i only want to be with you

I don't know what is that makes me love you so

I only know I never wanna let you go

'Cause you started something, can't you see?

That ever since we met you've ahd a hold on me

It happens to be true I only want to be with you

It doesn't matter where you go or what you do

I wanna spend each moment of the day with you

Look what has happened with just one kiss

I never knew that I could be in love like this

It's crazy but it's true

I only want to be with you

You stopped and smiled at me, asked me if I'd care to dance

I fell into your open arms and I didn't stand a chance

Now listen honey, I just wanna be beside you everywhere

As long as we're together, honey, I don't care '

Cause you started something, can't you see

That ever since we met you've had a hold on me

No matter what you do I only want to be with you

No matter what you do I only want to be with you


''this song has been stuck in my head..i think is really nice....''


i don know whats wrong with me...what have i been thinking and doing...i thought i want to live my life doing what i love and doing what i want?
but how come i thought netball was one of what i love to play...how come now i am in between to stay or to leave...
i am being said that "is not you" i always tell people that "eh...is so not you"... now finaly someone told me that i am not myself? what set me thinking what i want in life? what makes me having so many questions marks in my mind...? what set my mind bursting...this is crazy..and killing .....i hate it...what i don want to go back? or why i want to stay...i jus cant simply find any answer...or maybe i know it deep in my heart..which one stands more? i am given one night to think bout it...but maybe i will never find the answer forever..
maybe they might think this time i go back, i am not serious about it..i thought it clearly...but i was given another one night, so it means that she feels that i am not serious about going back..maybe the setback i suffered is much more.. i put netball on one of the top piority i could give...but now...the rank has dropped...why is that so? F**King bothered by it...
i know where i will stand in the team..i know i am not good enough..but i jus love playin the game..but now..do i enjoyin playin the game..Shit..i don know..F**K is killing me..

how useless could i get...i cant even solve this small little matter...then what can i do?
idiot..i jus need someone to clearly tell me whether i should or i shouldnt..this time i thought of a fren.......

i am just a useless bum...maybe i paid too much attention in what i want to achieve, and whether will training be a waste of time again...cos i wasted too much time on somethin that i didnt really fancy..

if i were to say i want to go back trainin but i could play on the first game...then will people believed i am serious in going back?
if i were to say i want to go back trainin but can only come for trianin on monday...will people believed i am serious in going back?

F**K even i don think i am serious in going back ...

asssss lahz...so whats my conclusion after such a long whinning...

why i think so much? why i look so far...shouldnt i just take a step at a time..and not take ten steps when my feet is not that big enoguh...

i had enough of myself...what is it that i really want..DAMM...F**KING HELL!!