sometimes i wish i can wander around the world.

it has been a week. week by week will passed this way. i will then feel useless week by week, day by day! why did my path turn out to be like this? but i guess, it did widen by circle of friends, help broaden by knowledge. i came to realize something, or is it that i am that easily being influenced. she told me :" to phrase it in a blunt way, i don't thing i need friends, cos friend's presence is just a tool that allow us to make use of" if, you want to describe it in a more crude and blunt and impolite manner, yes, this is what it can be describe as. at the first place, why do we need friends? cos we want their attention, their care and concern and their time. so, by right, is we making use of friends. find them when we encountered problems, hoping they would lend either a helping hand or a pair of listening ear? somehow, someway, i do agree this saying. but to think again one big round. people do need friends. when she was telling me she doesn't have any friends. not even a close ones. i do find it hard to believe. cos, a person bound to have one or two good friends whom they can confide in, they can seek solutions from or just have some gossiping sessions with. how could someone really live without a friend? i am amazed! i do look up to her in someway. she appear to be strong and independent. those kind of modern woman and at the same time stylish! cool!

i am tired...really tired...could i just quit it all, quit it off....i am really unhappy that i am unable to fulfil things that i want to do. i am unhappy that i am not able to do what i really have love for...i am sad that i am stuck...i am fucking angry that i have to go through all this....why can't they just leave me alone...i didn't mean to give them face, talk to them in that manner. but the thoughts of them putting me in this situation really anger me that much till i don know how i should face or talk to them anymore. and i really wanna go away alone... it may be scary.... but i want to try.... was telling le that it may be my one and only time. who knows, i may hate to travel alone again!! haha....i hate the things i am doing right now! seriously hate! fucking hate! bloody hate!!

u guys know somethings, " thoughts are for free!" why do i say this? cos i do not need to pay for what i am thinking. cos i have been thinking alot and alot...and every time after all my thoughts, i tell myself :" alright, this time i am going to do just that! i am going just go it all out!" but i guess when it comes to action, i might be a tortoise and hide back inside the protected shell!! how nice if we have to pay, to think on any single things, then i would consider properly before i really want to think! haha...

why am i a Singaporean? then again, there is it's pros and cons. but how i wish my birth country is Australia or California which i could live my desire live... but things will be different then.... maybe i still don get the fact that my life now is actually not bad....maybe i must lose something to gain another...maybe i must make a mistake to realize my wrongs....maybe i have to take the step to give up the whole flights...maybe i have to be brave to realize i am actually a coward...maybe, ah fuck it, stop maybe-ing...... money won't drop if i continue sitting here, my dreams won't realize if my ass is still stuck on the chair.... things just won't happen if i do nothing.

i am disappointed.... being sad over it.... very disappointed over it...maybe it's just not important at all!! i am just someone to call when free....someone to waste time on when free....ah, anyway, shoot it out and die it....

alright, there's this damn hot damn hot guy that the 3 of us spotted in our building...he is way too hot!! boiling hot at 200 degrees C!! alright, my lovely pictures time!!

love this skirt!!please heal my dark circles!!

i s i t th e w a y th i ng s go i ng to e n d?
w ha t d oes it al l mean?
i a m ti red wor n o ut