bye hongkong.. my beloved hongkong!!
this was definitely a fun trip!! shop till my leg drop, shop till we are very tired, but all are worth the tiredness!! we had a lot of fun together. see, we have to be 3 together to be fun! and this was fun! though 5 days seems short, i would prefer to go for longer trips, but then no money. 5 days were good enough too....

i had alot of feelings attached to hongkong, 2 years ago i went with mj,wei,nette and kim. this time round i went back to places we went and even to places that we did not went. they have alot of shopping places for teenagers, streets are crowded, fully packed with people. so i must say that hongkong population is huge! the people started working when they were very young, a hair stylist is only 20 and he is already working. and you can see all the bellboys are very young too. they have no lack of handsome guys there. god! everywhere we go, we see handsome guys! they are all good-looking. you cant find them in singapore. defintely no. and i found something interesting. everyone seems attached there! you can hardly find a single soul who is without boyfriend or girlfriend. i wonder why. but is interesting. i should stay there, moreover the guys are handsome!! haha.....

come, lets see, this is out hotel room! isn't is so nice! still have LCD screen TV! isn't that cool! the 3 of us spend 5 days together in this room, spent 4 nights together sleeping on the bed, it was fun. we chatted alot, played and definitely having fun. i love this hotel.

see! this table of dim-sum! it was yuummy and delicious! and most importantly CHEAP! really! so much cheaper in hongkong! and it was nice! love the carrot cake, the congee, the egg tart, the siew mai, the ha kau and alot! what a filling breakfast! i MISS it!!

what a beautiful barbie shoe!

can't believe it! what an amazing shinning barbie shoe!

Big Big Purse!!

Retarded pose!

the shoe for the last time!! yeah!!

this guy was trying to wave to us! he spotted us! haha..so funny! anyway his singing not bad!! yeah!

finally, here the photo. i was happy, i was exhilarated, i was jumping up and down, because this is my last day of ITP!!
advertising for this shop! Delicious!
cute posing to attract people!!
what a happy family..... whahaha!!
4 months of friends! thank you!!

--- Closure for ITP! ---

here i am again, thought i would have nothing to blog about, but u never predict anything that is going to happen.

we are often limited to the restrictions surrounding us.
because of this, we are not allowed to do this,
because of that, we are not allowed to do this,
because of this, we are supposed to do this,
because of that , we are supposed to do that.

we are always tied to things we hate to do, things we dislike, but due to circumstances, we HAVE to do that, we HAVE to do this. i don understand.
now, i more and more realise that i can't do things i don't like. no use forcing me into things i don't like, because in the end, i will acculmulate all the unhappiness, then burst altogether one day. that will be worse.
people complaining that i didn't provide necessary customer service, but let me tell you the guy who complain got no MANNERS! Damm... he is such a pussy! i just cant take it lying down. it might be my wrong, but i don often make this mistake, it was just once or twice, yet i was caught by this pussy. idiot!!
the more i work, the more i can't gain any satisfaction from the work anymore.
is like i always make mistake nowadays. so i cant find my satisfaction in this work. is like everything is gone. is it me or the place?

why is it that always when i am ready to go travel and relax and refresh myself, i am always dumped with stupid problems. my friends! my work! always dumped me with this freaking problems.
then in the end, when i come back, i will just disappear from where i supposed to appear. it happened 2 years ago, will the same thing repeat itself?

i am freaking f**king tired..................
will u people give me a break!
i am definitely not living very happily......
i hate life....
hate how life is supposed to live....
hate the attitude i recevied.

i was served by bad customer service but i don go around complaining to the manager, or what so ever, why must this happen to me.!
people who provide bad customer service can get away, it only happen to me once, and the problems all started coming. am i such a bad luck? argh!

everything is gona have a change, a new change.
i was really happy for that moment of joyful! i was exhilarated when i know i am gettin out of there, i was about to just shout out loud. i have friends who are there to share the joy, was so fun! thought things between the 3 of us isn't like last time, but lucky, the feeling is still there. i still love to be with Cfren and Jfren together. we have to be together to be fun, not missing any one of us. i think i am the only one among them who felt so, i really love the 3 of us together. i hope everything wil be as fun and fun and more fun for the next semster.
what could be more fun to have the 3 of us together?
i hope everything will be this fun!!

is it that u remember wrongly or u purposely?
i was left in daze... my determination wasn't that strong anyway.


