recently, i have this "wishlist" and the list keeps going longer....i have plenty of things to get...plenty of stuffs i wish to have although i am poor... let's take a peek at my wishlist....
:- "banana republic bag/wallet"
:- "1st gen black ipod nano"
:- "fisheye camera"
:- "a hongkong getaway"
:- "everlast shoes"
:- "nautica watch"
if the list still goes on...i think i really need to declare bankrupt!! haha...god...how come nothing is cheap in my wishlist? haha...oh ya, did i mention i was into this Sudoku craze...i have this sudoku book with me and i play it in the train which my friend think that i should stop being like one typical working adults that gets bore taking the train!! but it is a very good tool for killing time...and to gain satisfaction... is not that easy to really solve the puzzle...it killed plenty of my brain cells...haha.... anyway, meeting once a week with jiayi is really not enough....why didn't i realise what she is going through? but think that her life now is perfect!!... guess i am not a very good friend still... why are her other frens wary yet i encourage? argh!! but i am really happy that she is my dear good fren...that's the best part about poly life....where we go thru thick and thin....been thru the hell and heaven....and really with no motives for being friends and just wanna be friends....so if people ask me what i gain from poly...that will be friends!! friends and plenty of friends....
alright, today is Happy National Day but i don't feel happy or excited at all...however on the other hand, foreigners get so much more excited than what a singaporean should feel. i was on the lift with 2 ang mohs, and they were like discussing where to catch the fireworks and was so excited about the national day parade. but why i don't feel anything at all? i am just thankful that today is a public holiday and i need not slogged in the office...damn!!
i once love fireworks....like i mentioned so long ago that fireworks is beautiful but could only last for a few moments...that few moments brought alot of happiness and promises and smiles in millions of people's faces. couple may choose this romantic moment to tie their knots, family get around to share the happiness and joyous moment of this short moment.... as,it is rare to see fireworks in singapore, that became what people would wish for. long ago, i already feel that my life is meaningless... but i just realize something. though my life is empty now, but i am feeling empty in search of being filled....i am waiting for what i desire to come true....somehow deep in my heart, i believe that will happen although bad luck is always sticking with me....but if i didn't have bad luck how am i supposed to know i am in luck? make sense? haha... and i can't stand it anymore...please please...i wanna get away...
when love become feelings.....
when yearning become habits....
when letting go is just a click away....
when...........................................................
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