BLACKOUT!BLACKOUT!

haha..jus now on the way home,ruzaini got a call from his mum sayin that sengkang blackout..then i thought only his block of house..but then after that,other ppl in the bus were like receving phone calls sayin their house also blackout,so i also decided to call back and see whether my house also kanna..then,really sia..my house also blackout..so thats mean the whole SENGKANG blackout sia!!hahaa...then when the bus goin up reachin sengkang,it was all pitch dark...make me feels like on my way home to malaysia..but somehow,i had this uneasy feelin..then it was really too dark that i cant walk home,so i decided to call my dad to fetch me(AFTER SO LONG,THIS WAS THE FIRST TIME I CALL HIM TO FETCH ME!!!)then he also stupid..never see me..then make two turns..haiz...nvm..then not fun sia..by the time i reach home all the lights were back..then no more fun..haiz..then today went school again for the stupid orientation!!!haiz..so damm sian..eveytime see my class ppl also sian...then today got to befriend this girl named dawn...ok lahz..not bad..we can click..but i don kow whether how close or well we will be...but all like only 17 sia..sian...then wanted to go joggin today,but never cos too tired..i know this is not an excuse...but sorry i am alittle lazy...haha...then got quite some handsome and cool guy but like in business course one lehz..but luckily in the same block..but i think ah..design and enviroment sch got alot of cool and steady guys lehz..then today,went out study english..i am like thinkin..if i scored well in english..should i change course and change sch??then startin sch soon..wat a sucks timetable i have..all either finish at 3,4 or 5...i never have a day that i finish early...haiz..so sian sia..wonder how poly life will be? not expectin much...wont be much fun anyway!nothin much or more to write ah..haiz..nothin really happen today...or maybe it do but i forget..somethin that isnt important anyway right?hahha...anyway,hope everythin will be goin well and better for me...........haiz.......miss sec sch...miss my frens...miss the fun..miss the teachers...miss the assembly..miss the sch song..miss the MARI KITA..miss the pledge..miss the parade ground...miss the bus stop..miss the path..miss the canteen..miss the netball courts..miss my class which is jus beside the teacher's room..miss the night class..miss the F&N room..miss the D&T area..miss the times..miss the days..miss the moment everythin happen!!! :(

haiz..missin sec sch more..

haiz..total disappointment!!i really chose the wrong sch..i should have chose the course in NYP instead right..at least got wei luo..haiz..feelin like cryin now..and damm unlucky sia..was alittle late today...alittle only..then no choice have to take cab!!then is cost me 15 bucks sia..idiot!!!no wonder everyone have been scoldin me that i why i want to go SP...haiz..didnt know that i was so stupid to chose SP..and why did i want to chose SP in the first place..cos last time i wanted a new life..but not now anymore..i never wanted a new life eversince i made frens with them...and today i went in to the auditorium for all the talks,feels so .......then suddenly i miss my sec sch so much that i really feel like cryin..cos in the big yet crowded auditorium,there strangers everywhere..strangers that i don know..all with nerds face..maybe 2 out of 10 all those style and ZAI one...then nvm,i jus sat down and listen to all the talks...and it was damm borin that i feel like fallin asleep sia..even my sec sch assembly doesnt make me feel this way,but this haiz..speechless....then nvm..break for one hour..knew one fren which is not from my course...quite okie..netballers too..then met two dunmanites,rina and another which i know named herself FISH before..ya..also different course jus that same sch...haiz..nvm..doesnt really click with them though...then finally i went to check which class i was in..and my class is 1B/22...then i see the list..and saw two malay guys name...then was quite happy ah..cos havin more malay in class is so much funn..but after meetin them,one was still quite okie..from DAMAI sec..the other never talk to him...all my classmates all quiet...stone...and N**DS...i am not tryin to say i am stylo here..but the fact is there...and all around i ask,all tell me they 17...haiz..my mind was thinkin..how come so many 17 years old..i thought poly should have more of my age?? haiz...idiot..all this ppl can go JC don want to go...then want to come poly and make me feel old!! then now i think back...i should have study harder for my english then maybe i can go JC too..but too bad....i cant...cos i jus cant stand the life of poly!!it doesnt suit me at all..cos i am someone who doesnt have self-discipline and independence...and poly life needs that alot..maybe i will retain for a year?? who knows?? haven start sch and i already hate sch!!damm asshole!!really should have gone to TP instead..but i don have any course i want in TP..but have one in NYP..but it focus more on info-comm...thats why..haiz..maybe is fated...then today went shoppin alone in town..sometimes shoppin alone is nice..although you wont have comments from other ppl but at least u can go where u want..and no need to wait for each other...tml still need to go that bloody sch...haiz..FOUR DAYS of orientation..which sch have such a long idiot orientation..NONE other than the wrong school i have chose!!told u i am losin some frens in my life and i don wish to gain any new frens...really..then my class got 4 or 5 girls..then got this ger with the fierce-lookin face like ah lian like that..haiz..then all like so borin and sian..haiz...i seriously don know how i am gona survive in that sian bloody far sch...ARGH~~~jus cant bare the thought that i am goin sch with strangers,goin to that MRT...somethin life that i wish for when i was in sec 4 but this isnt somethin life i wish for after i completed my sec sch life with a great and happy times...jus cant think that poly life will get any better!! haiz..wonder how other ppl are doin and adaptin...I REALLY MISS MY SEC 5B!!! although there are times we quarrel but it was all forgotten...my class is still the best!!!

