sometimes i wish i could just forget all those unhappy memories.....

what a bad week for me! i was reading some passed, and realise it drag on for a year already. a year again. a year for a silly mistake again. a year i thought was a chance. a year to be a fool. alright, guess had enough. i guess is all over.. i might be sad for a period but i believe i will be over it. cos i should be the one controlling my emotional and feelings and not let anyone else have the control right? okay, whatever not in the mood for good sentences.please go away! yes!

puzzled, need not feel puzzled cos i am more puzzled than you are..

for certain things, i am brave enough to fight for it, cos i know i will not lost anything while trying but i will certainly lose something if i don't. however, for other things, i will lost something if i don't try but i guess i will lose more if i try. ha... confusing but i understand what i am trying to tell myself. guess, just let me console myself and let me feel better. cos things were already bad and has become worse.
now, i guess my whole life will be just about myself. and more about myself. others can be so selfish to just think about themselves. why can't i do the same? what do i gain if i care more for others, in the end, i am the one who end up getting hurt... so i should be evil and heartless... how come the more i say, the more serious this matter seems to be... nahz, it just a trivial matter.


kids are so easily amused. and the satisfaction you get from it is so much and so fast and you could just see them immediate reaction to your expression. thats why kids appear to be so navie and harmless. that's the best part of being kids, isn't it? the older you get, the more damn problems you tend to face, to worry and have to challenge for! but that's being life.....

i am looking so far in front hoping life will be better and get away from what's not belong to me.

i will be happier....