caramel is so unusual..bloggin in the mornin..cos she is awake early in the mornin..the funny thing is...when she is allowed to sleep in till very late...she wont...she will get up automatically..but when she isnt allowed to sleep in..she will dragged herslef out of bed...hahhah..she is so stupid..hahha...oh yeah..caramel had a pretty nice week...okie lahz..is very nice..but still alright...actually on wed night she had a terrible nightmare...some nightmare that she somehow doesnt wish to happen...the nightmare isnt those what erm...ghost those kind..but is something that she dreamt abuot that she thouogh is scary..really..she really doesnt wish for that to happen..things always get so complicated when the truth is out...she feels bad bout somethin..maybe she sholdnt tell anyone about it...but anyway is somehow this endin she wanted...jus that the method used isnt really that good....and the decision made by caramel somehow she succeed alittle...somehow she never really bother alot...somehow she isnt really excited...somehow she is alright with it..somehow she can be natural...somehow yeah..she did it....
there are alot of things in her mind she wants to say...about friends..about love..about sch work..about things that are happenin around every of us....like friends...friends do come and go....some are those u really want them to be happy...and would do anythin for them...those are ur best friends...you wouldnt want them to be sad..to be down...to be lost...u will be happy seein them happy...u will help them no matter what...this are ur best friends...but for me..i feel that best frens doesnt stay long..i got no ideea why...but for me...there isnt any best fren that stayed long in my life...or should i say i don even have a best fren till now....last time...i don really have a best fren...now..ya i do...i got quite a sum of best frens...sometimes i envy those frens that really don mind accompanyin...and already feel comfortable with each other...anythin under the sunn also can say...also can do togehter...i think that is totally awesome...i hope my best frens this time will stay....
talkin about love...Love is like caramel....taste so sweet and cant stop eatin it once u started....but once i thought love was sweet,lovin,happiness and accompanion..and things that are good...but as i grow older...and i realise alot of things..i realise love isnt as easy as i thought..love do not always have happy things happenin...love isnt as smooth and easy as i thought...it have many hard times...many things to go thru...i mean love have its pro and cons...but somehow i keep seein the cons...WHERE HAVE ALL THE PROS gone? hahhaha...but although love might be torturin..love might be sufferein...ppl are always still searchin for love dont they? they know it might be those tough times and might end up sufferein...they still WANT LOVE...LOVE IS POWERFUL ya? hahhaha....thats love...love is amazin...but it can also be a misery...lets hope all ppl who are in love be happy...and those who are out of love be in love soon..hahahhahah...
things that happen around us..jus like the tusnami...is saddin...incidednt jus happen like that..last year we got SARS,BALI BOMB,Nicoll highway collaspe,so many things that stuck us....we were sad,heartache...but we still welcome 2005...but who would have expect the tusnami? it jus happen so suddenly...it strike while ppl arent alert..it strike while ppl are enjoyin their holidays...it strike cruelessly...serious speakin...i cant imgaine if it will to strike SINGAPORE..i am serious...who would have expect that..i can imgaine my life ended if it struck singapore..i still got alot of things i haven learn..and haven do...and haven say...i really cant imgaine..i give my heart out to those victims that are affected by the tusnami...really...haiz...natural disaster...who would have expected that? nobody...........

wow..i blogged alot today..am i talkin all the rubbish ...haaaah...on thur they had the FO camp meetin..hahhahaha...the CHAIRPERSON is.....AH HUA..hahha..u go yonghua!!! hahhaa..then nette was the game sub comm...wei..as expected is the F&B comm.."WEI i want to eat long john" hahhaahah...then poor daniel is the game ic..he have to plan the whole thing...the games..everythin..so poor thing...haiyo...then i hope the rest of us will be GL...yar..then yesterday we had the runnnin...okie..it was still alright..my leg never realyl gave any problem..BCOS i applied alot of YOKO YOKO..haha..damm hot man..its burnin..hahhahha...then after that went P.S....we went gelare...Thanks brother..he treated me AGAIN!! next time shall be my time..but omg..their waffle ice cream dam nice!!really damm nice!!!but don have my caramel ice cream..if not yesterday i will be happier..hahhahaha....i loove caramel..caramel make me happy!!!hahahha...yeah yeah..then today i never work..only work on sun..so funny..then ya..i ate alot yesterday...really alot...gosh...hahhahah....

turnin back to myself...
but still feel alittle lost somewhere...
no idea what it is...
wantin to find out the reason...
but where should i start?
no idea...
maybe i should jus leave it and move on with life...
maybe findin out the reason
might in turn lead me to more misery..
i am fine now..
and will be better later...
so i will continue livin my life with happiness.....

refreshin...awake...Chunpei--signin off---