hey..bloggin again..cos was sort of waiting to download some software but seems like it is gonna take very long..nowadays..i seldom blog...i also wonder why...i jus arent myself...and who am i? tryin to search for this question..what kind of person am i? what am i livin for? jus for normal human rountine....study,work,marriage,family?? isnt that too rountine...should we be living the way we want and wish and dream...i think is this way...or am i been too over thinkin too much...say in my previous blog had my maths exam....haha...then tense only came when i was sittin there waitin to enter the room....so many ppl...so many other course..so many other ppl....haiz...i jus hope i get the marks to pass my maths..i don wish to forward module...ARGH!!~~~ and i am wondering i have become sacarstic somehow..which i will not be in the past....how come? oh no..i have changed...this is somethin i dread for it to happen....there are time i stop awhile to think WHO IS CHUNPEI? DO I KNOW HER? cos i dont seems to know myself anymore...haiz...now i somehow know the feelin of losin myself.....here it goes....feelin numb....no feeling right now..didnt know i can get so bad....haiz.....what happen to me???? what has got into me??? i think i changed bcos of diffferent FAKE,TWO FACES ppl i have met....OR those HYPORCRITE???i don know...the reason...maybe there isnt any reason for someone's changed...now i know why he changed...cos there is no reason...u jus somehow changed like that...the more u try to search for the answer..the more the answer is gettin far away from you....the more u try to dig...the more changes u will have.....wahz...been emotional again...haiz..tml havin my JAVA ...which it sucks..and i jus cant print the exams paper out..should have jus print it in sch jus now...haiz...what am i gonna do to myself???i don know anymore...there arent much ppl i trust..and i arent exited about the hongkong trip.....jus hope the days spent in CBTL are fun....cos ................................................................................