hey..i can blog..but the fonts will be this and the color will be this...somethin is so wrong with my com..forever wrong...suddenly forget what i want to blog again..nothin special for today..went to work in the mornin...it was like DAMM IT...i woke up at 7.10!!and i am so damm late...so i take my time to bath and everythin ah..then took a cab to work which cost me $10...Heartpain...haiz..then go work..wow!!midnight shift is all GUYS night..hahah...FARIHAN again lookin tired..saw JASON forever smilin at me...The rest are busy doin their work..the moment i step inside the kitchen only..MANAGER LYNN ask me to go kiosk..and there i go..KIOSK i stay..hahah..went kiosk..was shawn..thought will be some charmin guy..anyway no charmin guys in the outlet..haha..Opps...nono..not charmin ..but all nice right..haha..then shawn was nice..help me took everythin..and settle..and i wishin for no customer..and clean up the whole place!!woo...clean up the place...haha..then finishin cleanin..was readin the comm book..woow...FULL OF LOVE...ahha..there is always the same GIRLS writtin..GUYS hardly write..haha...and the book is so emo..i wrote..hehe...YEAH...then after that..aida came to my rescue..she came early and chatted with me!!hehe..time passed jus like that..with her chattin with me..chatted alot..cos we have one thing in common eh!!hahaha...ya..then cash out for kiosk...then went back..and saw KAK ELLY...haha..she was happy today..thats good..miss workin with her..she is one manager everyone miss..hahha..yupz..yippe...then home i went..wanted to meet jas..but i was late in the morni and never brought clothes to change so in the end i didnt meet her..yupz..then went home..the sun was damm hot...and i walked home...was yawnin all the way manz...then home i reach..watch tv..bath..eat..the usual rountine..borin..here i am..facin com..nothin to do..no much ppl online..and there it goes singin to all the songs..and here is goes waitin for a show to start..

long before i wanted to say..i don know who i am anymore..i cant figure out who i am..what kind of person i am..and how i treat ppl..i want to treat everyone nice..really..deep in my heart that is what i feel..but sometime when i see the person,how i treat them is different ready..my heart doesnt listen to my mind..and i think i have totally changed..i was so happy and free when i was in sec sch.but now..ppl thinks i have a hot-tempered..come on..i feel so sad..i wasnt like this is the past? WHY? WHY? WHY? i was describe as Happy-Go-Lucky girl last time..now i am hot -tempered..fierce..what is this man? thats why i keep sayin i lose myself..really lose..eversince.....i really don know what have got into me..maybe i met too many ppl..and know what reality is..is like i don know who to trust anymore...ppl i trust doesnt trust me..so whats the point of tellin them stuffs..ppl i close to last time i treat them differently cos things happen..(is not only one person)is like the world totally changed..i wnat my last time laughters back..i was so happy then..happy until i wasnt attached..but ppl keep askin me.."Chunpei,u got bf ah?" then i was like"huh? BF..no lahz..why u ask?" then they willl say "no lahz..u look like u have" then i guess i was too happy way back..i lost count when..i really hate those who changed things in my life..but i do agree with one of my collgues said.."if u never experience those things in ur life,u will not learn to regret,treasure,and learn." quite true..but my sacrifice for those experiences are oto much..i lost my happiness and laughters...wahz..feelin damm depressed eh..i mean not really ah..but when think of it..i will ah..and i jus cant believe another year is passin so soon...is like i jus graduated and jus enter poly..haiz..feelin so sucky!! i am not such a ncie personn...ppl pls don think of me for that...and ruzaini i feel like askin"should i trust what u say again?" oh i don know...

now the happy part..last night i had a weird dream..oh my ..i dreamt of someone...someone who is so unexpected to be dreamt bout...haha..so damm funny..haha..then i mentioned before right..my video got in for the JVC competition..but is like i watch it over n over again..i think the ACTORS AND ACTRESS ARE DAMM POWER AND GREAT..is like so natural...u know..like they really know each other for very long..ya..hehe..
AHMAD U ARE GREAT !
JIAYI U ROCK MAN! haha..
and not forgettin my CAMERAWOMAN!! CHER~U GO GIRL~~HAHAH....yeah..
girls..prepare some winter clothes ah..goin tokyo soon..hahahhaaha..oh my..i am dreamin..ahha..okie..waitin for summer scent.ehhe..the guy really look like CHRIS ah..ahhah....