sometimes once will really sink into depression when he/she does not have a channel or place to vent the frustration/anger/unhappiness. It is really unhealthy to just keep everything within yourself. It would be best that you are able to find someone to let it out immediately. 

I choose to face my macbook. It is a different case for me, as i don't think anyone is able to help me or do anything even if i let it all out, so what is the use of saying. Another saying could be, i have yet to find someone that i feel that he/she is like a family to me, it doesn't matter what i do or what i say. I thought i would be fine on my own, but suddenly i have the urge today that i hope she appear before me. This time i couldn't figure out myself, this time i believe i need her point of view. But, yet i know and understand that, i was left alone for a long time already. It just like an abandoned child, nobody will care for, nobody will guide the child along, nobody will tell the child the good and bad, the black and white, the truths and the lies. 

There are many lucky people around me which really make me the least luckiest among all.......... in terms of many many aspects......

我朋友告訴我， 我很會安排我的時間，過的很充實。 可是， 為什麼我終覺得孤單將會變成一種詛咒。。。。。 真的害怕。。。。

Sometimes i really don't understand, how come people could lie in front of camera? I love taking pictures and capturing almost every moments. And no matter whether i am sad, angry, depressed or happy, my pictures always lie and i almost believe myself that for that instance i am a happy person. 

I can't figure why one second i can be very lively, happy and joyful but the next second i can just be depressed, sad and unhappy. Interesting isn't it?

For a reason....