my life has been like a drama this week. alot of flashbacks suddenly.
lucky, i have a book that notes down events that i would want to remember. the book that contains everything from year 2002-2005. there are alot of things inside that i wouldn't want to see. as, it contains much countless regrets and wrongdoings. so, i will always try not to flip that particular book. but i don know why, yesterday something just make me flip open the book, and i start reading what i wrote starting of year 2003. there are so many importants things that actually slip off my memory. i took too much energy remembering things that i regret, things that i shouldn't do. but miss out things that was done for me. lucky for this book, that i get to recall things that i forget. i paid too much attention in things i regret, but shifted my attention to things that i should appreciate. actually, there are also alot of things that is sweet to remember. but i don know why my mind just choose to remember those unhappy things. why is my mind such a fool? ha! i am glad, i took some time to actually write things in the book. cos my memory also have limited space, but then my mind can't be control like what a mouse could do. my mind just automatically delete things off from the memory and save other things itself. my mind is not as clever as the computer. as it won't as me again whether i really want to delete it again like what computer always does. [Do you really want to delete this file?] my mind is so stupid that they just dump everything away,unlike the computer you might still be able to retrieve it from the recycle bin. so, my mind is so stupid.

there are actually alot of things i want to know. i want the answer. but some, i might never know.
好朋友 which is sang by 小猪 罗志祥 is very nice. the mv is quite suspending though. but the song is meaningful and nice. recently, i don konw what got into me to keep listening to emotional songs. but then 小猪 罗志祥 - 精舞门 also very nice! recently, i always look forward to 5:00pm daily. as, to watch 小猪和小鬼的百分百！ 他们真的太好笑了！ 非常的历害！ 太棒了! 他们能让我足足笑一整个小时！ 好开心哦！ 小猪跳舞真的很好看。 小鬼十分搞怪又搞笑。 哈！ 哈！ 哈！

am i being too crazy over this kinda of thing. but then whenever i watch 小猪's programme i will laugh like mad. really laugh like hell. he is too entertaining. ha! yeah!

too many things i want to comment and too many things i want write. but then it always went blank when i were to type it down. funny isn't it.
how can a normal guy or girl become a superstar ?
are they fated to be one?
how can a normal person become a famous designer?
did they chose to be one?
how can a normal person become a billionaire?
did they pray to be one?
then i hope i am fated to be one, and choose to be one, and pray to be one. ha! i am too hilarious already.

christmas is coming. i am going to shop for my christmas shopping.
as for mine christmas wish. simple;
i hope for a happy christmas! cos happy is not buyable! so let's be happy!

what should i get for the blur cher? and funny jiayi? ....
what is good for christmas gift?
yes, that's what i thinking about.
a holiday getaway.
how bout sentosa? a 3 bucks ticket for sentosa admission?
haha! worth a try.
or a ferry ticket to pulau ubin?
hmm,(*scratching my head) giving them what i like. so they will remember thats from me. haha.. good idea. don't steal it from me. ha!

am i rattling non-stop again? is my post very long again? aiya, just read my blog when u are just too free...

recently, feel like vomitting blood...just hope fyp will end soon! please please let me pass fyp! please. i pray please.

ever heard of ulcer in your throat? i never hear before yet i am getting one. it is damm painful ! argh! i wanna be sick, but i am sick for 1 day then recover already. that's not fun! ha. crazy.

okie.stop.

time passed, i start asking again;
years went, i didn't open my mouth;
it will be over, when a new shadow appear;
did i hope for it, or i want for it?;
nevermind whatever the reasons;
i hope it will end just right there;