i have changed my blogskin. i didnt go for design theme so much, i just input all my favourite outfits by Chloe as my blogskin. and by the side, i input all my close friends and close cousin. there are some friends which i didnt put cos I HAVEN GET OUR LATEST PICTURES!! haha...

anyway, i was too free, so i was friendster-ing again. and i came upon one old fren which i forgot to wish her 21st birthday. i did remind myself that on that day i am going to write her a testimonial as she was not in town. i keep on reminding myself. but on the day itself, it slipped upon my mind and i forgot about it. it was like on the 3rd march then i realise bout it. i was utterly ashamed by it. cos all long, they have been treating me as close friends, but i was the one who back out. i'm sorry. then i came upon her testi for another fren. i was amazed by myself that i am worse than that lady. i didnt even remember her birthday yet, the other lady remembered. i was disappointed with myself. but what can i do? what passed has passed.

suddenly, i realise i am left with no close girl friends by my side. am i too occupied with myself? hmm, i made some friends here, i made some friends there. but who is true and who is fake? this world is too deceiving. i always believe if i treat this person nice, i will get the same treatment back. however, i am too navie to have this thinkings, cos i once said that world is unfair. why would people treat u nicely even if u treat them the same. i think iam still living in a very protected world. a world protected by my parents, by my friends. i have yet to step into the real world where more fearful things will happen. why is it so difficult to study something i like? why is it hard to pursue a dream that i keep holding? why must i hold a high salary job? why must living be so difficult? if living is so difficult then why are we in this world? if it was set to be difficult, why is dreams created? how do i make everything easier and simpler? ha! contradicting. funny logic.

some try to act as close friends when actually parted for long,
some try to act cool when actually were close friends.
so, what's the definition of friends?
why do everybody says that, guys and girls can't be pure friends?
hmm, actually i do agree that guys and girls can't be pure friends.. but then i do have guys friends and really are just friends. fuunny huhh, i believe in guys and girls can't be just friends, but i do have just friends guy's friends.
hey, how come i keep repeating what i am saying.
i must have gone crazy.


hey, we are climbing from level 1.
eh, no i think we are climbing down from level 10.
oi, so which level are we now?
i don't know which level we are heading to?
what now? how do i know where we are heading to?