feeling --> happy right now. just finish listening to a super high song. and i am feeling happy now. Ha! i am a very easy contented person . easy. if u are me, you will know how easily contented i am. ha!

anyway, how long can a relationship last? it can be just as good as asking how long a battery can last? that's my theory. if u bought a good battery, it will last longer of course. if u use lesser, it will last longer of course. if you treat the battery in good condition, it will last longer of course. so how come i compare a relationship with a battery? ha! just feel like it. ha! but i just feel the relationship is just so fragile. it can be broken just like that. doesn't that sounds scary. you won't know why it will end, who knows it is ending when you are still living in a world of your own.
can feelings just fade off like that? how could feelings fade off? i don understand. i am speaking all this from other people experience. i hear them say, then i have my own point of view. ha!

i sent out my christmas cards! yeah! finally, christmas is coming. will i have a happy christmas? i hope so.

how could it be possible that i dreamt of adam brody yesterday! god, i dreamt that i was talking to him. he is just so handsome and hot. ha! i just find it funny that i am dreaming of adam brody. ha!

driving alone at night, things run in and out. but, you just like the feeling of driving alone when cars are lesser, and where the atmosphere is lonely and dull, where no one pay much attention to you, where u can just step on the acceleration.

i am feeling neutral, no feelings. how could i have no feelings.? people taught me to that. what would i get if i treat ppl nicely? i don think they treat me the same. but have i ever think that there might be people would treat me nice, but then i didn't treat them nice back? maybe, this is what call retribution. isn't it?

sometimes, i doubt the word "friend", how do i define friend? i guess everyone has their own definition of friends. i admire those like one whole gang, and are really good friends, always having gathering together. feel very comfortable together. do things together. jot down every memory together. it just enough have one gang of friends like that. it was the "party boys" that inspire me this.
btw, "party boys" is a gang of boys formed by 小猪. you can see that they really treasure their friendship. it is hard to see guys like that. or is it easier to see guys like that? ha!

will everything end when fyp end? i really want fyp to end. i hate fyp. i hate year 3. i hate everything in year 3. year 3 is nothing but nothing. whatever man! just totally hate year 3. year 3 to me is no memory and is nothing. argh! 结束吧 ！


christmas ; jingle jingle bells
love; warmth warmth ring
joy; blah blah laughing


after so long still the same;
it never change;
it never moved;
after so long still there;
it never shattered;
it never healed;
after so long still yet;
never will be wonderful!