aha! when i read lesser, i have lesser thoughts, when i sort my thoughts out, i have lesser thoughts, when everything can be explained, the reason for my numerous posts during June. 

Recently, i am in love with tumblr.com. people who shared are simply awesome and i am exposed to more of the outside world. With this feeling, i really want to have a chance to roam around the world. As, you never know when is your last!

a tumblr i spotted. "The biggest regret ever", people from around the world are free to submit their biggest regret and they will help to post. A channel for sharing and learning. A place where it helps to wake people up, to tell the fortunate how fortunate they are and to tell the less fortunate that there are worse out there. So, i wanted to submit the biggest regret ever that happened in my mind, but my mind was blank. How do you define "biggest regret"? I have plenty of regrets in life, but i did not submit any because those are not the biggest regrets in my life yet. Because, somehow i feel that those mistakes or regrets made eventually make me learned something in life. 

regrets:

studying multimedia tech in poly

learned:

set of creative skills and brain

regrets:

accepting my uncle's offer to my first "unrelated" job

gained:

myself with the guidance of wise dictionary

regrets:

studying alternative - "marketing & advertising:

reasons:

no money left me with no choice

regrets:

letting the same person into my life 2 times

learned:

to protect myself 

gained:

i found myself

achievement:

letting the person into my life 2 times go

learned:

promises don't exists, lies are everywhere. friends are your biggest enemy!

Therefore, eventually i did not post regrets that has happened in my life. The only regret i have is " that i do not have the courage to ask her why she stopped teaching me and meeting up?" Because, she was the light in my path, but it blackout out of a sudden, with me trying to figure my way up without knowing what to expect in-front. 

Then i saw another post that i want to show it to someone else. "Pretend i am invisible"

Pretending your invisible.

Friend: “Hey, how are you?”

You: “Who are you talking to?”

Friend: “To you.”

You: “How do you know I am here?”

Friend: “What?”

You: “Please don’t pretend you don’t know I am invisible.”

Friend: “…”

You: “It’s always the same with you, always messing with me.”

Friend: “But…”

You: “No but, I am leaving. I hope you are happy now.”

 I find this rather amusing and is something that has been returning into my life. However, i have decided to put an end to things and hope for the better. Claiming to be the person that really understands me seems like a joke to me now. If that was so, there were so many comments about you which you shouldn't have said. Because, it seems like an act to bring me down.There are so many things that i want to do but feel that time is not enough and i do not have the ability to do so. I am scared that i won't live to see tomorrow as things happen unexpectedly. You can just be walking on the road when a faulty vehicle stormed at your direction, banged into you, and for you, that's the end of YOUR LIFE! A forgotten feeling for a person that i deemed to be 3/4 perfect!