what language am i?

too much spare time to think alot? maybe... sometimes,i think i can be multi-nation speaking alias... i can...
when i watched laguna beach and the o.c, i hope to speak english like them, when i watch hongkong drama series, i hope to speak fluent cantonese like them, when i watch taiwanese idol drama,i hope to speak their style,when i watch japanese drama, i hope i can understand and speak japanese just like that..

so dont u all think i can be a translator of all this countries...it seems cool...but what do i really want to speak eventually? haha..tryin to slang my english? No way...
tryin to touch up my cantonese? way behind it....
tryin to catch up japanese? it is running too fast...
i am mastering none of it...

i listen to chinese,english,cantonese and japanese songs...not sure what kind of person i am? still like a girl when i should be a young lady...cant stand myself..
like i am still goin crazy over idols..like F4....they jus had a concert at hongkong..and they look more man and handsome now..wow..i was so excited seein their news...the charm is still there...

does it give ppl a impression of chasing chinese idols is like low class..but if u go after english idols/singers are high class?? anyone feel this way? or is it only me? funny huh...

not sure why...was listenin to deep and meaningless, came upon this sentence, " i was too blind to see" ...
ya...i was too blind once....what a mistake..i came upon this phrase..but forget when i saw..about a relationship...

ppl in a relationship vexed over it, ppl not in a relationship also vexed over it...why LOVE make people vexed and troubled?? irritatin...

dramas, i believed sometimes our life are jus like dramas...jus like show being right in front of you, u are the one experiencing and goin thru it,

some thing u cant avoid and cant get rid of, are memories...they stayed intact in your mind not unless u get memory loss...be it happy or uunhappy...they will be in your mind..it's so difficult to erase bits and pieces of it...so let future memories overlap the past memories when time pass...


am i crappin? maybe...
guess i am too free to blog rubbish here...