woo..realised i never blog as often as i used to last time..i remember i used to blog everyday...but now..i wonder why i didnt...
ppl changes as time goes by..now i understand..been feelin down..sometimes i really wonder how will things turn out to be if things never happen the way...i really didnt realise alot of things in the past...only until now then i realise...realise how important those things were..how much feelings it showed..how much time and effort paid...but to me, it was nothin in the past...sometimes TIME is a very crucial Key...time control everything..control what happen at this moment..control everythin..so i let time pass me by...i let time control me...isnt it suppose to be me the one controllin the time..and tellin it "Hey,i should be doin this now...and this later!!" but i arent that smart enough to do jus that...

read a post posted by kenny in friendster, it says about how certain things stands in ur heart...how important certain things should be..and which should be placeed first and secondary....i think is logical..the story goes like this..
"this professor brought an empty jar, put golf balls inside and ask his students whether the jar is full, the students all repiled YES! then the professor started puttin small pebbles inside...the pebbles all slide in between the spaces of the golf ball, then again the professor asked the students whether the jar is full, the student then again replied YES, then the professor pour sand into the jar..and the sand filled up the empty small spaces and air, then again the professor asked the students whether the jar is empty, then again the students replied YES.... this time the professor pour in two cuups of coffee, and coffee filled up the whole jar.. So the professor asked the students whether the jar is full.. tehn again the student repiled YES!!
the morale of this story is, the GOLF BALL refers to the most important things in our life...ur family friends,love ones, god and things that should be placed FIRST in your heart, the pebbles are secondary, like job,work,money,luxury, and other things,sand are those that stand little in your heart and have very little contribution to your life... so what is cofffee? coffee means that at least in our hectic and busy life we could sit down and enjoy a cup or two nice coffee...isnt that what life supposed to be... true enough..i should learn to placed my piorities correctly..and must treasure what i have now...
life is always filled with ups and downs...i never know what the next moment will happen next..never willknow what will happen to me..never know how long more i could live..never know what my future is..never will know alot alot alot of things...i always ahve to fall down before i could stand up bravely..but when is the time that i could juc stand up bravely without havin to fall down? this i will ahve to find the answer...
and i hate regret..but i always do things that i regret in the end... and now i am slowly thinkin that why should i care so much about how ppl think about me...the most important thing is how i see myself...if i see myself as someone who is good and nicec and kind..then i have nothin wrong...nothin to doubt about...and the secondary important thing is how my loved one see me as? if they think bad about me..then are they still my loved ones? nope i don think so...

haiz..talk to much bout life agtain..arent i naggin? and ya..havent been meetin up with the 4 guys sincee i start flyin..partly i have been up with my stuffs..wonder what they are up to as well?? heheh :)