YEAH!!!orange color is back..now with white background i can use orange color..hehe...i search and search for alot of blogskins..found some nice one..but doesnt really suit what i want...then i search back my old one..then realise i wanted one blogskin but it isnt posted at the website anymore...haiz..wasted..Nice blogskin?? hehehe.....there maybe i should change some style alittle ...decided on this bad girl skins..cos i am BAD...hahah..actually don wnana post..cos got nothin much to say..but bcos change blogskin..thats why i decided to post..as usual...woke up at 7 excat ....then rush to go to work..no money left..if not i would have took a cab to work..haiz...then meet idah and wait at pp there..SORRY guys...was late...then went work...saw FAD!!Khairi!!..and poor jason...DOUBLE SHIFT...lawson never come and make him work double..poor thing sia...last day at work...still make him suffer...should let him leave happily sia...lawson is bad...put own schedule then never come..he shouldnt have the rights to scold the staffs for not comin durin their shift..cos as an OM the biggest there..isnt showin it himself..then why shold the staffs do..anyway..T2T gona go down soon..without jason and kak...haiz...so sad..today see jason so poorthing..then when he say goodbye..like so sad..argh..i should have quitted long ago...argh..if not i wont be facin this kind of departure again..haiz..then after that suppose to work until 2 but intend to stay until 4 cos got idah and wati..wahz.we were crazy at work manz..keep laughin and laughin..so loud sia..esp me...so long since i have been laughin like that durin work sia...haiz..today is funn...hope to work with this two crazy fellow again..haha..okie..then after i went back..fell asleep in the bus again..try not to..but cant..too tired..haiz..showing my ugly face to ppl..while i sleepin...then reach home watch tv...then think think...aiyo go for a run ah...then i went for a short but fast run arouunf my area here...wahz..this sweat was worth it...is nice sweatin out...haha..then watch tv...borin lahz..no nice show...ahha..then went here to search for nice blogskin..bascially thats all..studyin my exams tml lahz.not in the mood right now..and lazy...hehe..then no motivation either..jus not i wanted to say somethin but i forgot...and acutallyh on the way home, my mind was thinkin of what i shold talk back to lawson if one day he step on my head..haha.i think i am crazy manzz..haha...then at first i thought LOVE is sweet and lovin and nice and happy..but i think likewise now..is like not every of my frens are happy in it...now i am really happy for my frens who are attached now...but on the other hand afraid that they might be heartbroken...cos i don like seein my frens sad that why....haiz..i don know how to console...once i wanted love..but i don think i want them now...haha....so feelin sehz...okok..naggy again..stop here...neck pain sia...and i still wanna shout out i love my ORANGE ADIDAS WATCH..hey guys(F4) long time no see ah...wonder what have u all been doin...hope u all doin fine though...meet up soon....see u guys ...take care ...enjoy...bye....

hey..bloggin now..the last blogged was wednesday i think...haha..cos thur after havin JAVA paper...i came home watch Tv all the way and went to work...ok...for my java paper..is like it turned out okie..wasnt as bad as we expected..at least we understand the question..haha..but as cher say..STRESS!! really stress..none of us wished to forward the module...and ya..on that day i was to pay the remainin money for the damm hongkong trip....and i paid $502!!!! cos i never go for those fund rasini thingy..WHERE THE HELL DO I HAVE THE TIME FOR THAT..and those who went for the fund rasinin thingy needs to pay $402...is like TOO MUCH OF THE DIFFERENT!! ARGH..DAMM REGRETTED GOING!! SHIT MAN!!!HAIZ....then after Java met ruzainin to buy ENA's present..haha..wanted to buy bikins for her...but in the end afraid that she wont wear then never buy instead bought her unndies..hehe..ROXY want sehz..very nice eh..ahhahaha....okie..then after that went home and rest and went to work...work was fine...oh did i mention FINE? haha...wasnt in much mood though..cant wait to work with idah...haha...hmm....actually lucky to have fad and khairi's company at work..if not BORED!!!! haiz...and i Workin is gona get crappy soon..cos is like two great managers are leavin..SHIT man..this is the worst thing u can ever imagine...haiz..so sad...one fav manager whom everyone can talk to...another good manager whom get along well with everyone...now two great are leavin..left those bad in the outlet..outlet seems so out of control....haiz...why am i stil stuck there? is bcos of the ppl there...haiz...cant bear to leave them..adn the travellers too..is like i am meetin foeginers everyday durin work..instead of meetin locals...which locals is fussy at times...haiz..cant bear the environment..is like airport..transit area not everbody can go in..onlyh if u are travellin overseas...then how can i still visit kak and jason if i quit...stupid..CBTL so rich ah..open so many outlet..might as well increase pay....idiot...haiz...okie..then after that went home around 10 plus...then sleep like a PIG and never wake up....SORRY ENA...was late to meet up..supposed to meet her at 4 but i slept thru it...sorry sorry sorry..but happy birthday though..wanted to wish her durin night..but couldnt remember her prepaid card no...sorry....then after that i went to meet the rest with ruzaini..he waitied for me...did ask him to go first ah...haha..then end up he also late...then those present are nad,syafik,haither,chal,siti,ana,ahmad,fendi and ENA-the birthday girl....hehee...okie..we went to eat then chill AT borders CBTL..hahah...then the plave was quiet for us to talk adn spacious..ahha...then we talk take pics...they discuss abotu their hari raya visitin...wahz...since so long everbodyh met up..at first i thought it will be funny..i arent lookjin much forward to it..only to meetin ana and ena....but lucky it turned out well....haha..great man...yupz.then went work..so sad..the first thing step inside the kitchen..jason ask to take pics...aiyo...so sad ah...he so funny..always smile at me...say i pretty when i am not....thanks man..haha..then kak elly also inside....haiz...don know lahz...then i worked at kiosk...then after that they went to kiosk awhile take pics again..hehe..hehee...i want the PICS..haha..take care kak and jason...i will dropped by T1 soon..hehe...hate T1...jealous of the staffs there...got kak and jason there...ARGH!!!! haha...then after work in the mornin go play pool...FAD NEVER JOIN....but i think she tired ah..cos still ahve tuition...okie..excuse her then..if not!!!*&#*#&#& hahaha.....chill..chill..then tonight i am not workin HURRAY!! haha..if not tired...jus scared tml mornin cannot wake up...cos mornini shift tml..hehe...with IDAH and wati...ehhehe....haiz...leavin is part and parceel of life eh...haiz..aiya..donknow ah...
*hope ena like her present..
*hope everybody is happy and happy..
*hope the best for eveyone..
*hope everythin goes smoothly for eveyone
*hope we are healthy..
hope myself......to PASS MY EXAMS!!!!! hahaha..okok..cher and jiayi....really great to have u as frens in sch..we really create a hell of funn out of ourself everyday!!! CHEERS!!!
Ena and ana...ooo....long time 3 of us enver get together.....yesterday was great...meet up soon!!! hehe....
today i very naggy sia..ahhaa.opkoo..stop here...