wooooo.....

haiz...this few days haven been postin cos i am damm tired..this two days fell asleep at before 11pm..BEFORE 11PM?did i hear wrongly?eversince,i stopped schoolin in sec sch,my sleepin time is usually after 1am..haha..okok...alot to update..oh,did i mention about bani on my previous post?cos i met him!!hmm..actually,i did mention right..haha..okok..then on fri when i was cuttin my hair(okie..obvious i am not the one CUTTIN my hair..my aunt helped me to cut..then i msg him..i said,afterall it was nice seein him and i told him he has a nice smile which i didnt quite realise last time..then i was surprised by his message..cos he say it was nice seein me too,then he say i didnt get the chance to taste his drink...then he ask me to come next time..then he mention..he mention that my dressin was different and it was nice..oh my god..can u believe it..i was quite happy..that on that night i was workin at kisok along at night somemore u know..i close the cake section,the IB,the EB...clean everythin..it was like nothin to do..and i were feelin alittle cold havin flu..not feelin very well..then i sat on the sofa and listenin to my discman from 3am to 5am..imagine i stone and sit down for 2 long hours..is good workin there cos not much things to do..but i prefer doin things ah..cos if i got nothin to do and start to day-dream right...haiz..i can knock my mind down..cos i will think alot of things...then in the mornin i did somethin so stupid..the machine for brewin the coffee supposed to be 2.2...somethin like that lahz..then it was 2.4,i didnt know that it should be 2.2 i jus happily brewed the coffee...in the mornin i already wasnt feelin well at all..was havin terrible damm FLU!!even customer ask me,u are not feelin good today...then the worse part is,the coffee came spillin out..cos it overflow..and the first thing that came into my mind was to take out the thing and throw the coffee...and i spill the coffee on the flow and scalded myself..then i wasnt feelin fine..rahim was there..then i like feel so bad...he already asked me to go cos i sick,then i don wan..want to like helped him ah..cos mornin slam alittle..then wat i think was brought him more trouble...feel so bad sia..then i cried bcos i dont know wat i am doin...haiz..bad day isnt it???feel sorry for him..then fad also like wat sia..cos at night,farihan workin in the outlet with her,then farihan asked her whether i got go camp then she told him:"shh..i tell u ah,but don tell anyone,CP never go camp"obviously,i didnt want farihan to know cos he encourage me to go...then somemore,he heard me told kak elly that if i never go camp i will call in and say i can work..haiz...don know lahz..things shouldnt be said she will say,things supposed to say,she will jus keep her mouth shut!yesterday,was fad and tbl bday,went out with fad and shoppin..then met lukman and firdaus...haiz..a gay partner again..cant leave each other sidee..hahahahah....then at night i came back,wanted to watch the korean show and soccer match one..but fell asleep at 9plus..again,again(did i write wrong,9 plus???sleepin so early??)hahah...was damm tired ah...then went work this mornin..ok lahz..was quite okie..then fad really call in and say she sick never go work..but she never think of her fren here,cos when i wake up,i not really feelin very well,thinkin of callin in..but she already did..then i might as well go work...haiz..yalahz..but today work was okie ah..cos the manager was kak elly...hehe...ya...anyway,tml i am goin sch for my orenitation...don feel like goin to sch..or shold i say don feel like schoolin cos stop schoolin for sch a long time ready...hehe...hope i will meet some or should i not...hahahaha....

