memories that i now deemed as good memories

Again, memories could be deleted for a period of time, but places can activate the memories from the trash bin again.

I realized for 3 years, i have stopped going to Bras Basah graphic books store. I went there yesterday in hope to grab some lomo films at cheap price. Little did i know, it activated plenty of my memories. At that instance, there wasn't any anger but a wish that the friend really excel in his passion and be someone successful that will deemed his decision right.

Beside, sincerely hoping he will succeed and be famous, i realized i am filled with envious of him. Being able to go along with his passion, passing all the challenges to make the way there. Being able to read books you are in love with, be in a book store filled by your loves, how amazing and awesome is that.

I could only remembered the friend who is the only supportive one when i said i want to pursue FASHION, i remembered the friend who is the only encouraging one when we both had the same passion once too. And this friend make his words true to make it to study what the friend loves, but i wasn't even doing anything about it. I felt ashamed, but then again it was never too late to realise anything, isn't it?

Because of all the memories that i brought back, i dreamt of this friend. What a joke...

Rach said i was more optimistic comparing to years ago and months ago, however, i felt that i didn't change much still. And, all my guessings were all correct. Is funny when you reach a certain age, and friends and relatives start asking you, when are you getting hitched and related questions like that. But, if you are happy with what you have now, what you are doing now, and knowing how to make yourself happy and knowing what are your future plans, i figured there are nothing much to worry about. Although, there is a saying "Loneliness kills" but if you can turn the loneliness into some constructive, meaningful and happy, then everything is solved. Is just a traditional thinking to get married and settled down, isn't that so? Only settled down if that person is seriously, million times confirmed that he is the right one. As, it will defeated the purposes if you guys go your separate ways down the road.

Somehow, suddenly i feel that although we still shared the same values in life, but there are some thoughts in life, we were different. In her point of view, her stand makes sense however in my point of view, my stand is different.

I wanted to know what changes i had for rach to say i was more optimistic, because it will be a great compliment to me, as i figured my way out. I walked myself out of the dark path to see sunlight. i always thought she was the sunshine, the only one that is able to lead me out of the dark path, but i believe this time maybe i walked it out myself. And that will be satisfying to know and understand.