hey..bloggin again..cos was sort of waiting to download some software but seems like it is gonna take very long..nowadays..i seldom blog...i also wonder why...i jus arent myself...and who am i? tryin to search for this question..what kind of person am i? what am i livin for? jus for normal human rountine....study,work,marriage,family?? isnt that too rountine...should we be living the way we want and wish and dream...i think is this way...or am i been too over thinkin too much...say in my previous blog had my maths exam....haha...then tense only came when i was sittin there waitin to enter the room....so many ppl...so many other course..so many other ppl....haiz...i jus hope i get the marks to pass my maths..i don wish to forward module...ARGH!!~~~ and i am wondering i have become sacarstic somehow..which i will not be in the past....how come? oh no..i have changed...this is somethin i dread for it to happen....there are time i stop awhile to think WHO IS CHUNPEI? DO I KNOW HER? cos i dont seems to know myself anymore...haiz...now i somehow know the feelin of losin myself.....here it goes....feelin numb....no feeling right now..didnt know i can get so bad....haiz.....what happen to me???? what has got into me??? i think i changed bcos of diffferent FAKE,TWO FACES ppl i have met....OR those HYPORCRITE???i don know...the reason...maybe there isnt any reason for someone's changed...now i know why he changed...cos there is no reason...u jus somehow changed like that...the more u try to search for the answer..the more the answer is gettin far away from you....the more u try to dig...the more changes u will have.....wahz...been emotional again...haiz..tml havin my JAVA ...which it sucks..and i jus cant print the exams paper out..should have jus print it in sch jus now...haiz...what am i gonna do to myself???i don know anymore...there arent much ppl i trust..and i arent exited about the hongkong trip.....jus hope the days spent in CBTL are fun....cos ................................................................................

haiz..so long never blog..cos no feelin and mood and time to blog...haiz...busy busy leadin a useless life...what am i doin with my life? no ideas...absolutely no ideas..haiz..jus had my maths exams today..feelin emo as usual..cos it like O level..but is not as stress as O level...i miss my wishes from my frens..i miss eveybody..i miss the times we meet then go to the hall..i remember i wasnt feelin very well at my O level maths paper...reasons behind it...so unlucky to fall a big sick durin my O maths paper..i remember my hand was shakin and shakin...and i wasnt feelin very well..feelin a little cold...and haiz..i cried after my papers..cos i feel that i didnt do well...and yeah..frens around me..pull me up...didnt know i will cry..haiz..
then today maths was super cery difficult...don know whether i can make it..hope so..java tml...lagi worse..hahahah...be back later.9pm show callin me.hehe..

hey..bloggin now before i go to work...haven yet started studyin..bet every other of my classmates are doin so...hmm..workin last night and slept through the afternoon..is tired of this kind of living...midnight work is great anyway.,..i mean is like work midnight then sleep throughout the next day..super no life...no time to study anyway...wonder whether i will FLOP..which i serious hope i wont...and erm...work was okie..with Fad,farihan,izan and jason....haha...things finish pretty fast last night..hope today is the same ya..will miss the korean show..so sad...regretted workin tonight..haha...hmm..then hope today pls pls pls pls don let me work kiosk..i don mind working tml night..but not tonight..pls plspls..ena....ur words really true...what come around goes around...hmm..don know..I WANT TO QUIT! now i realise not everyone is true though....i really have changed to anyoither person..realise i don have much temper in the past...but now no longer..my temper showed more than my smile and laughters....thats make me bad! i don know..no ideas......haiz...todya went back later from work..cos mornin not enuff ppl...Faisal...why never go work?? haha..

take time to blog now..cos later workin..moreover i want to watch TV from 8.30 to 10.00..hahha..so later no time to blog...haiz..tml damm really pissed off!!! went to sch early cos so the model for my IDEAS module...then nvm..we do ...then today go school jus for IDEAS...STUPID IDEAS...then after we do have ideas presentation...then it was sucky...THAT DAMM IDOITIC TEACHER WANT US TO REDO THE MODEL AGAIN!! FATTY TEO!! U THINK WE NO NEED TO STUDY FOR EXAMS AH..U THINK WE SO FREE AH...REDO REDO...YOU THINK WHAT...TIME WASTED ON DOING THE MODEL CAN BE WISELY USE FOR STUDIES OKIE..OTHER GROUPS PUT IN THEIR EFFORT..WE ALSO PUT IN THE SIMILAR EFFORT..THEN NOW WE HAVE TO REDO..DOES THAT MEAN WE ARE PUTTIN IN MORE EFFORT AND WE WILL THUS BE GIVEN MORE MARKS..THE OUTCOME HOWEVER WONT BE THIS WAY...SO WHAT IF I FAIL MY EXAMS...CAN I GO TO YOU AND BLAME YOU...OR SHOULD I BLAME THE CREATOR OF IDEAS..JOLLY WELL PLS GO ASK THE WHOLE SCH..WHO THE HELL LOVES OR LIKE IDEAS..THERE ISNT ANY FREAKIN STUDENT WILL SAY YES...WAHZ..HE PISSED ME OFF...EVERY FRIDAY IS ALWAYS LIKE THAT...SHIT MAN....AND NEXT WEEK IS MATHS AND JAVA TOGETHER WHICH IS THE MOST CRUCIAL ONE..STUPID FATTY TEO!!!! HATE HIM..ONE AROGGANT FATTY TEO...SHIT !! FEEL LIKE SHOUTIN OUT LOUD...ARGH...ARGH..ARGH..ARGH...

Yesterday,O.C was nice and sad..anna left...she is so pretty...stan is so lucky to haved both girls...and i want ryan to be with melissa instead of thresa...haiz...and workin later....feel like workin kiosk..doesnt feel like though...don know...later work...haiz...don know lahz..today rain again..moody again..crazy also...haiz..nwo very full...eat my mum's cook again..delicious..hhahaha..okok..want to watch tv ready...hopefully chirstopher get out..hahaa...see u all again...bye...

wahz..thought handed up an assignment i could relax and prepare to study for my exams but i was so damm wrong..IDEAS is one freakin stupid module..ARGH~~!!! we lose our model...shit man!!! somehow is gone jus LIKE THAT!! haha..funny huh....idiot...okie..then yesterday i slept damm late sia...slept at 3 plus..rushin my STSC assignment..which i really is damm freakin tired bcos of this...and went to sch for the hongkong trip meetin...seems like i made a bad decision in goin...wasnt interested in going anymore..haiz..then don know lahz..jus feel funny..boring sia..not excited about it..rather stay in singapore and work though...haiz..hmm...oh...i jus ate a hot and spicy calbee potato chips..wahz...is so damm nice...so long never eat le..i know it gona put a few fats around my waist around my arms around my thighs..but who cares..ahhaha..but i care though..and i watch the chinese new 9pm show on channel 8 THE CHAMPION..wahz..the girls are havin so nice body and nice tan color sia..so damm jealous..i also want to have that too..ahha...both the color and body..woooo...haha..the show is nice...see lahz..goin hongkong cannot watch the show anymore..haiz..i want to study and i want to exams and i want to finish my exams..argh..borin..borin...someone pissed me today again...never will want to talk to him again...was jus askint to reassure there isnt need to be irritated about...fine...thats it...oh no..somethin is happenin to XTD which haiyo...don know lahz..shit man...stupid...

