i found something interesting. i've got nothing to do, so i went online to search my name, and i found alot of people having the same name as me. i was totally cool by it! haha..if u know what i am trying to say. i thought nobody else will have the same name as me. and those people having the same name as me are those professor, doctor,president of a company. isn't it cool? will i make it there when i am old? haha...

love, god! i surrender to that. why? i have watched too much dramas, too much. i know i love watching this genre of dramas, cos sometimes it can be so sweet, sometimes so sad, and sometimes so happy.but everytime, after i finish one drama, i start thinking, does this kind of love exist in the world? how could it possibly be? love the person until you find it difficult to breathe, wish to see the person every second every minute and every hour and every day, really give the whole heart to that person, willing to die for that person. will i see all this in reality? is too much to take for reality. but everytime i watched drama, i could really feel how much they loved that person, how hurt they felt, how sad they are, how happy are they, but i can't feel the happiness that surround them every moment.
the kind of drama always have the same plot and somehow same storyline, both main cast Girl and Boy love each other, but for some reasons cannot be together, Evil girl and evil boy will come into the picture using every opporunites to ruin the relationship between them, but in end, they not only didnt get what they want, they brought the Girl and Boy closer together, and made them realise more that they need each other. isn't all this plot seems so familiar. though it is similar, i still watch every this kind of drama. i always love the part where the boy always try so hard so hard to protect the girl. however, all this cannot be brought up into real life. have to seperate drama with reality.
so, drama always give me hope, but reality tarnish them! so i hate reality.
i am those fairytale girl.
haha..ppl,please don laugh.
if can, pls go find me non-fairytale girl. i bet almost all of the girls in the world would wish for fairytale love and fairytale living together happily everafter ending. but so sad, i could only find all this in dramas! but whatever, i still can see fairytale somewhere.


musical box, long since i have opened a musical box and listen to all the music. i have always like musical box. it is such a special box, you open up, not looking at a empty box, but when u opened the box, music could be heard, beautiful music, childhood music, interesting music, pink panter music. musical box sounds like magic box. yeah, indeed is a magic box, it can produce sound, isnt is magical? i think i should live in those fairytale times, when prince charming ride a horse and look for me, give me a musical box as present and in the end we live happily everafter...
wahhahhahahahaah!
godness! i am laughing when i wrote that. am i crazy? why did all this sudden came into my mind.
whatever is anything.


people can u believe it? 2 more days, and i will be free from here! ya! here! i will be free. this is so unbelievable. i cant believe it. i am leaving. i have been here for long. i am going leave,and have a good holiday, have a hardworking holiday and start school, dump myself into piles and piles of school work and my part time, then graduate, then work and save money. this is all not my life. my life will only begins when i study what i want to study. that is my life. that is when my interesting life gonna happen. i am not expecting too much, but i will suppress my eager to start studying what i want to earn for that. i am going earn my own money to study what i want. so in the end, if i failed i have no one to blame except me. the most i blame god...


arent i long winded, can talk and write for non stop. anyway, let me report, the time now is 5.32 pm. so it means i have got like 15 more mins to go to say bye bye.
so let me just rant abit more.
i am trying very hard.
trying and trying.
i will be happy with the decision to end what i am suffering
but sad for the result though it is what i should deserve,


wonderful fairytale,
ugly princess,
where is prince charming?
please dont appear,
if prince charming appear,
ugly princess will not shine,
and will be uglier.
so,don appear until ugly princess shine!

whats wrong with me writing all those funny things?
i am mad.
i want to be alone.
i am tired.
real tired.
pls let me off.