recently there are so many nice chinese songs, all very meaningful... esp this 2 songs, i have got feelings for it...
http://www.haoting.com/htmusic/130742ht.htm --
爱我好吗 (卓文萱)
http://www.haoting.com/htmusic/129888ht.htm -- 我可以 (蔡旻佑)

seriously, try listening to this 2 songs, greatly recommended.


hmm,i was watching back one drama serials, Devil Beside You. without fail that i will always be touched by the show. no matter how many times i watched, i will always be touched by the show, always cry. am i such a fragile person?
recently, alot of people mention to me that i should do things that i want to do, that i think i am right, that i should do things for myself. then one mag's horoscope said the same thing, i should think for myself and make myself happy. sometimes, you have to believe this kind of thing. ha!
so let's think back and stop making myself such a noble person that i always think of myself. do i? maybe one friends or people who are worth me doing then i will do it for them regardless of me feeling unhappy.

so, finally i did one thing for myself, that's to stop netball. hmm, will it really be a good thing? maybe yes, maybe no. i don't know. who knows in the end, i might be the one who regret everything. but again, there's no point me staying.

there are so many things i want to do, i wish to do, i want to say. but then, when will i be able to start everything that i want. now i am sure what i want to study. again and again, i am addicted to really study fashion, excited to really being able to study fashion. but there is still a long way for me to go. real long way. i might not be gifted in this field but at least i am doing something i like. hmm, guess for me doing something i like is prettyy much important.

had so many dreams, countless of dreams. circling around the same bunch of people always appearing in my dream. today might be you, the next day might be her. who knows, but how come people keep appearing in my dream. too funny.

when i am addicted to something, i will be real addicted to something. ha! am i talkin rubbish. yea. maybe. ha!

i love drivin alone at night. i really wanna try driving alone at night one day. drive to woodlands, or AYE(ECP) my favourite expressway. cos i will be listening to my songs, thinking about something nobody to disturb me. can set my mind thinking. of cos i cant wander far away. my mind can be thinking but my eyes on the road. actually i sort of like sending my friends home. maybe is pretty fresh for me. thats why i don mind. who knows if i do it frequently, i will be tired of it? ha! i am a fickle-minded person. i really am!

girl's talk? catching up with the past.... nothing much. what should i do if i really miss you guys? i will be far away from you guys. no longer close. no longer bonded. but i chose this path. i gave up all the 7 years i stayed in this sport. my passion run away because of problems and because of my priority changed. but trust me, you guys will be the true friends i once had in poly! :) good luck in ivp. i will be rooting for you guys! i wont be physically down, cos if i see u guys played i wanna be part of it. but i will definitely be mentally supporting you all! ha! another part of my fickle minded! ha!

how come so many sad things always happen in my life?

the only happy thing? hmm, that's my dear frennie. thank Q!

rattling rubbish--

"did i become a stupid woman again"
"i hope i didnt"
"did it occur that it did"
"no i didnt"
"see, am i not a stupid woman?"
"that can really make me stupid"
"can it?"
"yes, it just did"
"stupid woman"