now for the time being i am not bloggin usin my fav color..cos that color cannot see..i will change my blogskin then after that can blog back usin my fav color...i am gona die soon..tml deadline for STSC assignment and i am way ahead of DONE...and now i am bloggin here..okok..i will immediately do my STSC after i finish bloggin..bloggin is important lahz..it helps to improve my english..ahha(like real sehz) hahaa..okok..very full sehz..went out to break fast with ena and her bf..hehe..to both if u are readin..(one of u caught a real good fish..the other got a real good catcher...)hehe...seems so cute and nice together..yupz..and thanks ena for askin me out...at first don wanna go one...partly i still have my assignment due..secondly i don know the ppl there..like so paisehz..then in the end decided to go..cos don wanna disappoint ena again..and wanted to relieve STRESS manz..haha..ena did help me relieve..askin me out is a good decision..cos i laugh...ena's bf's frens so funny...haha...and JIAYI is gona scream at me manz..cos she knows i am out..ahha..cos i met her last time work fren veron right.hehe..yupz..then went to break fast with them adn i ordered roti john with mushroom inside..is nice...yeap..but cannot finish ah..cos eat quite alot of things in the afternoon..hahha...yupz...hmm...they are friendly and nice...herne is also very friendly...everybody also...they doesnt really treat like i jus know them..but like know them long...hehe..i keep ownin ppl sehz..is like..i owe ahmad bcos he make me closer to ena..i owe ena bcos she is always introducin new and fun friends...but i doesnt seem to have many frens around me to intro eh...but i will next time k..hehe..i really had great fun today..hehe...ena, why ur bf's sec sch group can be so good..but ours' gone case..hahahha...hehehe....they are like so cool..hehe...okok..see u soon again..heeheh...oh yeah..and the problem u mention..don worry ah...everythin will be gona be fine and smooth manz...hehe.. *winkz* okok...i think have to do my stsc ready..and i think today i should have go sch..waste my time lehz..cos no lesson at all alhz..haiz...erm..then funny feelins...okok...tml hand up STSC..then no projects or assignment on hand ready..cos neec to study for exams manz...hehe...

hehe...my blog very difficult to see right..i also think so...but i will change it after all my exams..then i got time..makin a blog really takes alot of time..heheehhe...i certainly will change..hehe...now for the time being still use this..hehe..okok...i am early to blog today...cos later i have to complete my STSC drawin which my drawin sucks at it..a human i draw which look like a mummy...ahhaha..i will try to improve k...anyway..theres nothin much to blog today cos nothin much happen today...erm....then today had my java interview..wasnt scared or afraid at all....then i was the first someone..and in the end i got 85...haiz..wasnt realyl okie..but still okie lahz..there are ppl who get 100 and 90...anyway jus my luck...okie..then after that oh ya..today had maths and tml i am gona learn my maths manz..i want to do my math and java rather than draw some stupid thingy which i am not good at it at all manz..i hate it..simply hate drawin..,my drawin sucks.,.shit man...haiz..then after that today i don know lahz..jus doesnt really seem myself...thought i could jus keep quiet but ermm....i spoke first though...cant keep my mouth shut..i should try to shut my mouth don talk....see how ah..don know lahz..sometime i think don know lahz..i watch cinderella story again today...i only watch disc 2...wahz..simply rock manz..so sweet...fairytale really is fairytale...hehe..i wonder when will my fairytale begin..in pri sch i thought it will be in sec sch..but it didnt..in sec sch i thought it will be in poly..but it neither too...haha...how i wish i was hilary love her....she rock..ahhahha...oh yeah....and was sad everytime see the scores of real madrid and manu...they are jus like goin down..buyin in some many good players also no use...same for both team.buyin in new and famous player not for the talent but for the supports and attention..true what..if beckham were not to go to real i wouldnt have really bother bout the team..they are smart..but soccer should be a game played well and organised but now it jus doesnt seem so...haiz...no also like no energy and time to watch soccer....haiz...but don worry i still love soccer manz...
then i really seriously think a woman in her wedding dress is the prettiest...cos i watch this show..it helps woman to silm down..then this woman want to silm down for her weddin..then it help..and she really look different and look more beautiful than her past..hahaha....so touchin...ahhaha....love love love...feelin feelin feelin..emotion emotion emotion....haiz..all sorts of thigns...
and nowadays i seems depressed again..izzit bcos endin of a year or??? don know..can jus cry easy...there was oncece i could and it stop..now it is comin back manz..don know why...hope it stop..but now jiayi's phone really helps man...hahah..the phone everytome make me smile and laugh..eheh..and cher and jiayi also crap alot..but i prefer the last time jiayi where she got no much problems and so crappy...hehee....but anyway XTD still rocks..hahaha..like cher say we forgot to tell jennifer how XTD came about..i think maybe it will earns us some points ...hehehehe..okie..naggin and rubbishin here...Ciaoz...erm...hope everythin goes well for everyone...all the best for those havin exams...take care for the others...i miss my sec sch mates...*winks*

haiz..borin day..nothin much to comment on..nothin much to say about..today is only the first day of the week and i felt restless...felt like it has been like the middle of the week...wonder why...tired...tired...is the whole thing in my head...cant pull myself up from bed in the mornin..have to go sch early in the mornin for audio..argh~~!!!! finally pass up my JAVA...havin my interview tml...hehe..then after that i almost never go for lesson the whole day but audio..cos STSC no more lesson..then Video also..but we went to present..ehhe..the ESPLANDE part is the best manz!! is the best..hahha...nice one..then after taht the presentation is the only best thing that happen today..others sucks..then wasnt very in the mood to joke...don know why....then after that wear alittle slack today..eeekkk...and today i thought i was the only emo one..but my dear fren also..haiz..sort of thinkin..sometime is amazin how relationship can last..somethin is also amazin how relationship doesnt last...what makes it last? what makes it dont?what make it work out?what doesnt? wahz...don knwo the answer to all this question..too much question and doubts abotu love...love is so profound to understand..then my dear fren in sch wasnt feelin okie..poor her..never see her so sad before..hey..cheer up..i still prefer the crazy u...don wanna see u like that..then i was payin much attention to some ppl...don know...what is so happenin to me..i really don know sehz..i think i am really out of my mind...i really changed..ahhhh.....i don want myself to cahnge..really don want....but how come sehz? haiz..i was so cheerful and happy last time..i don know...haiz..bored...
now i shed tears bcos i hate myself...i cry bcos i got no answer to why i changed...i cry bcos so manyh things have changed...feelin like lettin my heart out manz...AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!exams comin manz..and my maths is still like SUCKS!!! SHIT MAN!! how....haiz..then i don know lahz..really donknow...Stress....and today i spent 1 hour jus to draw two person..SHIT sia..my drawin sucks...sucks to the core..terribly....haiz...how how how???
this followin song is currently my favourite...and the lyrics are nice...