ARGH~~~

haiz..super sad!cos england draw with portugal...gona have more hard games!!!wahz..really left speechless!!england cannot be too happy if they went in a goal first..see what happen next..france is like that..portugal is also like that...jus cant uunderstand when this happen!!really have quite alittle high hopes that england will dominate the game and win but in the end..i am left speechless..ashley cole played very well defence,beckham also not bad...haiz..portugal is jus plain too lucky to shot in!ok..enough of soccer..havin been postin since monday..cos actually,tue not suppose to work..but my "CLEVER" fren really piss me off..i never put schedule for mon to wed cos i thot i might be goin to sch camp but in the end i never go..so thot,ok ah..take this three days as a rest ah..then tue night not enuff ppl work..so kak nor called fad and asked her to go work..then fad say"aiya,no fren lehz..don want ah..if got fren then i go work"then kak nor say"ok..give me CP's no,i call her"then i never pick up the call cos i thot it might be ppl from sch called..then in the end fad called and say"CP wanna work tonight anot?they got not enuff ppl."then i say ah"i cannot go work bcos i ready tell them i am goin camp,i also tell kak elly say if i never go camp i will call in and fill up my schedule for mon,tue and wed"then she say"oh,i ready help u tell that u last min not goin camp"AT THAT point i feel like strangling her!!!cos,isnt it obvious that i want to take a rest and don want to work!!!then still can help me excuse why i need to go work..say wat:"oh cos u wanna M.I.A for coffee bean right,so i thot u want to work as many days as possible first"i am like thinkin"eh,who are u to find excuses for me for what i goin to do or not goin to do?damm irritated and pissed and super angry with her for that..everytime tryin to help me decide things and findin lame excuses for me!EH..come on lahz..i don need that lahz..then today i decided not to go to work cos wanna watch soccer at night...then i told her..then she got no objections..OF COS AH..tonight got lukman and firadus workin wat..why she need me!!SEE..thats wat i say..some of my frens took me for granted..and tml they not workin..keepin tellin me"CP..tml must come work k"Wat u take me for?? replacin some frens when they are not around!!Come on lahz..i don like to be replacement!!think wat?idiot..damm ass!!had enuff man..then also don know how to be independent..go where also ask me to go along..never think ppl tired right..then ask u out..findin excuses for me!!instead for urself..wat...say"don want lahz..later scared u tired!"okie..maybe u are jus being concern but to me..NAHZ..u are jus tryin to find lame excuses about me so that it wont reflected that u are not the one who cant go out!Pls lahz...wahz...if i were to blow up...we can say bye bye to each other!!DAMM PISS with her!!!haiz..okie..enuff of her..the more of her the more angier i get!then today i went out in the mornin to palangwan beach but made a wasted trip cos there is basically no SUN!!!waste my time!!!then after that i met khai to shop and look for fad's present..haiz..i am being bad..sayin bad things bout her and here i am shoppin for her bday gift...alamak!!!wat am i doin??then yesterday,i went out in the afternoon and shop for the whole afternoon..and bought a skirt that i like alot and shoes and a new cap...then buyin jeans too..but am i gettin fatter or is the cuttin gettin smaller??haiz..then i saw EVE!!!wahz..so happy to see her sia..cos so long never see her le..hehe...really happy..then somemore i saw bani!!oh my..now i realise he really got a nice and charmin smile..hehe..then we chat for less than a minute cos he got work to do!hehe..but at least and at last i met him!!!hahaha..quite happy lahz..hehe...tml workin at kisok alone..hope it will be fine!!hehe..okie..all the best to me...haiz..still sad over england's draw game!!!!!!