the after-feelings for leaving the place? HAPPY! though i felt happy, but the happines is gone for the moment. cos everything will return to how it will be. nothing much to celebrate about too. just got rid of those early waking up, those slacking at work. but guess, i will somehow still miss those lunch times with my intern-mates, if not for them, i will be alone. thank god, have them, if not this whole internship is going to be worse. thanks my friends - yixiong & alex! had quite alot of laugthers, shared alot of complains, know each other better, i guess next time in school, we wont be just any HI-BYE friends, but friends who will stop and chat abit more... WHahahah!!

now, to admit, i do feel abit empty and lost. what should i do next? what is going to happen? what is stepping into my life?
what is it that i am worryin? what is it that i am not happy about?


guess i am still not strong enough. been feeling alittle restless nowadays, haven been the chirpy me. don know whether Jfren felt that. i know that my conversation with her wasnt as interesting as previous, i have been keeping more quiet than usual.


i really hope the hongkong trip will change me, make me a happier person, and hope it will be a fun fun fun trip! i yearn for that.... cool!! see you guys when i am back fron hongkong then. guess nowadays, i wont have the time and effort to blog interesting post. :)

come on my frens, sing with me "yeap yeah yippe yea, hurray ray!!!" cool!!

MY LAST DAY OF INTERNSHIP!! GOD...can u believe it? is my last day today.. i am high, i am happy, i am over the wheels, over the heels, over over over and happy! my freaking long awaited moment, can u feel my anxious to get out? feel my happines ? feel how happy i am? whooo! i am out of here, out of morning wake ups, out of aching back, out of marina square foodcout, out of raffles city, out of this place!! i am just so happy.. can i shout! i wanna shout !! OH YEAH!! i am just so free now..i am out i am going off. i wanna start my life with a new goal with a new future and with a new mind. i wanna have a good holiday and take some rest and then i will start my school with a fresh mind and everythin new.
so, tune on to see a new of me! i will be new!!
haha..

people must think that i am crazy to be like so hyper and high, bet people in internship before can understand how i feel. i am just so happy.



everything has come to an end, i will start everything anew, a new me, a new character me. but of cos, some wil stay with me, but of cos i hope the bad one get away. half an hour more i gonna shut down my computer, put it back, give some chocolates and say bye bye to the department, come back here, give some chocolate and say bye bye to the people here...
hahhaa...
see, how good i am, buy chocolate for them.. godness, only chocolate.. i am broke, offically broke...

anyway i am still looking forward for soemthing else,
Cfren and Jfren knows. we are in it together.. love them,
meeting them later..
i going to party party party!
alright....going to do things now..bye bye...

i found something interesting. i've got nothing to do, so i went online to search my name, and i found alot of people having the same name as me. i was totally cool by it! haha..if u know what i am trying to say. i thought nobody else will have the same name as me. and those people having the same name as me are those professor, doctor,president of a company. isn't it cool? will i make it there when i am old? haha...

love, god! i surrender to that. why? i have watched too much dramas, too much. i know i love watching this genre of dramas, cos sometimes it can be so sweet, sometimes so sad, and sometimes so happy.but everytime, after i finish one drama, i start thinking, does this kind of love exist in the world? how could it possibly be? love the person until you find it difficult to breathe, wish to see the person every second every minute and every hour and every day, really give the whole heart to that person, willing to die for that person. will i see all this in reality? is too much to take for reality. but everytime i watched drama, i could really feel how much they loved that person, how hurt they felt, how sad they are, how happy are they, but i can't feel the happiness that surround them every moment.
the kind of drama always have the same plot and somehow same storyline, both main cast Girl and Boy love each other, but for some reasons cannot be together, Evil girl and evil boy will come into the picture using every opporunites to ruin the relationship between them, but in end, they not only didnt get what they want, they brought the Girl and Boy closer together, and made them realise more that they need each other. isn't all this plot seems so familiar. though it is similar, i still watch every this kind of drama. i always love the part where the boy always try so hard so hard to protect the girl. however, all this cannot be brought up into real life. have to seperate drama with reality.
so, drama always give me hope, but reality tarnish them! so i hate reality.
i am those fairytale girl.
haha..ppl,please don laugh.
if can, pls go find me non-fairytale girl. i bet almost all of the girls in the world would wish for fairytale love and fairytale living together happily everafter ending. but so sad, i could only find all this in dramas! but whatever, i still can see fairytale somewhere.


musical box, long since i have opened a musical box and listen to all the music. i have always like musical box. it is such a special box, you open up, not looking at a empty box, but when u opened the box, music could be heard, beautiful music, childhood music, interesting music, pink panter music. musical box sounds like magic box. yeah, indeed is a magic box, it can produce sound, isnt is magical? i think i should live in those fairytale times, when prince charming ride a horse and look for me, give me a musical box as present and in the end we live happily everafter...
wahhahhahahahaah!
godness! i am laughing when i wrote that. am i crazy? why did all this sudden came into my mind.
whatever is anything.


