once a life of luxury, then it went down to poverty

have been wondering about alot of things. my determination for my passion has returned! ha!
i have been observing people around me, have i ever wonder whether i have been observed ? i pay attention to people's actions, have it ever occur that people pay attention to me? funny is it?

have it ever occur to you that, maybe you actually met your Mr.right somewhere before you both get to know each other? maybe he is on the escalator going down and you going up? or maybe you both just walked passed each other? or maybe you both cabbie side by side? or maybe you both cramped in a crowded lift? has it ever come into your mind that all this things might happen? this thoughts just went through my mind today when i was taking the escalator. interestin theory of mine.

it doesnt matter what i wrote, i just went with my mind and flow.

what would you do, if you saw a expensive pants that you love?
buy it? give it a miss? or invest on something better?

christmas is coming. [green` red` white` ;christmas]
what i want for christmas............
what do i want? i want a happy christmas.
[joy` happiness` laughter ;christmas+new year]
what i want for new year.........
what do i want? i want a brand new fresh year.
[excitment` anxious` future` ;new year]

i want alot of gifts for my christmas.
i want santa to give me joy,happiness and qualifications.
ha! that's sound funny.

or maybe i was never funny. a self illusion that i create for myself
-- to be funny.
ha!


time is late, and i am not falling asleep.
i sleep late yet i got up early.
is there anything wrong?
dreams don want me,
breakfast calling me.
ha! not funny

god, i am crazy.
blabbering rubbish?

"did i ever think that it will end"
"did i ever mention that i want it to end"
"did i ever think about ending it"
"did i ever really wants it to end"
"did everything come to an end"