i was staring at the night sky last night, to realise that the sky is so clear that i was able to see blinking stars. Once, i remembered i love watching stars in the sky, which then reminds me of the innocent and navie me few years ago.

I could remember that, it is a happiness to be able to see the blinking stars up in the sky, and i believe in wishing if there is a meteor star. But none of the above can lie to me anymore. If there are wishes in the world, they why do people still have to work hard towards their goals? If there are wishes in the world, everyone could just be happily waiting for their wishes to come true. If there are wishes in the world, i will be someone i want to be and not be who i am now. 

Sometimes i think i don't belong to anyone and not accountable to anyone but myself. how interesting and sad to find this truth and to realize that there is really nothing much left in Singapore. I think i can be independent and just go ahead to realize my dreams since there is nothing much left in Singapore. Why am i still staying around? 

Recently i found myself a new nick " I am like an abandoned child". Finding myself, strolling around the road alone, talking to myself, going around and find someone to depend on that is genuine and sincere, doing any single things myself. And i hope she can appear before me as i have some important questions for her to help me analyse. But this is not going to happen. Sometimes, it gets really tiring depending on myself...... 

I think i am such a failure as i am not capable of judging a person's character and personality. Or probably i have the right judgment but do not dare to accept the fact of his/her character or personality. In actual fact, i have nothing to lose..............you can really tell everything based on your feelings, as it is the most direct emotions and thoughts that will get into your head straight away. So, we can actually tell whether he/she is sincere/helpful/hidden with agenda/true/genuine and alot more...........

In search of something new..........

Why can a picture always hide my saddness and show my happiness when in actual fact i am not even a single bit happy???