a life that dont belong

have u ever wished for a life that dont belong?
i bet alot does...likes me....
I do it alot....
i know that being born in singapore is somethin i should be glad and should claim myself lucky to be in...a good country..compare to some rather more rundown country...i should be contented instead i keep yearnin for a life that dont exist ever in my life...

i know watchin too much drama will instantly led me into their lives, but how can people lives be jus so perfect...
example for laguna beach series, is a reality show which i should believed it is...the babes and hunk there got their own car, their big fancy house,their jacuzzi,their sunbathin corner..this is jus so perfect for a life that i always wanted..always havin parties and chillin out at some where nice, surfin,cool stuffs....
they might have alot of dramas in their life, but they still live a luxurious life, thats nothin to doubt about..

i always tell myself, i should be counted lucky to have a good family and obviously a good life, but seein what they have is so so envious... i jus love the way they lived their lives....maybe lets do a vice versa thing...

if i were to born at california, i would yearn for myself to be born here? who knows ....people always arent satisfied with what they have...includin me...i seems to be always not satisfied with what i've got...but thats jus the way i am...

always wishin to be someone i am not? god...i had enough...i want to be myself...but am i myself?
good question
i don even have an answer for it...

they life is like the life i wanted....cool parents, fancy clothes, nice tan, cool stuffs...everythin...
but i guess afterall, i could only sit back and envy....u know..is only a show..
thats the way i could console myself...
hahah..right..maybe thats the way it should be...nothin better than this..

alright shall stop here..kinda tired of somethin...