Jesse - best day of my life
Woke up around a half past ten
Can't believe that I'm late again
Put down about a quart of caffine
To start my post and then
I grabbed my jeans off the floor and I hit the door,
Just the same old same
It goes to showYou never know
When everything's about to change
Just another day
Started out like any other
Just another girl who took my breath away
Then she turned around
She took me down
Just another day that I ....
Had the best day of my life
Can't say exactly what it was
She's not the usual type
She wore a cowboy hat
With her red Prada boots
And a Gwen Stefani smile
Then she pulled out a pen and surprised me when
She wrote her number on my hand
Then she was gone,But from now on
I'm gonna be a different man
Just another day
Started off like any other
Just another girl who took my breath away
Then she turned aroundShe took me down
Just another day that I ...
Had the best day of my life
I guess it goes to show
You never really know
When everything's about to change
Just another day
Started out like any other
Just another girl who took my breath away
Then she turned around
She took me down
Just another day that I ... Had the best day of my life [x2]

Hilary Duff - now you know
in these eyes
are the words
more than anything that i've spoken
as the skiesturn to gray
my heart's just about to crack open
so the story goes
there's something you should know
before i walk away and i blow the ending
Chorus:
i never want to be without you
oh no here i go now you know
what i feel about you
there's no running
i must've been wrong to doubt you
oh no there i go no control
i'm fallingso now you know
feels so right
craving oxygen
all this truth leaves me empty
will you run
can you handle it
cause i need you to tell me
maybe this seems bold
but i'm hoping you'll stay for the happy ending
chorus
no i wont look back when i tell you what i think about you
yeah,yeah,yeah
no i wont look back when i tell you what i think about you
yeah,yeah
so the story goes
yeah you already knowso dont be a fool and go spoil the ending
chorus x2

currently my favorute song..and it describes myy feelin...haiz..hopin tml will be a better day...

Ena good job! what a great fish u have caught..nice fish eh...hahaha...ooo...he's got a new name..FISH...hahhaha...no lahz..okok...anyway,good that u have caught the fish..hehe..erm, fendi if u are readin this..wanna tell u SO YESTERDAY is my blog song..haha..okok..erm..yupz..make sure u take good care of her..she is fragile..hehe...and she's hot...hehe...okie..catch up sometime...

back to myself...hmm...so happy that at home i could blog ready..no need time everytim blog in school...hehe..then cannot pay attention..hehe..then now could blog at home and say anythin i want..and anythin on my mind now...hehe..okok..ARGH...late for work again..work up late...stupid me...then took cab to work again...waste 10 bucks again...i am crazy..nowadays i slept like a log..argh..i am crazy...jus painly tired..and so sad i wont be goin back malaysia..which i wwant to go eh...hmm..kinda miss the freedom and quietness and free of problems there...so nice...feelin so good..haha..but now cannot go back cos instead my aunt is comin out..then okie ah...nvm ah..then i can wont become fat and still work...haiz...then seems like suddenly nowadays ppl have been askin me why i got no boyfren? i am wonderin how should i answer?
say i am not interested?no..of cos i am..i am not a les here...haha..then what shold i answer...everytime i find no answer to this question...borin ...then today wanted to try fastin again..but couldnt resist the temptation of MANGO VANILLA at work..wooo..is so nice...it make me not fast..hahaha....then after that i went to help my fren java..now think back..AS IF I AM A PRO IN THAT...when I AM NOT!!! hahah....sorry for not being able to help much though...then after that walk walk along orchard..thinkin alot though...i need to borrow a shoulder to lean on manz...feelin so damm freakin tired...both mentally and physically....argh...hope my modules exams can pass...please...please...haiz...feel like lyin low this whole week...don know why...jus feel that way...and yesterday i watch the cinderella story again..really a fairytale endin..oh my..how i wish i had a fairytale endin too...
and yesterday msg bunny...hmmm....was really surprised he msg me manz..really man...haha..how nice of him to remember me...thanks ...haha...somehow sometime he make my day..somehow sometime my frens make my day...
the last time ME..thought that frens are the most important thing..now i still do..but not as much as how i so believe in it last time...i still have doubts about it now..last time frens is very important to me..really...but now am i jus busy not to care? or am i becomin like khairi dont care? i got no answer...haiz...vexed...and i hate that attitude person....haiz..okoko...till here i stop...

once again...ena grab hold and hard eh...update me more than...hehe...

oh no....i've changed no..and suddenly so many ppl like msg my old no..oh my god...especially "Bunny"...whom i had a cursh on..oh my..he suddenly msg me and ask me how am i all those...alamak..somemore is one day before my bday...then so wasted sia..argh..argh..see..thats the thing that always keeps me from chagin no...argh..but somehow that time i feel the urge to hurriedly change mym no..don know why also..maybe deep in my heart i know..ahha..okie..then so really wasted...like how come suddenly everythin came at the same time..really at the same time..okok.then farihan also very funnyh..he also got msg me..he remind me waht malays eat before fastin or somethin ah..and reminded me to fast on the 15/10....hahah..funnyh lahz he..somemore he msg in malay sehz...heheh..hahaah..then receevied alot of msg in my old no...haiyo..now that no. my mum holdin ah...hehe..paisehz ppl..really..haha..sorry....then i really feel wasted about bani..somemore he no longer work at the old place...so it means that i wont get to see him anymore..but i was really very very very surprised that he msg me..really....hehee..

oh yeah..i could blog at home now..hehehe...alot of thigs in mind though..ehhe..huurray....isnt that great...first thing to say...i fast for one day..arent i great? hahha..hmm...cos yesterday i work..then everyone is like C.p-Siti fast ah..today must fast ah...cos they always joke with me..say i am a malay..hahhaha....and mr izan very funny.. that time when one of another collegue told him i am a malayh...he really fgo and believe sia...haa..okok..then he say..if i fast he owes me a treat...FINE..now i did it..he really owes me one treat...should it be pizza hut or swensens?? hahaa..hahah...then yesterday work i think i am the crazy one..hahah...FAD..should have taken my ORANGE JUICE photo..ahha..oh yea..thanks to her and khairi...i ahve got myself one essential thingy..ahahha.thanks for the present..is ORANGE ...yeah..hahha..yupz..then while workin is like thinkin alot though..even khairi never mention it to me..but i realise somehow i have changed...to be like him..emotionless about almost alot of things..hahah...not carin and feelin..suddenly last night i feel that i am someone without feelins eh...like don know lehz..someone suddely no feeligns...don know..then oh ya..sorry mr izan make u work kiosk yesterday night...ehhe...i wasnt feelin want to go there cos got fad,faisal and khairi..ehhe..sorry..sorry...he is sick...make me feel more gulity ....sorry eh..but he still owe me one...hahha..then yesterdau is the worst midnight ever..alvin never go home..what for sia?? stupid..orderin ppl arounod when he isnt the manager of rhte night...what sia...ARGH~~~ i startin to talk back to him..jus cant stand him..thats why i said i change...haiyo...really sia...sorry ah..adapt to me..maybe i am findin myself....hahhahaha..excuses...hahahhhah...hmm..then feelin kinda don know...no expression at all now..i changed..i really changed..and i hate for myyself to change..really hate it..i don want to change..i know how i talk about ppl who changed..thats why i don want to change..ik want to be the last time crazy ahpei again..again and again..someone who is friendly and not fiercee...always smilin nonstop...hahha..i want to be that again..argh...how how how....haiya...
hmm...wonderin whether i will be workin tonigh..cos mr izan not workin tonight...hope kak elly called me k..ahhaa.....then poor mornin shift then..hahhahhaa....okie...i think i got to go..ciaoz..bye....

