a life of a celebrity....
they provide us with entertainment which occupied our time when we are bored yet they are the one who suffered from various negative rumors. is this what they have to give to gain?

and from various news and reports which are true which are false? which can we believe? which are just for entertainment and forget?
and why are we in love with idols? because they are good-looking? because of their talents? or because of the character that they act in? for me i guess it half because of the character they act,1/4 because of their talent and the other 1/4 because of their looks. they have become a comparing tool for ideal boyfriend. but for me, that is just day-dreaming. how could it possible to find someone similar? or how could it possible to find person of same character? thats why they are just good enough for day-dreaming.. haha..

is it fate or destiny that i am going through this path? has it already been planned that my life has to be like this? or could i change the way my life is going to be? can i?

i really want to try living in a different country, be it study or working there. maybe then, i will realise how good singapore is. cos u will only know its good when u lose it. i also believe in this.

rececntly i have been doing people watching while i was working, the only thing i pay attention to its their clothes. what they are wearing, what kind of style are they going. i only pay attention to their outfits and how they carry off the clothes. they let the clothes shine on them or let the clothes run them down. that's why clothes are important aren't they? they could help u build ur confidence or they could be the limelight of that evening. that's why dressing and fashion sense is important.

going to face a showdown this coming friday. god, 3 years i haven been meeting my sec school mates, yet this coming friday i am going to do that. how is it possible? i love my sec school times partly because of certain people and the friends i have in school,but actually not the entire batch. there are still so many people that i wouldn't want to meet, there are so many people i would like to avoid. why do i like to avoid people that much? haha.. guess i am crazy.

soon, my life is changing, soon there is no more school life for me, soon i have a change of goal, i am afraid that my determination is not strong enough. please don like my determination run away......