sometimes i wish to say goodBye


i have a faulty mouse and a faulty keyboard. they are of no use. so , my brother got a replacement for the mouse while i got for the keyboard. am i that unlucky? the NEW keyboard is faulty too!!! how could it be? damn it!
how fair could the world be? how unfair can the heaven be? nowadays i start to realise something. if you have no one to love you,to care about you then the more you should love yourself. And that's what i am doing now. i am trying to love myself more. the first thing is that, if you don't even love yourself, how could you expect others to love you? so, i am starting to treat myself better, telling myself i am not bad, convincing myself that i can do better, and just keep on moving . cos, you never know the future right in front of you. and is humans' nature to be envy or jealous of others. so, to make yourself feel better, you should tell yourself " maybe i am better than her/him in this way? maybe he/she doesn't have something that i own?" give it a try, you might really feel better or even happier. Don't make yourself sounds pathetic! long time ago, i always made myself look like a sad soul, a pathetic fool, a stupid girl. Now, i am going to be the happy being, the cheerful fool, and the ever-smiling girl! so tune on to see me keep on laughin.

why do people bring emotions on their face even the culprit isn't him/her? i hate it. end up the one being the scapegoat is us. what the fuck! don't vent your frustration on the innocents! come on, older enough to think it through. i am going to label myself as the simple girl but with BIG BIG dreams! sometimes. i just wish my dreams will come true.

recently i saw a show, and the quote : " 沒有期望﹐就不會失望 ! ( don't harbour any hopes, to lessen your disappointment!) pretty true, when you don't hope, you won't feel disappointed. be more realistic. though i hate reality. i really hate reality but i have got no choice but to live with it.so have to face up with the reality. so people face the cruelty the world brings us!

what do you think about white lies? what do you think about lies? will you forgive someone who lie to you for the reason of your's sake? will you forgive someone who lie to you for the reason of protecting you? will you forgive someone who lie to you for the reason of not wanting you to be hurt? i guess i won't forgive. stop finding excuses if you really lie. then what's the importance of truth. would it be worse if i know you are lying. i guess that's worse.

i will be happier when i see small kids, they make me smile and laugh at their silly behaviour, they make me smile and make me want to love them. kids are adorable and cute child. the best time is one's life is when you are a kid. when everybody love you, when you are the center of attraction, when you are the most important person in their life. when you are the queen/king! how nice if i am a kid. kid's clothes are simply interesting, amazing, beautiful, wonderful, pretty. i love KIDS!

alright, i told you guys i am going to love myself more. so, let's see the beautiful me. i'm lovin` myself.

i wanna say goodbye;

i love by the edge;

i t hin k t ha t ' s i t ;
l e t ' s e n d i t ;
i t ' s g e t t i n g w a y t oo s a d;
l e t ' s j us t w a ve g oo d by e;