please allow me to blog...erm...now maybe can blog at home ready...quite happy..hehe..somethin good to announce...I FINALLY FINISH MY JAVA GAME APPLET LE!!!HURRAY...hahha..finally sehz..really..me and jiayi really start very late...then i didnt imagine we could finish completin our games applet.is jus that our game applet doesnt have audio ah..but it can be played!!hahah..okok..this is somethin good for me today...cos today the whole day since mornin have been very cock up...and i think i am really pissed in the mornin today...cos wake up late...then my whole neighbourhood fightin for a cab with me..then reach sch..excited to present our video..then DAMM IT....our CD cuold not be played in the player..so next group first..then the lab tech...took our CD and help ur check...and it jam his com..then he was like sayin"see,ur cd make my com jammed!" i am like thinkin...no one ask u to take our CD and try it on your com...what kind of attitude..givin me attitude issnt...nvm..check our com..then we took out the paper we pasted on the CD..cos packagin..then it works...but we don have time to PRESENT!!SHIT...we have to present to teachers only without our classmates on mon..then i am like thinkin WHAT FOR then...like no one watchin ur video..only teacher when teacher have already watched....wahz..damm pissed..took cab to sch jus to in time for the presentation...wasted my 16 bucks..end up NO PRESENTATION!!!feel like screamin right away...SHIT MAN!! really feel shity today...then after that wanted to post very funny things one..but i think now can post..i should have said about the funny thing first..now burnin inside again..ahha..
okoko..the fuunny thing...
yesterday me jiayi and cher were walkin out from the school..then the path outside got two guys and one uncle running..then jiayi was like sayin if she were to run now she confirm collaspe..then my hand was like those straight then i show the collaspe hand sign..then the guy runnin in our direction thought i was WAVIN at him.which i am not...alamak..so damm paiseh sia...he thought i am wavin at him...hahaha....then what..thought i want to get to know him ah..aiyo..so paiseh..i laugh unntil my stomach ache sia....hahha...then yesterday also got one very funyn incident..but not suppose tp say here ah...jus cant believe taht it realyl happen..haha..but i am not so easy to be cheated eh.hahahah....okok
then today i feel like someone is givin me attitude problem again..hey..whats wrong man..i did ntohin against you right...argh~~!! stupid day...
but we were havin fun with Jiayi's new phone...haha..that phone super good sia..take pic very very nice..i so fat..also can take me until so slim...then the pics i took inside there really pretty..i never praise myself pretty..but is all Jiayi's phone..GOOD PHONE!! hehe...no name yet...thinkin a name for her phone...and bcos of her phone we had a hell of good laughin times..uuntil the next bloack ppl also lookin at us..ahhahha...but is nicec..our cute shots..hehhe....jiayi good job..ermm..i was referrin to your phone..hahahha...and i am happy both of ur finish java....hehe...Cher must JIAYOU...cher added alot of stuffs inside...not like me and jiayi alittle thing only..but we were glad that our game can work...i think hurberts is the best..Oh ya..forget to take pic with him..ahhahha....
later workin with faisal,khairi and fad...woooo..wonder how it could be...and khairi said farihan they all pass expired...huh..how? i don want to do gourmet..ahahhahaha....hope we will be havin a good time..hehe..and lucky i am not wokrin on sat night..hehe...
i still love my ORANGE ADIDAS 80's ORIGINAL WATCH..hurray...is nciee....yeah..yippe...hahahha.....forgettin abuot ther person who gave me attitude problem..argh...argh..argh..
oh ya..and to all my muslim frens..happy hari raya puusa...*sorry wrong spellin* i will fast too k..hahahhahaha...no lahz..i am jus jokin..ehhe...sorry sorry..hehe :) goin off now.....
ena, yeah...hmm...eat! and u know what i will ask u not to do!!!!!!!! and catch the good fish!! hehe...if is a good one...grab it hard k..okok...see ya soon..bye..take care..EAT EAT EAT....and better don..............

ARGH...DAMM IT!!! JAVA is the culprit..yesterday night i spent hours and hours tryin new things on my JAVA!!but hell it came out..nothin i did ids correct..is jus have many errors....SHIT MAN!!!! then nvm..when i wake up today mornin is like 9.19 AM!!! shit man...i supose to have class at 9.30AM ....wahz...no choice but to take cab..i need to come sch bcos i got video presentation...shit...then i took cab ah..and hell....today seems like everyone is my esate or aourng my hosue also take cab..even a 14 year old girl..anutie...everyone fighin a cab with me..then it was samm hot...i am like sweatin..SHIT!!! finally took a cab..spent 1/2 hour waiting for cab...and damm it..everythin is like so FUCK UP for me....my java program in school hang..whatever...so shity...sucks man...is like got alot of things to do sia..shit...
damm...

actually got alot of thigns to say cos is funny yesterday.....but shit man..now no mood to talk aboutit sia...shit..shit..damm..is like then i wanted to do preasentation not enuff timew..make me take cab down..shit..shit..arhg..arhg..arhg..arhg...

hurray...eve also wish me le...haha...waiting for her msg also..hehe..haha...and now i am wearin my new orange adidas original 80's watch..hehe..yeah yeah yeah..hahha..so happy..i am a little hyper today..my house com treat me well..adn i got new watch to wear..hahha...arent i happy? sometimes i thank god for all these things..my friends...those who grant me the happiness..haha...really..think to here..i am think i am a lucky girl...hehe..yeah...
once again..tahnks everyone..thanks thanks thanks..ehheehehe....

and thanks iqbal for the chocolate...hahha...thanks...hehe....everyone thanks for wishin me..thanks..tahnks..hahhaha.....thanks .......

HEY.HEY..HOPE I CAN BLOG NOW..AND IT LIKE I CANT WAIT TO BLOG YESTERDAY NIGHT...BUT I COULDNT BLOG AT HOME..NOW I AM HOME TOO...JUS TRYIN MY LUCK..AND HOPE IT ALLOWS ME TO BLOG THE WHOLE BLOG NOW....CAN FIGURE OUT WHY I WOKE UP ONE HOUR EARLY THEN THE time i was suppose to...i suppose to wake up at 9 but instead i woke up at 8...jus cant sleep back..i thought i needed alot of sleep somehow it doesnt now..haha..so funny..oh my..yesterday was indeed one ups and down day...hehehe......

my birthday is over!!hahah...and my wish wasnt very properly wished...damm..shouold have wish properly...have to wait for next year then...haiz...okok...then yesterday me cher and jiayi went off java lesson half an hour early cos we wanted to catch the 2.30 white chicks...then we was so happy that we gona catch that show...but when we were at lido...the tickets for that time slot is all sold out..then nvm..we went to cineleisure takin CAB down...then the tickets was as well sold out too...was quite pissed man..then no choice went back to lido..and caught the later time slot show...at 4.45...then we went to eat and buy some stuffs....then we went to watch the show..ahha..it was funny..but somehow there are parts where the whole cinema is laughin but i am not laughin...don know why...the effect doesnt come out really nice...we all agreed that dodgeball is nicer than white chicks..and white chicks is so gross as well...hahaha.....okie..

then i called sheena to check out where she is...and jus my lucky time..she was also around town..great...get to meet her..meet her and chal and oh ahmad to go back to tampines....and her bermudas is nice!!!! nice berm...hahha...oh..and ahmad didnt even wish me...hahah..but nvm...his wishes doesnt mind much either...he can jus say.."Oh finally turnin 18 ah".....hahah..okie..thanks for that anyway...and what a nice bday preseny he gave...lettin me seein him S....!! hahah..thanks though..hahah...thats the least thing i want to see a fren of my do..but i saw it...maybe is time for me to see..anyway i bet i gona see it someday....okie..enough of him...back to sheena..she really seems happy wonderin whether deep inside she is...but i do hope she will be happy...i am sorry for not able to being my her side eveyrtime..i know i am missin alots...okok..then see them off...

