sometimes i just hate life!

i remain silence doesn't mean i am okie. i kept quiet doesn't mean i consent. i didn't mention anything doesn't mean i settled down. what people said might not be what i feel, they are not me!
making mistakes hardly appear in my dictionary, being like a fool is the last thing that i wanna be, acting like a dumbo has never come across my mind. what's more doing things i don't like.
i am tired, tired of working. sometime, i think what if i am dead. maybe things might be better? cos life is pretty meaningless. but don't worry, i am not going through some depression, in fact i am trying means and ways to make myself happy. you know what, 娛樂百分百 is damn cool, it just make me laugh non-stop at their silly jokes. why can't i just laugh out heartily that might help in de-stressing. for godness sake, i am at home! shouldn't home be a place that i can be free and easy, where more freedom could be found. what's that STUPID restriction for? you came ruling my life telling me what to do? ass off! damn pissed!!


i just kept everything inside, i just haven let out my unhappiness. i just wish to leave here and go to a brand new place and environment. that's why i wish i am rich. maybe, i am older, i think money is important. last time, i think people can live without being rich, but now NO WAY! you can't do without money. like what many thinks Money can buy Power! that's true! with money you can be free to do what you want. in actual fact, i still can't find the purpose of me in this world or should i say this small little red dot country in the map?


people everywhere are so fake, i am not criticsing others, i am one too. you need to be fake when others are un-ture. living in such a fake world is bloody tired!! i hate everything in my life. nothing is right! maybe i just have too much expectations in my life.

why does it have to be this way?





after some thoughts,
maybe it is better like this?


after some serious thinkings,
maybe it should be better left like this?

after certain get along,
maybe it will never improve?

so, let it just be this way!

GRADUATION DAY 2007, 22nd May

it officially marks the end of my poly life!
graduation went on well, though my best frennie went off IMMEDIATELY after the ceremony. i hate her for that, but still love her for the "Trolley" hahaha....this 3 years has indeed been alot of fun, hardships, hatred, lovings, friends and lecturers. this 3 years brought me multiples of friends, memories and time. i can't deny that i love what has happened over the 3 years. i want to express my thanks to everyone who played a part in my poly life. though this departure is not as sad as when i was in Secondary school, but still feel a tinge of sadness.

thank you to the following: -

1 - - Jiayi and Cherene;

2 - - Netball Team;

3 - - Green Gang (Victor, Brandon, Ah hua, Kenny, Small Dan, Yen Wei, Meijie, Lynette)

4 - - My beloved Lecturers that i gave pain and troubles to!

5 - - My Classmates and coursemates ( le, anthony, kenny, heng, gavin, alvin and others )

guess that's all for now. i have some grad pictures to share, enjoy! i love them!! end of poly!

this angle looks fat!

fat!

just FAT!!

okie, this is better! my brother,smart?

my daddy, but where's my mummy?

broddy again!my 6-month ITP mate!!

Thank you, my dear friends!she is always missing!!

i really love her for she is my best buddie!

thanks my family.

thank you!

i love them;

and love more of them!!

sometime, i wish i was pretty!

recently, been doing frequent blogging. maybe i am just too lonely. world is changing every now and then. the globe is moving, so are we. we have to move forward! so, tell me how i can put the burden down and move forward? in actual fact, maybe i wasn't too bother ,thinking that i will be very bothered! maybe i didn't care much, thinking that i will cared alot! maybe i wasn't very upset, thinking that i will be very upset. maybe i was thinking alot, thinking that alot might happen. isn't that so many maybes. am i just consoling myself, deluding myself or didn't wish to make myself sounds pathetic. maybe i should draw back. maybe it should just stay put. or maybe just get away! i love maybe. cos you need not give a definite answer just 'maybe' .

sometimes is funny when a person tells you your weakness yet he/she tried to attack on your weakness. how a weakling can it be?

i lost alot of things. totally lost.

i love customer service. interacting with customer, making them happy, make their day. when i know i make that customer happy, i will be happy as well. it will make my day as well. what's better will be a compliment from the customer itself. it will just acknowledge me that i am good! ha! but it takes alot to give good customer service!!

don't i look damn nerdy?

she is my sunshine, my flower , my best frennie

i suppose to be pointing at singapore! the beautiful city!

this suppose to be a nice pic if not for the blurry!
okie, this is a pretty photo..wahah!

i guess i am speechless;
but hope i am not wrong;
hope i am right bout this;
anything and that's it;
so just hint;

sometimes i just wish that i am rich!


As i get older, gradually i feel that i lost myself. somehow, i can't locate myself. who am i? what kind of person am i ? things just get complicated every time i thought it was alright. why does things happen over and over again? why must the same people be in the same scenario again? i hate it....i have totally lost faith and trust... though i don't understand the whole situation behind everything, but it was enough for me. enough for me to lose everything. when i don't understand the whole thing, i will tend to complex matters. so, sometimes it will be better left unsaid for certain matters. i will wander far far away. and i am tired. extremely tired from all the pretending , all the dreaming just plain tired of it. had enough, and it never really come across my mind that it happens again. how irony. damn it! please just stay away....or even go away.
thank you.


you know, you are able to do alot of things when u are rich. nowadays, i am always thinking what i will do if i am rich. or how my life will changed it i am rich. things won't be like that. maybe there are other cons for being rich, maybe i have to sacrifice other things to be rich. but i am tired living a meaningless life. sounds so depressing right? i'm fine.


sometimes i wish i could just get away from here, from everyone that knows me, from this place. and go to a brand new place, where nobody know who am i, where i could be afresh and starting meeting new people and friends where my life will changed.

