i always associate life with many things that happen in our daily life. Just like driving.

sometimes, you intersects people's path, sometimes others intersect in your path. life is never a smooth riding journey. is all about how you want to make the journey smooth or easier. you can choose an expressway that is free from red lights, or a shorter way but you have alot of red lights in your life. Life is never easy.

this theory has always been set in my mind, " the more you don't want it to happen, the more it will happen, but the more you want it to happen, the more it won't happen ". i believe this occurs on alot of you before. but sometimes, you can stop things from happening, but sometimes, is just difficult for you to stop things from happening. opportunities don't come always. it might come once and go forever, or it might never come. so, i really didn't want the opportunities to go away and regret in my life. i said before i don't want to do things that i will regret in life. although, constantly it has been happening in my life everyday. but there are some things i can do to not regret in life. so, forgive me from pulling out and go for my opportunities. i might not have a good time with the new opportunities but i know i must try it. i can only say i am truly grateful for your opportunity. i don't know how to repay just truly grateful to you all. pardon me for leaving though i know i have received alot of care from you all. sorry for not being able to fight on the same line. but i know i need this opportunities to venture out and no be kept in a protected shell. everyone thinks i don know how to handle situation, everyone thinks that i am not able to handle situations. but sometimes, is just difficult to lie to someone i think is a good person.

now i have a question. define "lying". some said, if i am lying for a good cause, then i am doing a good deed. but still, is a lie. lying is never for a good deed unless you really have to do it otherwise. though my lies might not have impact on others, might not affect them somehow, but it is still a lie. a lie will always be a lie. there is no white lies, good lies and bad lies. they are still all lies. it wont have impact on them, but it does have an impact on me. an impact on me that " I LIED" that is terrible enough for me.

if you want there to be your friend, you have to trust and respect them for them to trust and respect you. i am trying to trust and respect my friend, but i still can't figure out. too confuse. but every post without fail, i will mention *swinging sixties*. *swinging sixties* is always there to enlighten me. and i am so glad that *swinging sixties* swing by to tell me a lot of stuffs. and i hope to swing by others path to tell them. although it might be a minor stuffs only. this is " Pay it forward". i guess i am lucky in some way. i believe i might still be the old me if *swinging sixties* didn't swing by. and sometimes i wonder, if i will always be the old me if things didn't happen. i believe i will still be.......

Ms Lam, a special person that i befriended. nothing like my usual friends. she is abnormal. haha! but i guess she appear before me for a reason. cos we guided each other in the path and help each other in the path. though i might be able to help her in another path, but i hope i can help her in other paths. :)

[ there's always a price to pay for taking the shortcut ]