i went to meet F4 near Dunman sec cos vinson's house near there...okok...walkin from my sch main gate to side gate...so many feeling and emotions..i really miss my sch..to say the truth..tears nearly rolled down..oh my..my school..the soccer field where i see my frens playin at...the canteen when i eat and rot at...the hall where after o level i came out from and sat there cryin...then bench where i sit when i come sch early...then place where we always have out PE lesson..the DnT room which sometime i pop inside..the FnN room where i cook inside...the Path around the sch where i ran my 2.4 plus alot of Netball running...everythin jus came back...and there are ppl still in sch..cos they have night study...then here came back my night study period where i go back sch and study..oh my...i really missed it so much...and last year bday in school was also nice and good..wont forget that too...is deeply remembered!!hehe...miss my sch times..

then i sat down waitin for them..i saw SITI and SALIMI...oh my..is like wahz..didnt expect that..seein them really nice..heehhe..so good eh..never change much though...salimi funny...haha..they wished me..didnt expect to see them...

then they finally came down...hehe...then i was told that the present theyh bought was shared by the four of them ,jas,shyuan and huiqi...oh..wasnt expectin shyuan and huiqi..hehe...they realy surprise me...and i was asked to guess the gift..somethin i wanted so much..haha...i guess and guess..but couldnt guess....then i was finally allowed to open...and when i open...i really went speechless..don know what to say and how to express..was really didnt expectin that though..and really really very happy about the present...oh my god..the present is the ORANGE ADIDAS ORIGINAL 80's WATCH..the one that recently jus came out..oh my god!!! jaws droppin...they really make my whole bday wonderful....i was really really happy and touched...and it was like expensive..and i know they spent alot...hey ppls..thanks man...sorry to make u all spent ....wahz...is like so !!!!!!!! thanks..thanks....is my best present for my birthday....and i finally get to eat the cake vinson make..wahz..chocolate hazelnut cake...so nice...the chocolate is nice and wahz..damm alot...wow...thanks...oh kyeo..did also make the cake with vinson..thank so much..yesterday i have three cakes in total..all so nice...hehe..thanks ppl...then before cuttin the cake..i met huiqi and shyuan at the side gate..hehe..thanks for comin out to meet me..oh gosh.didnt know i really miss them so much....so long never see them le...and they are really still cute and pretty..ehhehe...hmm..talk with them..i really miss their netball batch...and chiew ching and angeline msg me yesterday as well..was a little shocked..hehe..hey thanks ppl...so u really did make my bday a memorable one...i really donknw what should i say other than thanks...

To everyone...yesterday all your messages and presents and surprised and cakes and effort and time was really really greatly appreciated by me..trust me..i wont forget any moment of yesterday...serious...i definitely remember it...and really a million billion zillion thanks to everyone yesterday..i wasnt expectin much..but i really spent an unexpected birthday!!Hurray..18 already..ehhee..and the watch is my favourite...i think thank to Bao for mentionin i guess..ehhhe..thanks...really thanks...they make themselves free out of their busy time to do all this thing...
and kyeo...yesterday celebration doesnt seem last minute to me...hehe...thanks man!!!woo..really happy yesterday...maybe the happiness make me wake up so early yeah..hahahha..thanks..thanks..thanks..hehehee...blog more later..hehe...and thanks my home com for lettin me blog the entire blog..hehe..thanks com too..makin my day in the mornin..haha..

Wooo...thanks...to amanda,gavin,micheal,jasyln elise i had another cake...hehe..thanks...really didnt expect that though...haha..then hmm..i feel gulity now lor...they are makin me feel gulity..cos is like i think they know how i felt towards them..but they are treatin me like any other normal frens..okok...now i think i have to do somehtin ppl do..hehe..thanks..hahah...happy now..but there are still alot of my ex frends never wish me...ohy a..danica wished me..shje remembered..thanks man..hahhaa..but there are a no. of ppl who forget and those who forget are once my so much best frens....so sad...oh..thanks to siti as well she remember as well.thanks...hahhal..okok...see ya later...ehhe..

hurray~~!!!hahah..had a nice bday cake in the mornin..thanks to cher and jiayi..really thanks..puttin in a lot of effort...oh yeah..yesterday jus all those messages and sms alone make me happy...erally...those all ppl who remember my bday...and of cos a big HAPPY BIRTHDAY to FASIAL..he called me first then after taht sheena called...hehe..thanks....really thanks to them maeke the effort to call me and wish me..hehe.thanks...yupz...and i am happy today...hehe..thanks...more to blog later..haha..

haiz...funny,vexed, things on my mind....thought that tml might be an interesting day...but i don know whether it will turn out well...the problem is i could not blog at home..i know that i got alot of things to write...but somehow when it comes to school i don know what i should blog...haiz...then benny very funny..this fellow forget the date msg me last night...so funny..someomore apologise to me...haha...hey...i am so glad he remembered rather than forget...earlier wishes is better than never wish...but i am really very happy that he wished first....i was still thinkin who will be the first this year..cos the past two years is the same person wishin me the first time...hahaha...okie..wasnt expecting any big or much this year...yupz...hehe..
suppose to be a big one..cos 18 mahz..but no mood for that too..so many things..and got so many projects on hand still haven finished...
read sheena's blog yesterday..seems that the last part referring to me...yupz...true it is not point clappin ur own hand when the other party doesnt...and i realise now how come there are ppl and friends who lost contact when they entered poly or each going separate life and path....what they studyin is different,timetables is different,worklaod is different...everythin is different...thats make me and her drift further...everytime i wanted to lend a hand to either of my fren i know that i will stop in the middle cos i jus donhave the time to do it...i really got alot of work on hand..maybe sometimes i am findin excuses for myself..but i do need a break sometime..maybe by sayin this, i will lose some frens..is not like i need to be alone or need to have a long break..but sometime durin my busy schedule i need a break to take a breathe and catch up with what i am doin..and not keep tiring myself out like last time what i always did...i am jus torturin myself..LIVING TO TORTURE MYSELF?? thats outrageous...and i am those who arent initative...whenever it comes to friends or love...or even other things...i am those who doesnt call my fren up and say"hey wanna go out?" i odn know why i arent like that...i am those who wait...adn if no calls i am those who can go out alone..but i know i am those who cant survive alone...but...i don know what i want now...really don know..there are always so amny ppl i disappoint..i disappoint lydia they all, i disappoint fad,i disappoint danica, i disappoint of cos sheena....i don know...i know i shuoldnt disappoint them...but somehow i have this atitude towards them....sometime i can be very caring but sometimes my concern dies...i don know how to maintain the same always...it is jus this way it is...or am i such a bad person...haiz..sucsk..i sucks....i don know...i really donknow...

thought it iwll be a happy day tml...but i think likewise...oh ya...kyeo..u make a mistake ah..it isnt you so don worry k..hahaha...and ya..i am very busy recently...maybe i will ask for ur help soon..cos u holiday ready right..hahaha..aimin for ur help ready..hahahha...okie..see ya...hmmm....but i hope me cher and jiayi have many happy times ahead...they always make me laugh in school..i thought i wont laugh again..but they make me..hahaha....XTD ROCKS eh..ahhahahahah..... i miss the times in 5B now....hahhaha...
okie..stop till now..ehhee...

