look on the brighter side.

in everyday's life, we are always making decision, be it a small or big decision, they are still decisions for us to make. and we do not know, if it might or might not affect us in the future. But i do realise now that i have to make every decision wisely and think of the long terms conditions. Nothing will go our way smoothly and there is nothing like lucky in life for me. i have already learnt that we have to lose something to gain something, but seriously sometimes, i can't see what i gain. Heaven is famous for being unfair, but in fact he is doing us a good deed by playing the bad guy. He makes us learn in life and teaches us how to make the right decision. Decision be it tough or easy are still decision we have to make in life. There's no easy way out on this so we gona learn the hard way. And the worst thing is that we don't know what this decision will lead us to, we can't predict what will happen after making the decision. Decision making is thus a lesson to learn in life.

With all the things happening around, it allow me to see so much. how selfish people can be, how mean they can be, how emotionless they can be and totally how disgusted human nature is. Then it dawned upon me that, being the kindest person is the toughest to be. Is tough to be 100% pure kindness in human, there bound to be that 20% of evilness in everyone. I want to be the nicest person but i realise that is tough. people are just pushing me to have those evil thoughts and negative comments about them. this i can't help it, but i will try to curb it.

Recently, i am really seeing some "Dark Knight" in me. Define "friends". for me, definition = tools . simple as that. Define " true friends". for me, definition = bullshit. simple as that. Define " best friends". for me, definition = a joke. simple as that. i am beginning to see more and beginning to realise that, she is absolutely right. "friends" don't exist, for my case. requirements to meet my label as friend, that is the freaking toughest thing to meet! is actually that simple, a word --> "heart"

no heart no talk. people around me are just there to constantly reminding me not to be one of them and i have to bear that in mind and always remind myself.

i am not worthy to be anyone's friend and neither can anyone be mine. *wink*