does anyone feel like punchin me hard on my face? cos i keep wanting to change my life. cos, indeed i hate my damn life!


enough is enough,
i have never been enough!
so that's enough,
and know to be enough
to stop enough!
please i beg you enough!

finally, after so long of faulty with blogger, i am able to blog at home. it has been long since i write. maybe, busy is all excuses!

i just feel like shouting out, the best thing i love going to work is that i could dress up. not that i dress up that dress up, but being able to wear nice clothes and mix n match them just make me happier going to work.

recently, i am addicted to Shopaholics this series of stories. i mean, she is extremely hilarious, very over, and nothing can be used to describe her! i mean i love her, i wish i could just be like her, working as a personal shopper, having a super hot boyfriend ("which i imagine luke to be one"), and being able to dress up...though there are hiccups along the way, but in the end, she handled it pretty well. you can said that " that is just a storybook, the characters can be all they want, and buy all they love" again, this is different from reality. who could have such a perfect life just what everybody wanted. i wonder.

recently,i get very envy and so envy when i know people studying fashion. i wish i were rich enough. ha! i must be crazy.

sometimes, i think nobody understands me. before i spoke to my cousin regarding the matter, my thoughts of her reaction was that "don't do it!" but i was wrong, vice versa, she asked me "so what you have in mind then? why not just stick to it?" i thought she knows me... but i doubt so. she just don't understand the difficulties. hmm, i guessed I've changed. things are different now.

sometimes i just wish i could be brave enough to fulfill what those phrase always say " do what you love!" "pursue what you want". everything is always easier said than done. that's why i hate the facts and reality.

i don't wish to grow old having more responsibilities to bear. i prefer a less burden life. a more carefree style. again, who wouldn't want what i desire for. only a fool maybe.

everybody has dreams. dreams of their own. big dreams. but how many could really realise their dreams? how many are able to have dreams come true? i hope i am one of them.
there are alot of things that i have placed secondary, cos i realise life is short, you never know when your's is ending. so, people let's live life to its fullest!

you only have once to be you.


when it everything going to end;
when will the truth be out;
or will it ever;
or maybe things are fine like that;
or maybe not;

continued . . . i miss the bubbles tea! yummy;! best friends; and more of best friends true friends! i love swing swing.. she is forever pretty! can't believe we were so near! evidence that i went!! don't i know smug? or maybe even sexy? i love Merry - Go - Round.... okie, a decent picture! and a cute one! and a stylish one! with a friends togetherness.

and more of us! i love her stares! and her cute ponytails. and of cos i love her! cos she is forever beautiful! alright, shall stop praising her... last of all, still US! with our fav. shoes! and our victories!!

honestly, i missed the times in taiwan, partly because of the place, and most importantly the times spent with jiayi and most importantly the carefree feeling i had. it was so relaxing that i wish i have the money to do so forever. eat , drink , play and most importantly Shopping!!! that's all we needed!! it was definitely a good trip!

first and foremost, Happy Labour Day!! but, not happy for me at all, as i am working on a happy labour day? doesn't this sound irony. already said is labour day, so everyone should be NOT WORKING, why service line people are still working? ha! never mind if we are still working, but don't we deserve better treatment? fancy serving you on a labour day? yet, one and more fussy customers turned up! damn it! we should be staying at home and relax yet we get this attitude from customers? sometimes, in my heart, i really am thinking, so what if you are customer? don't use "Customers are always right!" idiotic phase, who the hell are customers always right, they are demanding, irritating, arrogant creatures. not all of course, only a certain portion of people. sometimes,i hate to say this,but is definitely not a good thing for Singaporean. who knows soon, we will be labeled "arrogant,irritating customers!" i have emphasized so many times that , we as workers, as staffs doesn't own customer a living. we are doing our best and doing our job to serve you, making sure you have a good experience yet there are customers making our life difficult. damn!when will they realize that this is a give and take circumstances?

anyway, speaking of customer services, i pretty admired taipei's city. somehow, my whole shopping experience there is pleasant. they are very friendly and very nice. like you asked the price of the clothes, they will tell u nicely, even if u didn't buy in the end, they will still hope that you go back to their store...i mean the whole experience is good. i should say that they have good customer service! something we should learn from them. but utterly disappointed with their terminal 1 airport. argh! it was pretty bad. the whole trip was very relaxing as we didn't have to rush around alot of places, we were able to take our time to visit places in taipei. however, the culture is so different from here and there. they speak very fluent chinese, yet our Chinese is not up to their standard.the amazing thing is that, we didn't even speak anything yet they know we are from Singapore, the beautiful city! pretty amazing... my curiosity lies in what actually gave us away? ha! interesting. their traffic there is pretty bad. very disorganized. however, they really stick to the rule "Please keep to your left" while taking escalator . and they queue to wait for the train. they don't anyhow cut queue. the food there is super yummy!!! the fried chicken!! 200 marks for it! the sweet corn super nice! the fruits there are nice.
hmm, there happens to be a day when the temperature falls straight down to 14 and it went super super cold, the cold winds that blew towards us felt icy. woo! though is cold but it was nice walking out at that weather.
it was a paid-off trip as we experienced and went alot of places and things. although, there are many places that we didn't cover, but the 1 week there was definitely relaxing. help me boost my energy back.

anyway, i have been working non stop since i am back.sometimes i think, why do i actually have to work so hard??


eh, were things there yet?
somehow i don't see clear blue sky.
will i see clear blue sky any sooner?
ha, why is that so?