I watched Nick's and Norah's Infinite Playlist movie and dawned upon me that, i have always been the one trying to find the similarities in other people as that of mine so that i can fit into their life, for 3 years i have said that "i have changed" but to realise i did not even change a single bit. I am still pleasing people in my life, because i want them to be my friends i tried to like what they like, because i like someone, i try to share the common interest to have a common topic, i am still who i am 3 years ago. It feels like a huge stone dropped down on my head, it feels like the answer of her departure and finally the answer why i have always been trying to find "her" in everyone. 

She is the one that i need not find any similarities in me to fit into hers because we shared alot of same habits, likings and fashion, she is the one who can be both my friend and a mentor. No wonder, i have been trying to find someone like her because there isn't anyone else like her in my circle of friends. For all my friends, i have to try to be interested in something else so that we won't be bored by silence. 

However, gradually i see a friend that we shared fairly common likings, fashions and insights........Having watching the movie, i gathered more of what i needed to do and stop trying to show interest in what other people like but instead show more interest in what i like and enjoy doing. As, i have discussed with myself before that, there are alot of category of friends around, however sadly to find out that none falls under the category that i wished to keep forever.......