wow....monday..never blog for three days?? don knot lahz..no mood too...hmmm....later i gonA be a Dj.....haiz..haha..back from being a DJ..it sucks...hahahhaah..so funny...keep laughin...recordin audio is somethin fun..makes me want to be a singer too..hahha..like what sia..ahhaha..jokn lahz..then oh ya..pretty much to update...hahah..hmm...let get it started....on fri...what did i think?? hmm..let me recall....oh ya..stay back again..for that stupid IDEAS!!!ARGH..stupid module..hahha...then after that i think maybe on fri got something happen but i don remember...hmmm....we went jurong point againon fri...hahah..went to eat..then after that on fri i work midnight..the only girl..haha...then got izan,farihan,zac,fai,SK,Zixiang....haha..so fun...but not very also...haiz..they keep disturbin me...then after that i did gourmet in the mornin so funny..so unecpectedly that i never do cashier..hahaha..then sat went home at about 11 then watch Meteor Garden then after that fall asleep on my sofa..then woke up at 4 plus...then agter that i eat alot sia..haiz...jus cant stop...then after that i watch the korean show...wahz..love love love...haiz...yupz..then after taht i went to sleep.cos cannot tan han...cos very sleepy..then after that went to work in the mornin..was dam ldate again..woke up at 7.45 which i need to report work at 8..then i took cab again..haiz..was feelin very good in the mornin...thats why..haiz..then after that weent to meet jiayi and cher..shop awhile and discuss some work..then after that was quite tired,.,...i know i got somethin i want to blog..but i forget eh...alamak..hhhmmm...really forget..To Kyeo...aiyo..is not you also..you never did anythin wrong lahz..don worry k..make me feel bad...alamak...it is really not yu..enjoy ur holidays k...hehehe.see ya...

hey....now havin video...later waiting to watch WAN QUAN YU LE....hahhaha...yeah...then later havin ideas...SUCKY....and yesteraday i went online...was watchin O.C and never put away..and sheena msg me..syin as a fren she ought to say like goodbye and see you on monday....i was like alittle sad...is like before she msg me..i did msg her in her hp...i never save her temporary no. so i use my received calls to get the no. and msg ehr...i think i got the wrong no...or she isnt usin that no. then after that i was about to reply her in the msn she left....i was like......hmmmm....okie....i wanted to reply and tell her that i did msg her and tell her to take care and have fun....but too bad she doesnt seem to received...too bad...

then yesterday i watched O.C was very nice....good show..nice show....good acting..nice plot..nice story..haha..yeah....hmmm..then was alittle pissed by soemone...everyday chat with me..then i was busy yesterday so i don bother to reply then the person was like also never say night or somethin...eh..i am busy lahz..thats why i never reply...was alittle pissed..
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wow...wooo..jus not Java tutorial don have..the teacher never come...was quite disappointed cos i want to have the tutorial...so end up havin 2 hours of breaks same as cher and jiayi...so the whole gang of us with alvin's gang went to Jurong Point..to have lunch...thats is so not the place i will always go...so funny...never been to this kind of place before.although nothin special jus like other shoppin malls...but still feels so funny..so many MATS...hahaha....sorry to the westside ppl...there is really a difference between east and west although singapore is so small..hahah..

more to talk today? hahah...yesteraday went for the car washin for the fund rasining for the hongkong trip..is like so out ah...doesnt feel like fun..then we went to look and search for the car then wash it...haiz..okie...thought will be fun..but it didnt turn out as i expected...so boring...jsu wish that it will end early and i can go and watch street soccer competition in school...then finally it ended and i went to watch the street soccer...those groups fightin for the 3rd nd 4th isnt as exciting as the 1st and 2nd...the 1st and 2nd very nice to watch.e.xciting..like play until want to fight..not being racis here...is like the indians lilke so arrogant and so noisy...they should not have won..the other team should have won...wasted sia...haiz...they jus merely lost by penalty shots...haiz..should not have..argh..but nice to watch...but i was alone watchin...saw a couple of cute guys..hahahahahahha....no lahz..okok...

yesterday couldnt meet ena,chal and ruzaini..end up they also never meet...then went home...was damm freaking tired..sat down on my sofa and stoned...and chatted with fad awhile...about works...haiz...don know.....

this blog i created thought i could vent out some of my frustration...seems like it wil be hurtful and so vugluar if i do so..i mus think of somethin to vent out..cos sch works is jus too stress...ahhhaha......

then went jurong point..alot of thigns sia..and me and cher had a Fruit Feast..hahahhahaha.....nice onme eh..hahaha..okok....yupz...then i think thats about all...haiz..

i blog jus now but could post...somethin wrong with my blog...haiz...haha..aiyoz..i took veyr long to update..cos wi was playing game jus now..haha..fun lehz..haha..then i forget what i blog jus now ready..haa..i know i mention abuot that monday was a sucky day cos have to stay back and do a project..and i thought exams are coming and they should not have so many projects..but it seems not the case..is like the exams are nearing yet the deadline for projets are also nearin...haiz...esp STSC..stay up till 1.30 to finish up my report..wahz..headache sia..neck pain..everyday face computer don know hwether my eye got problem anot..hahaha...then today i goin for some car wash thing...for the hongkong trip..haha...so funny..but i want to go watch soccer...i want to watch street soccer..haha..maybe later i will go there and watch...don care ah..hahaha...hmm...then is like yesteraday was a okie day...but pretty bored..i did java..hahaha..is fun..the game...hahhaa...so cute..hahaha...but very sleepy ah..hahaha..then yesterdau wanyed to go town to buy a cap but in the end never go and buy..and vinson called me yesterday wanted to pass me some chocolate and black forest cake but i was half way home le. i always pester him to let me taste his cake..hahha...but everytime no chance..vin enxt time ha...hahaha..then oh ya...surprisingly ...Mr M.I.A was online yesterday...M.I.A sehz..online..but instead i was the busy one..hahahah....Yeo..M.I.A online lehz...still gona be M.I.A...hahhahaa.....haha...

haiz..then feelings..yesterady was writing my stript for my story..then is about sec sch stuffs...then memories flow by...wahz...alot of thing...haiz...so much i wish i cuold go back manz...i really miss them man...haiz...how? how? how? then cher,jiayi and me...are becoming more crazy in school..hahaha..crazy..and hope becomin more close..but hey peeps..don misunderstood ....we arent lesbian.hahhaha..okok...havin fun playin games here...watchin soccer later...see ya..bye..

hello,morning..now in school bloggin ...actually also nothing much to blog...things haven become not simple. and projects is also coming up so many. thuoght is so near the examinations period that i thought after the video project there wont be any more other projects..but seems like more is coming up,esp for STSC.so headache...yesterday stay until 1.30 to finish up my assignment..so tired...so sleepy..neck so pain..got headache...wahz..damm tired sia..and yesterday was tuesday. on ya on monday i did something so thrilling..those escalator that was going up...i ran down the escalator..was at first i was damm scared don know whether to run down..but in the end i did it and it was cool fun thriling...i know what to do if next time i wasnt feeling too good...and yeah...monday wasnt a good day too..having ideas project to do..it sucks...haha..then ontuesday i did java and the teacher was funny..hahhaha..okie..then after that wanted to go town jus to get a cap cos jiayi said she saw a nice one...but in the end decided not to go..and wasted sia..vinson wanted to give him some chocolate and black forest cake he made in school but i was already half way home...cos i always pester him for it...then i wrote a script for my STSC..something more on my sec sch that while i writin i remeber about alot of my sec school...ya..memories flowed pass again....haiz...oh...yesterday Mr M.I.A was online..hahhah...can u believe it yeo..ahhahha....okie..but too bad i was busy instead of him...yupz...

