haiz..missin sec sch more..

haiz..total disappointment!!i really chose the wrong sch..i should have chose the course in NYP instead right..at least got wei luo..haiz..feelin like cryin now..and damm unlucky sia..was alittle late today...alittle only..then no choice have to take cab!!then is cost me 15 bucks sia..idiot!!!no wonder everyone have been scoldin me that i why i want to go SP...haiz..didnt know that i was so stupid to chose SP..and why did i want to chose SP in the first place..cos last time i wanted a new life..but not now anymore..i never wanted a new life eversince i made frens with them...and today i went in to the auditorium for all the talks,feels so .......then suddenly i miss my sec sch so much that i really feel like cryin..cos in the big yet crowded auditorium,there strangers everywhere..strangers that i don know..all with nerds face..maybe 2 out of 10 all those style and ZAI one...then nvm,i jus sat down and listen to all the talks...and it was damm borin that i feel like fallin asleep sia..even my sec sch assembly doesnt make me feel this way,but this haiz..speechless....then nvm..break for one hour..knew one fren which is not from my course...quite okie..netballers too..then met two dunmanites,rina and another which i know named herself FISH before..ya..also different course jus that same sch...haiz..nvm..doesnt really click with them though...then finally i went to check which class i was in..and my class is 1B/22...then i see the list..and saw two malay guys name...then was quite happy ah..cos havin more malay in class is so much funn..but after meetin them,one was still quite okie..from DAMAI sec..the other never talk to him...all my classmates all quiet...stone...and N**DS...i am not tryin to say i am stylo here..but the fact is there...and all around i ask,all tell me they 17...haiz..my mind was thinkin..how come so many 17 years old..i thought poly should have more of my age?? haiz...idiot..all this ppl can go JC don want to go...then want to come poly and make me feel old!! then now i think back...i should have study harder for my english then maybe i can go JC too..but too bad....i cant...cos i jus cant stand the life of poly!!it doesnt suit me at all..cos i am someone who doesnt have self-discipline and independence...and poly life needs that alot..maybe i will retain for a year?? who knows?? haven start sch and i already hate sch!!damm asshole!!really should have gone to TP instead..but i don have any course i want in TP..but have one in NYP..but it focus more on info-comm...thats why..haiz..maybe is fated...then today went shoppin alone in town..sometimes shoppin alone is nice..although you wont have comments from other ppl but at least u can go where u want..and no need to wait for each other...tml still need to go that bloody sch...haiz..FOUR DAYS of orientation..which sch have such a long idiot orientation..NONE other than the wrong school i have chose!!told u i am losin some frens in my life and i don wish to gain any new frens...really..then my class got 4 or 5 girls..then got this ger with the fierce-lookin face like ah lian like that..haiz..then all like so borin and sian..haiz...i seriously don know how i am gona survive in that sian bloody far sch...ARGH~~~jus cant bare the thought that i am goin sch with strangers,goin to that MRT...somethin life that i wish for when i was in sec 4 but this isnt somethin life i wish for after i completed my sec sch life with a great and happy times...jus cant think that poly life will get any better!! haiz..wonder how other ppl are doin and adaptin...I REALLY MISS MY SEC 5B!!! although there are times we quarrel but it was all forgotten...my class is still the best!!!