Cp 

sorry..Mr Blog....

haha...i didnt know that the blog i say which was supposed to be publish is published..hehe..sorry MR blog..hehe..went out today..shoppin for TBL'S bday present..wahz..a year have passed..and last year i got him a shirt..which i was so damm paiseh to pass it to him..and now i can easily care-free shopped his present for him..haha..haiz..so many things can happen in a year ah..then suddenly things began to flash thur my mind while i was in the bus goin home...should i say??haiz..i thought about memories when we(not me and tbl)haiz..i should stop thinking..sometimes,i jus cant stand fad..finally, i found someone who is so much more emotional than me...hehe..saw my frens who started their new sch life today..they seems so happy and fun..but i doubt ym sch will be that fun with all the nerdys..haiz...maybe i goin back to levis and work..cos CBTL pay is really pathetic...that i jus cant seem to survive with it..maybe i will..but cant bear the ppl there...confuse!!

ole~ole~ole~

ole~ole~ole~ole~so happy sia..ENGLAND won!!yeah...they won..was so afraid that they might draw or even lose..cos crotia had the first goal...was a lucky goal for them sia..beck was the one conceded the free-kick sia..haiz..they they goal..but not to mention..they are super power..zai!!in the end they still won!everytime,when crotia tried to shoot,or when the ball is so near the goal post,my heart wil jump a beat..really so scared that the ball will go in..but england defence was good,especially with ashely cole and terry..power sia..they defence..ashely cole is my new soccer idol player...and netherless to say ronney is the man of the match...his shots are POWER!! yeah...hopefully,england will win against portugal...DAVID VS FIGO...hahha..CP VS ABD! hahahhahaahah....i will win!.....hehe...more to see..hehe...okie..goin to sleep...hope i dont wake up so early tml..hehe..

stupid...this post suppose to post yesterday but server down..make me rewrite again..

idiot!!this was supposed to post yesterday but server down and wasnt posted..stupid sia..haiz..i wrote very long u know...haiz..i was damm bloody tired yesterday,cos i never had enuff sleep..cos i work midnight for two nights..then for the first night,i went home and see awhile and went out to shoppin with my work frens,then on that night very tired sia,then still need to do alot of things..then in the mornin i supposed to do cashier,then i let fad do ah..cos not many customer then i do the runner..then those ppl who are supposed to do EB wasnt at the station,then got orders...then obivoisly i do ah..(but next time i know what to do ready,i ask them out from the kitchen and do) and eversince i did the first EB,i was stuck there for the rest of the three long hours...sian sia...somemore SLAM...wat sia..as if i want to station there..i wanted to give it back to the ppl who are supposed to do, but then they don want..then wat u expect me to do..jus walk out?NO right...haiz..then after i finish three long hours of EB,i went inside the kitchen then kak was like hintin to us we should stick to our own station and as if i am the one at fault..WAT SIA...i am not the one who wanted to change..and even if i like to steam milk doesnt mean i like to do EB..haiz...tired sia..i can still remember my hand shakin when i steamin the milk..wat sia..haiz..next time i don want to interfere in others ppl business ready...asshole...then when i came home i only sleep for 3 short hours then have to go popo house and was being said late..wat sia..i go good ready okie..cos i even intended not to go..then i went out..only bought a jac and shirt..not much..wanted to buy more..haiz..stupid day..and now i am wonderin whether i should quit this job if i cant handle both side....see first ah...but i am angry with fad and khai sometimes..cos sometimes a simple question takes them such a hard time to open up their mouth...haiz..sometimes fad is good sometimes she isnt..she is certainly FRECKLE-MINDED!! cos she sometimes wants it sometimes dont...i also don know wat she wants!!!haiz..but who cares...haiz...jus have to learn to take things easily..okok..have to go bath..goin out now..

idiotic day..sucks day...