people can u believe it? 2 more days, and i will be free from here! ya! here! i will be free. this is so unbelievable. i cant believe it. i am leaving. i have been here for long. i am going leave,and have a good holiday, have a hardworking holiday and start school, dump myself into piles and piles of school work and my part time, then graduate, then work and save money. this is all not my life. my life will only begins when i study what i want to study. that is my life. that is when my interesting life gonna happen. i am not expecting too much, but i will suppress my eager to start studying what i want to earn for that. i am going earn my own money to study what i want. so in the end, if i failed i have no one to blame except me. the most i blame god...


arent i long winded, can talk and write for non stop. anyway, let me report, the time now is 5.32 pm. so it means i have got like 15 more mins to go to say bye bye.
so let me just rant abit more.
i am trying very hard.
trying and trying.
i will be happy with the decision to end what i am suffering
but sad for the result though it is what i should deserve,


wonderful fairytale,
ugly princess,
where is prince charming?
please dont appear,
if prince charming appear,
ugly princess will not shine,
and will be uglier.
so,don appear until ugly princess shine!

whats wrong with me writing all those funny things?
i am mad.
i want to be alone.
i am tired.
real tired.
pls let me off.

back to work, hmm..should i be happy? this is my last week here!!! i should be happy...yet i am not feeling it. it isnt that i miss this place, i guess i also don know how i should explain. but ya, i am left with freaking 3 more days! come on my friends cheer for me! YEAH! great, being here make me crazy.

anyway, i do have alot of things i want to express again, but i guess i will slowly recap what i wanna say then write it down.
but first let me say something "What! beckham isnt in england team anymore?!" you must me kidding me. how can he not be in the team. i know young and good players are coming up, isnt experienced players important too.i feel that he made alot of contributions in this year's world cup! though he didnt led the team to the finals, but still he made alot of contributions. i am so sad! rumoured that lennon is taking over beckham's position, he is a fast player, but i think beckham is still a great player. guess, i have to catch real madrid to watch more of his play, but spanish leagues isnt very exciting and interesting.


okie, i am loss for words, let me just stop here first.

red light means "GO!", green light means "STOP!", what does orange light means?

i have a phobia for traffic light, i don like seeing red,green and orange together. i hate it, hate it terribly. when do i have to stop? when do i have to slow down? when do i need to speed up? next time i shall hire a driver! i wont agree that driving is cool! is horrible.


i feel a sense of saddness overwhelming me. i seriously cant figure out where the saddness is coming from. maybe is from alot of things. like work, life, and different kind of relations.

finally, my long awaited internship is finally ending, but i am not extremely happy. i guess is because i waitied for this moment for too long, and the happy feeling has died down. so, when it is ending, i just take it as nothing. or actually deep down, i already got used to this life?
ya, i know we have to get used to things around us, have to get used to a new environment, have to get used to things that we dont like, have to get used just to survive. life are just so sad.

or is my saddness coming from elsewhere? that i didnt know that i will be real sad over it? cos, i have 100% put everything down and give up. i have to put down to make my life a better life. i have to put down in order to accept new things in my life. i have to put down cos it just causing me so much saddness and restrictions. i have to put it down cos i have been deceiving myself. i have to put it down cos i read too much into it. i have to put it down cos everythings are just nothing, i have to put it down, cos i am awaiting for new challenges in life. i have to put it down to start a new life. i have to put it down cos it has been lingering for too long, i have to put it down cos there nothing more that i can do. so now, i can really say that i have put down! i am happy for this decision, but sad for the result. but i am hoping that my life will be happier and better.

i keep saying and telling everybody that i wanna be sick, let sick befalls me. i guess this sickness is coming at the wrong time and is coming very slowly.
i feel weaker day by day. illness coming 1 by 1. first was flu,consistent flu, second was cough, very dry cough, third is stomach upset, fourth will be giddy. i know myself, i know that when i am sick, i will be emotionally weak as well. i will be a very weak person when i am sick and i know it. thats why i can feel tears every now and then. but lucky it didnt rolled down, if not alot of people will start staring at me and asking me what happen. so, i still can controlled my tears.

this year's national day, i didnt go and catch the fireworks. i love fireworks alot alot. cos it is very beautiful and in singapore, it can only be seen on special occasions. so, i treasure fireworks alot. but, i didnt go..................... watching it on tv is not interesting at all, i cant feel the hot, i cant feel the beauty and i cant feel the loud bang! i jus cant feel the fireworks.

fireworks are beautiful
they light up the dark sky,
brighten the dull black,
give hopes to the livings,
though it doesnt last long,
but we capture the beauty of it!


i wanna test my patience!

