woo, what a tiring week..may be alittle loss for words. there are so many things i haven do, yet i still have some many things i am worrying about. so many things are on my mind, i have yet to settle one, i have one more problem rise up.

i always yearn to go back to school cos i love school life. however, i am not loving it that much though. too many things for me to handle and do. i really want to break down but i know i cant cos if i do that, means i give up. so i keep tellin myself i must hang in there, cos in the end i wanna be proud of myself. i wanna be proud that i endure this ordeal, i wanna be proud that i done what i thought i can;t, i wanna be proud, jus be proud of myself. so i must hang in there now knowing what the ending will be. just hang in there! this is the period that i might learn alot, learn how to handle difficult clients and members, learn how to handle time, learn how to handle things by myself. be more independent...

i always know that, if i treat people good, the vice versa thing might not happen on me. though i know that people might not treat me good back, i still treat people good, cos i put myself in their shoes, as i won't want to suffer like they do. so, i am just doing myself a favor too. but some might be too overboard for me to even give myself the excuse to be nice.

world is turning every seconds, every minutes, i am getting tired gettin day by day, i am gettin old year by year. but how come i can't change my life?

i don't wanna be a stupid woman, why i say that? ha! don't wanna spell it out....... i will just put some serious thought about it when i am not so busy.


i can't believe that i didn't sleep for one day rushin for my assignment. i am amaze yet i enjoyed the moment. cos it was spent with jiayi and cher..... we had lots and lots of laughters. it was hell fun and tiring though..haha..


"i still wanna know"
"yet it isn't there"
"when will i stop?"
"when this will end?"
"please end here"