Sucks!!F***!!damm man...today,seriously..idiot sia...asshole..hmm...cos in the mornin i supposed to do cashier..ok ah..i don really want to do cashier in the mornin cos i don want to face customer..then i help to do runner and let khai and fad to do cashier ah..then the ppl supposed to do EB are not THERE!! then got order then i help do ah!obivous right!but next time i know wat to do ready...ASK THEM TO COME OUT AND DO THEMSELVES...HELP ppl earn only scoldin in the end!F***!then eversince i do the first EB i am stuck there ready...idiot..then after i stand there fot three long hours doin EB i get scoldin..wat sia!kak elly is like hintin to ur we anyhow change our position..EH..u think i want ah..stupid...i don want right..i want to give back the position but the ppl don want to take back..WAT can i do???tell me ah...then as if i am the one at fault..i like to steam milk doesnt mean i like to do EB!!!stupid asshole!!anyway,don feel like workin anymore..cannot take it down....but i seriously find NOT FAIR sia...why everytime among the trainee i am always the one who will go home so late..and do alot of things...idoit sia...then went home,then sleep not for more than 3 hours have to wake up go popo house..tired..then ppl there still say i come so late..i got come good ready..still think of not goin sia..then super tired sia..then now here i am wake up in the early damm mornin at 2am cos i slept at 8 jus now...haiz...and i am still thinkin whether i should quit this job and go back and work in levis..and seriously i don feel like goin SP to study..haiz..and i have to join a soccer club!haiz..there are many things i want to buy and get sia..and sometimes fad is nice sometimes she is not..sometimes she is bitchy sometimes she is emotional...i also don quite get her..havin a suck up like a f**kin life...everything sucks..haiz...

happy+tired+borin+sian day..day..day...

haiz...stay at home the whole day..never go out..and i never imagine i slept for 15 hours since yesterday...cos i work on wednesday night..then the next morning i went to sentosa palangwan beach to suntan myself...then i never sleep for one whole night..then i suntan for about one hour...and was super tired..was sleepin while suntannin..my cousin had to wake me up..hahahha....then i never really see any handsome guuys..only have gorgeous babes..hehehe...then i really super tired and slept for 15 hours...then i missed the OC and meteor garden..DAMM it...hehe...then today i chatted with him..woo..was a nice chat afterall,thought it will be a short and moody chat...but everythin went well...hehe..we chatted about soccer..maybe soccer is the only things that we can really chat about..feels good today that we chatted..and i really feel happy for him havin to join a club..he join blastier..haiz..how come everything seems to have some connection..haha..bani was in ite blastier..and azmi also in woodlands united..hahaha...so irony...and i didnt expect him to be a striker when he used to be defender or midfielder ...but striker is good for him..he have the speed and the skills required..and he jersey no. is 17...hehhe...gotta remember that...and i really feels like tellin him bout ena and ru thingy..i really feels like tellin him..cos i want him to know..hope he could be back to ru..cos at least with abd by ru side is better cos i know i will never be by the both of them's side now...haiz..and he challenge me one thing..that i should get into a girl's soccer club myself..but i don know wat i will have or gain if i win the challenge..but even if is nothin..i will also want to win the challenge...hope i will win...JIA YOU...okok..had a pretty nice day ya..talked with him.but now i am alittle confused..not sure whether i want to go for the ICT camp...really still thinkin..should i go or not???

tired day...red face....

haiz...was pretty tired today..went to play a little soccer in the mornin..was quite okie..was really a game..cos 2 VS 2...but at least i know i can play soccer..hahahha....then after that meet janice and went cyclin..wahz..the sun was damm sorching...and i was alittle sun-burned...hehe...good wat..like my skin to be tanned!feelin emo today..thinkin of someone today that i thought was already out of my mind..haiz...can see that ena looked sad and shag..and tired..i don wat i should do..haiz..and i did had a good laugh jus know..cos joel make me laugh like hell..which i think it have been ages i never laugh like that ready..haiz..workin later..damm sian..no mood to work..i think i rather keep quiet later..haiz..

how should i feel?

haiz..i don know wat to say..totally upset bout the france and england match...still cant believe my favourite player miss such an important penalty...haiz..i am really sad over it...really sad.. :( haiz..totally no mood the other day..and i was supposed to work yesterday...but i am really sad..got no frens that i can talk to workin on that day too..was a damm tired day..and i heard a piece of very bad news today..real bad that i don know how to react..i still cant believe that somethin like this have happen..both my best frens broke ........ but i hope its jus for the time being..maybe jus to let each other cool down for a moment..not somethin thats gona stay like this forever..cos i know if this were to happen then the time we see each other will be so much more lesser...haiz...how should i take it..and i realise i am gettin fatter and fatter but i jus have the temptation of keep eatin and eatin..hehe...okie..write till here ...