I nearly broke down. Things went so out of hand and it became so hard to end everything. Nosy people started the fire, innocent people get burned in the fire. Firemen doesn't have enough water to save the innocent people, eventually they were burnt alive and die. A stupid person stood by the fire and see how the innocent people die. In the end, when the innocent people are dead, the stupid person feels guilty, feels down, feels sad. The person knew he/she could do something more to just help. But in the end, everyone get hurt in this incident. The people who start this fire is the culprit.

People, tell me how to prevent the innocent people get burnt alive?

Things are always very complicated. It is always some miscommunications somewhere, some misunderstandings here and there. Slowly, everything sums up, and triggered people's emotions. How should I go about describing?

Last 2 year, before I went hong kong, I was dumped with some problems from my fren,

Now, after 2 years, I am going hong kong for holiday again, I was dumped with problems from my frens as well..

Will history repeat itself?

Will I just stay away because I am too tired of it?

Because, "history tends to repeat itself" can always be seen on me.

Things are always changing in my life.

Somehow, deep in my heart, I know what I want in my life, but I am afraid to make a bad decision which will concern my whole life, and which my future lies on it. I am afraid, I am scared, because no one can assure me that what I am going to do, will have a good prospect. Everyone gave me a negative comment about it. I am so down.

Enough things for me to vex, more things coming. Am I someone that couldn't take what it comes, or couldn't take the pressure that is coming? My work, I have more responsibility having to coach the trainees, and I am trying very hard to be very nice and to be very patient to them because I put myself in their shoes, but then they aren't giving the right attitude. They seems that they don't give a damm or don't even bother. What is this? Why I have to do all this? Why can I just work and have fun during work.

I am so tired and worn out. I just want to have a good rest and a long holiday free from worries and troubles.


However, I can be more sure that I gave up or I have put down. Sometime, I should relaxed and shouldn't make myself miserable. I should enjoyed my life, though I doesn't sound that I am right now. But, I am sure I have some happy moments.

Nowadays, I wrote very long very long blog entries, because I got so much time, so much time that I can really think through what I wanna say or what I wanna blog, then I slowly phrase it out and write it here.

Am I a boring blogger? Haha…

Daily lifestyle, I am restricting myself from bloggin daily lifestyle. Is so funny. So I rather post thing that I feel in life or some pretty enlightenment stuffs.

Haha, this 2 days, my tears are just at corner of my eyes, if I think more, tears will just rolled down. Is it because that I am feeling sick therefore feeling emotionally weak as well?
Or is it that I wanna cry but suppress myself? Which is the one I am feeling now?
Of cos, only I am able to tell.



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I am emotional, dramatically emotional. I lost sense of my direction, I lost who I am, I lost what I wanna be. I did say that dreams tend to be difficult to realize, that's why it was call Dreams. But, I have come to realize that not everyone can fulfill their dreams. I want to be the one that can fulfill my dreams, but situation given here doesn't allow me to go ahead. I always hear "go ahead and pursue your dreams", but then how many can really pursue their dreams? Many are driven to desk-bound jobs because they realize that their dreams are far out of reach. I am contradicting. I heard one say " you never know the results if you never try". Of course, I totally agree with this saying. But not everyone can afford the time and money to keep trying. If I am rich, I won't have any worries, and I will just follow my dreams. If I am young, I won't have so many doubts, and go with my heart. But the thing here is I am neither rich nor young. I cannot afford to waste another 3 years to realize that I have to starve with this field that I will be in. So what's now?

Go with my heart and purse my dreams?

Or

Given the circumstances, I should jus go with the demand?


I am terribly in a dilemma. Why I don't know what I want when I was choosing my course of studies?
Why didn't I explore what I like when I am entering poly. Hell of me. I regretted totally.
Everyone's opinion is that I must be the best to survive in my field. What if I can't be the best?
I am trying to give myself confident, but still I have to think of the negative side and the consequences.

Why am I stuck here? In the middle of a crossroad, not knowing which direction to go, not knowing where I will be heading, not knowing what my future lies for me, not knowing what I should do.
I am terribly feeling down everyday thinking about what I should do.
With graduation coming nearby, things have to fall apart and have to settle. I have to think a solution and my way to the future.

