jiayi again this week..although she also have some problems...but she manged to joke and smile..i lost the energy to laugh le..i lost the energy to think...i was so sad..so emo today...while waitin for my train back to SEngkang...i was hearin jerry's new song...i know that it wasnt the song that make me shed some tears..but somehow i shed some tears...the reason behind this..i really have no idea...jus feel like cryin..maybe stressin myself too much..maybe i am jus too tired..maybe i jus need some rest..maybe i jus need sometime for myself...i used to be so so sso cheerful...but haiz...i couldnt cheer myself up again..haiz..maybe i need care...my leg hurts...it is still alittle painful...haiz..it stills swell...haiz...
All this time,
i didnt realise until recently,
that i am bein treated like a fool,
thought u were true,
but i was wrong.
till now then i realise,
i am jus a decoration,
to make ur life happier,
jus a decoration,
to liven up ur life,
jus a decoration,
to make u feel ocuppied.
u throw me aside when u found love,
u nelgect my feelin,
leavin me alone,
but i was brave enuff to stand on my feets,
showin u how strong i am,
and i am glad that i see the TRUE COLORS of you!
wahz..once again i written somethin...haha..didnt know i am capable of this too..hehe.....haioz..emo eh...yeo ah..influ me..haha..no lahz..i am jus bein bothered by somethin me myself isnt sure of...maybe somethin bad is gona happen..u know those feelin u will have before somthin bad happen?? haiz..don know lahz..tml is a friday..a busy day too...hmmm....havin been treated by attitude problems...