haiz,wat is goin wrong with me?

haiz..don know wats wrong with me!and my com i givin me f***kin problem!and nowadays i jus cant get to sleep.yestrday was workin midnight thencontinue workin in the morning consider double shift ah cos morning shift not enuff ppl.then i also jus finish my math assign.the more i learn the more confuse i got.haiz..and yesterday i feel like talkin to abd cos ena they all quarrel.i wonder how he will handle the situation......arghhhhhh~~

early bird??

haha..wahz..5.30 in the morninig..wat the heck am i doin in the early morning?did i jus wake up?? nahz..i have even slept..haha..came back from work and watch VCD..drama serials..my one and only favourite drama serial..METEOR GARDEN...wahz..is really not tirin or get bored by that show..no matter how many times i watch,i would cry at sences that are sad and smile at sences that are cute and funny..love is really amazin...is so sweet and u feel happiness all the while..and happiness is something u have to go for it..you cant wait for it to come for it will never reach you...haiz..this is a really damm touchin show..have the best actors and actress and the best plot...hehe...and at first i thought of quittin work..but since today,i find maybe it is okie workin there..cos today work seems fine..maybe bcos the manager is kak elly...but it is still alright...see how it goes..let nature takes it course..if my poly studies is really heavy maybe that will be the end..right? hehe..actually,there another motive why i am here so early? or should i say so late? but the answer lies deep in my heart...okie..gotta go..good nite to me..hmm..somethin to add on..i jus simply hate my workfren--F**...cos seems like i am an easily bullied person..haiz..don know lahz..okie gonna go and have my sweet dream...*in the dreamland* hope tml will be a better day.... :)

BOred!!!

thought i can write this everyday but my computer isnt helpin me...it like to break down whenever it feels like. and yesterday i stay at home the whole damm day..is damm boring..okie..at least it was better that i woke up late..so at least morning have passed!then i watch this thai movie "My Girl" it was quite a lame show but touchin..it shows how friendship turn to love...and this little girl is very pretty and the little boy is handsome...the story goes like this..they lived beside each other..and grow up together...he is always seens stickin with her..in recess time,he also played with her..cos no one else would..and he is always the only guy in the GIRLS gang...thats why other guys from the same village like to tease him alot.and deep in his heart he like to play with the guys too..but they don allow..then one incident make the guys welcome him to the group..cos he played good soccer..then they invited him..but one time when he never show up for one match as he was watchin some touchin show with that girl.They lost the match and therefore,he is back again with the GIRLs...then he really want to be with the guys..so the leader of the gang ask him to do something to show that he is a REAL man...the first is to ride bicycle barehands..second,jump into the river naked,thrid,cut off the elastic rubber band the girls used to play with..HE did it..but when he cut the elastic rubber band..the girl is so sad and angry..keep askin her why he do it...he pushed her down to the ground and the girl cried..and since then they never talk to each other..the girl cut away her long weavy hair...maybe bcos she is too sad..and she moved out from that place...there is one song from this movie that i like alot..is in thai..but i love the lyrics...is about friends..forget...i will watch again and copy down..then i will post it here..really a very good lyrics...okie..i stop here..haiz..goona go work later..SIANZZZ~~~~

the launch day of my blog

today is the launch day for my blog..decided to create a blog so i can vent my fusration on this blog(bad eh)...hehe..had a tried day today...work..and work...and recently many past things keep flashin back in my mind which made me have a sleepless night for two days...i don know why...and there are really too many things which i jus wish i could forget which i can't..and i am not sure whether izzit that my forehead stated "PLEASE GIVE ME SOMETHING TO DO!"cos,one of my chinese manager and this SENIOR keep askin me to do this do that....F*** them!!!haven finish this then want to ask me to do another..think wat...am i superwoman or a ger with many hands??????? hate to hear.."CP later help me do this..CP later help me to that" i am thinkin.."eh..u all no hands no legs..cannot do urself izzit?" a bad job i got...haiz...never had a great day at work...and i am very tried but don wish to sleep...and i want to go shoppin tml..but i found no one to go with..am i pathetic?? seems that i have alot of friends..but when i want to go out..i jus cant seem to find anyone to ask out..haiz..anyway,those close friends of mine are gone!