I once told myself, what is life. It seems everyone is living such a mono life. After their studies, they come out to work, after some years of working, they settle down start a family, after few years of newly-wed, they give birth, bring up the children, educate their child, and then become old.
I told myself, this isn't the kind of life I was looking for. I don want to live such a life. I feel that this kind of life seems that you are living for the sake of living, and not live for the sake of living for yourself.
I told myself, I want to do things I like, I want to do things I love. I should pursue things I love and go for things I love. But why am I here keep rattling about whether I should take up what I love?
What am I still worrying for?

I have always know that, actions speak louder than words. I can keep rattling non stop, but u will never see the actions. U may think that I always talk big, but no actions. Maybe this is me?

Have I found me? Do I love the me now?all this questions starting to pile up inside my head. Am I being too over, doubting myself? Maybe some might think so, some otherwise. I am trying hard just to leave all this aside and relax. I am totally vexed over this matter. I am tired thinking. I am tired vexing. I am totally tired and worn out. I am have a big headache. I am not smiling anymore. I am tired.


I have always been a happy girl. Since when did I become unhappy? Unhappy about the life I am leading now? Unhappy about the path I chose, unhappy about how I go about ruining my life. Even worse, unhappy about my whole character. Damm it! all this shouldn't have happen on me. My life is a mess. I don know what I want and what I want and what I want!!!


I wish for someone to tell me what I should do, or maybe can advise me.

Maybe living in the 20's or 50's is more carefree and good. You would have to be so ambitious and live the way everyone is living. Trying hard to earn a living. Having all the time to relax and everyone just be together. No worries at that time about what you like what you want and what are dreams.

This is totally a headache!!!

i am going to use the remaining around 40 minutes to blog…
god, I am going crazy staying here, I seriously cant wait for 17th August. The day that I am set free from this whole attachment thing. Is getting so out of hand that I cannot take it. so tiring, I jus cant wait to end this thing and think bout my future and do things I wanna do, meet ppl I want to meet.

True enough, I will get so influenced by certain tv serials or movies. Psychology, I remembered I wanted to study this a lot . cos I think it is an interesting thing to understand what other people are thinking and what psychology problems they are facing. When one tends to think a lot, they will got hysterical, and jus cant get the thing off their mind. Is psychology about subconscious kinda of thing? What is subconscious then? Does it occur on me too? I wonder sometimes. How come there will be people stuck in their own world of fantasy and never get out? They cant be called insane, they jus cant untie the knot in them. So what does this people have in mind, if they live in their own world of fantasy, do they know who they really are? I am really interested in knowing whats on their mind. And how psychology therapy can help them get out of their world of fantasy. It is so fascinating isn’t it? understand human’s thinking. But what often and tends to happen is that, you understand people very well, yet u are the one that don’t understand yourself. Understand yourself? What definition is this? How do I considered myself, understand myself? Psychologist can understand one’s character and emotion and their thinking based on certain things they do, they write, they like, they talk, they walk. Does it really tells it all? I like words written in italic, so what does that mean? I walk slanted? Haha… no, I am jus joking. Hmm, interesting, this is so interesting. I think there are a lot more to know about psychology. But I guess I am not up to it. hmm, what does this mean? I know! I don have confident! Like Duh!! Everyone knows that… haha.. lolx…


Pirates of carribean – dead man chest! Though, it isn’t as interesting as the black pearl, but it still meets my expectations. The show was funny from the start, and though the fighting scene increased and story has to be continued, but it was still a good show. I had a good laugh! I admire Johnny depp as an actor! He is incredible, he is marvelous, he is fantastic!
Cos the reactions in the show, he was superb! That’s what make me laugh. He was funny in the show. Though the whole show lasted for like 2 and a half hour, but I don’t feel that it was 2 and a half hour, it doesn’t feel that long, so still, it was a show that is worth the watch.

Tokyo Drift – I watched this show as well, wow! The girls were hot, and the cars are fantastic. The drift was alright compared to initial D, initial D looks more real. Tokyo drift contains more action pact but still it was a good show not to be missed! Cos it is pretty thrilling and exciting.

Cool, I watched like 2 shows! Haha.. cos this 2 show I really wanted to catch it very much.

I am so tired now, why why why? Nothing to say.

I am watching project runway season 3.. hmm, don know why I still prefer season 2 with Andrea, “where is Andrea”, Daniel Vosovic “he is hot!”, Chloe Dao “I like her”, Santino “the irritating one” …jus keep watchin season 3 and see more dramas coming up!