facing reality

a story of human........
what's the point of view of ladies?
what's the point of view of men?
why do people quarrel?
bcos they share different point of view..
ladies have their own mind of thinkings..
men have their own ego...
men and ladies are different...
men always claim that ladies are difficult to understand...
likewise for ladies, men are difficult to understand...or should i say they are worse?
men always complain ladies to be very emotional...
likewise for ladies, men are insensitive.. or should i say emotionless?
men always nagged when ladies do their splendid shopping..
likewise for ladies, they grumble when men waste their money on wine..or should i say be a drunken bum..
so, with all the misunnderstanding,complains,grumbles,naggin....when will men and ladies starts to understand, compromise each other?
or will this time come?
men this century is full of ego, ladies this time is full of confidence...what will happen when stone hits stone? clashes will be forseen...
ladies claim to be the modern century living creature to be striving hard for a living unlike ladies in the past...
men claim that ladies are taking over the world when in the past they dominate the world..
world takes a change...
but in the end, in every ladie's heart, they yearn for one thing.. is for happiness.. they yearn forr this time to come..the time when they are cared,pamper,loved... but should ladies be jus waiting for this moment....
while ladies searchin for their happiness, men strive hard to make out..
make out? men only have one dream..to be successful in life...
WAIT ...HOLD ON....
without the support from the ladies, will the men succeed??
without the love from the men, will the ladies find thier happiness?
No, all this wont happen..this is when men and ladies compromise each other..care for each other...prayed for each other..think of each other...this is when everythin come to place..this is when somethin called love take place!!!

wooo...i am still alive...amazing..hahaha..cos i didnt slept at all last night...cos i was rushin my assignment..was amazed that actually i could stayed up till so late to rush off my assignment..cos if i cannot take it i will jus doze off...but finally my assignment is handed up on time..heheh..alright...hope my design arent as bad....

everytime i will know what i wanna blog and wanna say..but when the moment i wanna write it down things became different..anyway, since when things always remain the same? things are always complicated and confusing...certain things are straightforward but not all are....nothin to do before i blog..so i went to browse throught the photos that i took...the most memorable pictures arent the hongkong pics anymore....they are the pictures i took with meijie,yenwei,nette,victor,brandon,small dan,kenny,ah hua and ben...these are the pictures that make me smile even when i see them now..there are retarded pictures, happy pictures, drunk pictures,birthday cakes pictures....from the pictures, it tells alot of things...it showed me what we have really been through and how happy and fun we were last time...i always say is so sad and depressing that it turn out like that...but maybe other think otherwise...i thought i am the most emotional person insidee this group...we forsee this but no actions were done...we haven even reach a year of friendship...arent we that weak?? hahhahhaha.....and i find out somethin about myself..i always know how to talk but no actions...talk big right...hahha..whatever...
now..whereever i go...i would try my best to find a accompanion cos i don like the feeling of being alone...i will tend to start thinkin and thinkin and thinkin non-stop...seriously, i am startin to wonder whether is it bcos i think too much of uneccessary stuffs that why i have short term memory now...i couldnt even remember what i did an hour ago or what i said a few minutes ago...i arent sure why i am back to thinkin so much again..maybe i am lost in my own world again...cos i was surrounded my fun last time...but now...loneliness...hahah...how come i make myself sound so pathetic...poor me...

anyway,recently keep bumpin into sheena and ruzaini...and they also came down to look for me...hmm..its funny how we were so close last time and the feelin now...but i do miss havin fun with them...and have been chattin with ahmad online...still as crappy as ever...talk rubbish...hahha...and i still miss myh sec sch life..with all the people i know ...the people i spent 5 years with..but now..i hardly even contact with anyone..no one in my class...hahha...sound so sad...

who ?? is to judge for me?to judge my life? judge the things i have done? judge my feelings for anyone? judge my judgement for someone? judge my sense of thinkin? who?

---Tired out----

wooo...have been tired since last friday...seriously tired...maybe i tired myself out..but ....anyway....i have started workin on friday...and sat and sun..and mon....hahhahhaa....sat and sun was a roadshow at orchard there....some safra thingy..eh...is sort of waste time cos got no participant....ahahaha..so slack..doin nothin there except keep sweatin..hahahha...then see alot of muscular guys...and is fuunnny...first time i see guys cheerin for guys...i find it funny..cos they take photos and cheer....hahhah..is finny...

hmmm..guess my moody self is comin back...no idea why..but jus feel moody....also want to be happy...guess i could only smile with jioayi and cher they all....hahahahahahaha.....yupz...only they can make me laugh..heheh....i jus wish for my own self to come back alive..i seems so dead now...i know many things are runnin in my mind...many many things...but sometimes i wish i wont think about it so much...is it bcos of guilty? or? but anyway it still sucks though....i don like it...i have no idea what i am goin to do but jus hope it goes away soon....

and recently i was deletin msgs from my phone cos too many msgs ready..then i came upon all victor's,brandon's,nette's messages...hmmm....we were so close last time..but things jus take a turn the other way round this time...the THEM i used to know arent them anymore...maybe it is...deep inside.....but it isnt on the outside...maybe me too...to them i might have also lost my old self...why....fuunny..i don kow...hahah..haiz....alot of things will come pilin up soon....but i wanna rest and take a breathe....i am tired and worn out......