got alot more ot write bout my feelings..haha..feeling again...so boring right...but who cares..is my blog...i am tryin to be that last time C.p back..tryin hard to be..really....and i hope i can....and yupz....

haiz...idoitic...stupid..borin..workin yesterday...kanna sent to kiosk again...borin...but nvm ah..cos the manager was...yupz..then i really cl;ean the whole kiosk again..tirin sehz..oh ya..then i never sleep the whole night..cos i watch tv until one plus..then i scared i couldnt wake up so dare not sleep..so never sleep and keep watchin tv..arent i power??okie..then i work until six plus cos kak elly was there..hehehe..yupz...then yesterday all the customer seem to have atittude problems...borin..haiz..then i was like stay then went home...borin ..tired...and at night called .... wahz...so sad...so unexpected...somethin is goin tru my mind..but i don know whether i should do what i feel...haiz..feel so vexed and stress up....why cant friends be simple...AIYA....IDOIT lahz....LAME!! I feel like doin what i think....!!!thinkin of bloggin long but no mood ah....alot of tings to write...want...forget it..

hey..i can blog..but the fonts will be this and the color will be this...somethin is so wrong with my com..forever wrong...suddenly forget what i want to blog again..nothin special for today..went to work in the mornin...it was like DAMM IT...i woke up at 7.10!!and i am so damm late...so i take my time to bath and everythin ah..then took a cab to work which cost me $10...Heartpain...haiz..then go work..wow!!midnight shift is all GUYS night..hahah...FARIHAN again lookin tired..saw JASON forever smilin at me...The rest are busy doin their work..the moment i step inside the kitchen only..MANAGER LYNN ask me to go kiosk..and there i go..KIOSK i stay..hahah..went kiosk..was shawn..thought will be some charmin guy..anyway no charmin guys in the outlet..haha..Opps...nono..not charmin ..but all nice right..haha..then shawn was nice..help me took everythin..and settle..and i wishin for no customer..and clean up the whole place!!woo...clean up the place...haha..then finishin cleanin..was readin the comm book..woow...FULL OF LOVE...ahha..there is always the same GIRLS writtin..GUYS hardly write..haha...and the book is so emo..i wrote..hehe...YEAH...then after that..aida came to my rescue..she came early and chatted with me!!hehe..time passed jus like that..with her chattin with me..chatted alot..cos we have one thing in common eh!!hahaha...ya..then cash out for kiosk...then went back..and saw KAK ELLY...haha..she was happy today..thats good..miss workin with her..she is one manager everyone miss..hahha..yupz..yippe...then home i went..wanted to meet jas..but i was late in the morni and never brought clothes to change so in the end i didnt meet her..yupz..then went home..the sun was damm hot...and i walked home...was yawnin all the way manz...then home i reach..watch tv..bath..eat..the usual rountine..borin..here i am..facin com..nothin to do..no much ppl online..and there it goes singin to all the songs..and here is goes waitin for a show to start..

long before i wanted to say..i don know who i am anymore..i cant figure out who i am..what kind of person i am..and how i treat ppl..i want to treat everyone nice..really..deep in my heart that is what i feel..but sometime when i see the person,how i treat them is different ready..my heart doesnt listen to my mind..and i think i have totally changed..i was so happy and free when i was in sec sch.but now..ppl thinks i have a hot-tempered..come on..i feel so sad..i wasnt like this is the past? WHY? WHY? WHY? i was describe as Happy-Go-Lucky girl last time..now i am hot -tempered..fierce..what is this man? thats why i keep sayin i lose myself..really lose..eversince.....i really don know what have got into me..maybe i met too many ppl..and know what reality is..is like i don know who to trust anymore...ppl i trust doesnt trust me..so whats the point of tellin them stuffs..ppl i close to last time i treat them differently cos things happen..(is not only one person)is like the world totally changed..i wnat my last time laughters back..i was so happy then..happy until i wasnt attached..but ppl keep askin me.."Chunpei,u got bf ah?" then i was like"huh? BF..no lahz..why u ask?" then they willl say "no lahz..u look like u have" then i guess i was too happy way back..i lost count when..i really hate those who changed things in my life..but i do agree with one of my collgues said.."if u never experience those things in ur life,u will not learn to regret,treasure,and learn." quite true..but my sacrifice for those experiences are oto much..i lost my happiness and laughters...wahz..feelin damm depressed eh..i mean not really ah..but when think of it..i will ah..and i jus cant believe another year is passin so soon...is like i jus graduated and jus enter poly..haiz..feelin so sucky!! i am not such a ncie personn...ppl pls don think of me for that...and ruzaini i feel like askin"should i trust what u say again?" oh i don know...

now the happy part..last night i had a weird dream..oh my ..i dreamt of someone...someone who is so unexpected to be dreamt bout...haha..so damm funny..haha..then i mentioned before right..my video got in for the JVC competition..but is like i watch it over n over again..i think the ACTORS AND ACTRESS ARE DAMM POWER AND GREAT..is like so natural...u know..like they really know each other for very long..ya..hehe..
AHMAD U ARE GREAT !
JIAYI U ROCK MAN! haha..
and not forgettin my CAMERAWOMAN!! CHER~U GO GIRL~~HAHAH....yeah..
girls..prepare some winter clothes ah..goin tokyo soon..hahahhaaha..oh my..i am dreamin..ahha..okie..waitin for summer scent.ehhe..the guy really look like CHRIS ah..ahhah....

HURRAY~!!! guess what...surprisin our video assignment are selected for the JVC competition!!YEAH..haha....but seriously i think our video isnt that GREAT...but i also don know why it is got selected...but very happy...cos is like partly my story..hehe..we have great actors and actress...and great camerawoman...ahhahaah....yeah...i jus simply love the last part....hahha...okie...back to bloggin my stuffs..haiz..yesterday went joggin in the small rain..wahz..i ran alot..hehe..and yesterday The O.C was perfectly nice and great....the show is damm nice...see...why u jus don trust the person who love u....they wont harm u right...and melissa rather believe a guy she knew in the THERAPY rather than ryan...so sad...she deserve that...haiz..then yesterday skip the last practical session and went home...cos simply jus too tired..then went home....have been walkin home this few days..got a no. of things in my mind to buy...cap,shirt,skirt,bag..wahz..alot man...then have been thinkin about the hongkong trip...don knwo why...before i sleep yesterday i have been thinkin bout that...maybe a little excited about goin there..but jus hope that everythin will go smoothly..and yesterday ena gave me a testi...thanks..is well-written...ahha.thanks...and ya..haven been meetin up with her...hmm...and yesterday singapoer idol rock..haha..nice show..hehe...actually i nkow there is many things on my midn yesteraday which i want t blog it here..but now i simply forget..hehe..but nvm...lets forget that..and still to say SEC 5B 2003 of dunman sec ROCKS~~!! take care guys!!missin every of u...hehe...yeah...congrates me eh...