wooo...i am still alive...amazing..hahaha..cos i didnt slept at all last night...cos i was rushin my assignment..was amazed that actually i could stayed up till so late to rush off my assignment..cos if i cannot take it i will jus doze off...but finally my assignment is handed up on time..heheh..alright...hope my design arent as bad....

everytime i will know what i wanna blog and wanna say..but when the moment i wanna write it down things became different..anyway, since when things always remain the same? things are always complicated and confusing...certain things are straightforward but not all are....nothin to do before i blog..so i went to browse throught the photos that i took...the most memorable pictures arent the hongkong pics anymore....they are the pictures i took with meijie,yenwei,nette,victor,brandon,small dan,kenny,ah hua and ben...these are the pictures that make me smile even when i see them now..there are retarded pictures, happy pictures, drunk pictures,birthday cakes pictures....from the pictures, it tells alot of things...it showed me what we have really been through and how happy and fun we were last time...i always say is so sad and depressing that it turn out like that...but maybe other think otherwise...i thought i am the most emotional person insidee this group...we forsee this but no actions were done...we haven even reach a year of friendship...arent we that weak?? hahhahhaha.....and i find out somethin about myself..i always know how to talk but no actions...talk big right...hahha..whatever...
now..whereever i go...i would try my best to find a accompanion cos i don like the feeling of being alone...i will tend to start thinkin and thinkin and thinkin non-stop...seriously, i am startin to wonder whether is it bcos i think too much of uneccessary stuffs that why i have short term memory now...i couldnt even remember what i did an hour ago or what i said a few minutes ago...i arent sure why i am back to thinkin so much again..maybe i am lost in my own world again...cos i was surrounded my fun last time...but now...loneliness...hahah...how come i make myself sound so pathetic...poor me...

anyway,recently keep bumpin into sheena and ruzaini...and they also came down to look for me...hmm..its funny how we were so close last time and the feelin now...but i do miss havin fun with them...and have been chattin with ahmad online...still as crappy as ever...talk rubbish...hahha...and i still miss myh sec sch life..with all the people i know ...the people i spent 5 years with..but now..i hardly even contact with anyone..no one in my class...hahha...sound so sad...

who ?? is to judge for me?to judge my life? judge the things i have done? judge my feelings for anyone? judge my judgement for someone? judge my sense of thinkin? who?