memories...

wooo...back from a shag and long days...
have been wantin to write about memories that suddenly came flashin back...suddenly i thought bout my childhood memories when i was in primary school, how i always walk to sch with my mum and brother...esp when durin rainin days..i have to wear plastic with the shoes to prevent my shoes from gettin wet..then i get to wear raincoat...then slowly i go sch by meyself...then on every weekends, i will take bus 18 to bedok to my grandma place...then at my grandma place i will play alot of things with my cousin and brother...that day we were talkin about what we usually play when we were there...then i remember we always use the bed to build tents and house then use blanket to cover the entrance to act as the door..then we will eat biscuits and chit chat inside..hahaha..i miss those build house...hehehe..then when i reach sec sch...it was also walkin distance from my home...which was a good thin i realise now cos can sleep late..haha..then i always walk to sch...now i still miss my sec sch life when u get the most fun of it...i miss those celebrations days..Chinese New Year, Hari Raya, National day...cos we get to sing all the songs and the atmosphere is there...is like if u never feel the atmopsphere out there at least u have the celebrations in sch..wont let u feel that it isnt chinese new year or whatever celebrations day..i miss all those days when i will get high singin the song...then everyone will be happy and smilin and laughin...

seriously that day we went to watch the parade adn fireworks at marina...hmmm...i was alittle disappointed though...don know why...maybe i am the one keepin quiet? maybe i am the one who doesnt wish tgo talk...but i don know..all the funn and the people i used to know isnt the same...last time victor and brandon wont talk nonsense...i seriously don know..or isnt i, the one who changed? everyone is jus so different..suddenly i feel so distant from them...i know i haven been hangin out with them..but why things turned out so bad...??? or i think troo much?? hahha..btu anyway...the fireworks make it all worthwhile..gosh..it was totally awesome..beautiful...nice...and super exciting...so nice...but it jus lasted for moements and its gone...so sad huh...it let me realise that beautiful moments dont last.....i still wanna see fireworks!! hehee...

happy national day to singapore....

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY TO SINGAPORE!!
my beloved country!! hehehe...

eh..forgot what i wanted to write...hmm..let me think about it..actually nothin much to wriet..
but i have been always screwing up my own life..
haven had a proper life..rushin here and there...never had time to take a breathe and rest...never had time to meet up my frens..things jus haven been goin right..but it is definitely better than last year..things are so much better for me..i mean as in mood wise..i arent that moody anymore but sometimes i stiill tend to ...come on..who doesnt?
hahha....

who could understand the life each dreams to live?
each have different dreams bout livin their life...they want luxury, want comfort, want love... but do they give out theirs? some are selfish only takin in but never give out... maybe they are afraid to be hurt..who doesnt? the remedy to cure is time...and slowly u will be enlightened by passer-bys in your life..each will leave some trademarks in your life allowin you to regret and make sure u have a better life next time.. you will tends to realise u negelected some people in your life..but thats life and human..nothin is perfect..you can have everythin goin yoiur way..nothin is perfect...u tends to negelcts frens who help u...but if u still cares for them..and you know it ...thats should be enough...but does it even come across who will bother about you? when you yourself never even bother about urself? am i those please people but with a ruthless hidden self? am i a deeply emotional person? someone who gives out unconditional love? thats what the book says....


interestin life..unpredicatable life...suddedn departure...

oh yeah...haiz..sian...sian..totally sian...my exams all gonna FLUNG!!! FLUNG!!! BIG FLUNG!!! don wanna talk bout it..shut up!! before test..tons and tons of projects...after tests still tons and tons of project..what is this!!! surrounded by projects..argh!! argh!!! sians....haiz..year 2 is year 2...different sia...haiz..but then i also don know ....feel very sian..wanted to blog..cos that day i saw ruzaini and sheena..if also not really saw..is they came to starbucks...look for me?? hahhahha....but it was nice seeing them together again..is was nice seein them..but was pretty busy didnt get a chanve to really talk..hmmm...but then there is a stranger gap in between us...hmm..things are different now...it doesnt seems that we are that close anymore..only now then i realise that we were close once...hahhahha....but it was really nice seein them...miss my sec sch lahz..haha...wahz..the holidays week was totally struggling...i was struggling with my video projects...group projects are jus different....so many different points and views and arguements we could get somtiems...but still we are good people to waork with...now i realise my circle of friends are only jiayi and cher ...and the 4 guys...thats all...don know..feels lost of friends..maybe i am too busy with my own stuffs..be it work, sch or self time..this semster seems like not enough time...i don have any day that i could sleep more than 6 hours..now i barely only had 6 or less hours of sleep...cannot take it anymore...and maybee it is true that my cousin told me that if ppl doesnt have good sleep will have bigger apetitte...i agree..suddenly i want to eat alot of things...and my mouth gets itchy fast..NO!! NO!!..don wanna this to happen..hahahaha....

test is always stressful...argh.....i thought alot...maybe .................................