back to reality, i have to facee alot of issues and problems that i left behind for hongkong..
too much problems and futures i have to settle and decide, where i want to go, what i love, what i like, what i really want. in fact i have been avoiding all this issues and matters, i seriously don want to think about it. in the end, i will not reach an answer, cos i know myself too well. even if i made a decision, who knows down the road, my determination isn't strong enough to withstand it? what will happen? how nice if everything could be settle for me, how nice if all the good things can happen to me, how nice if i could just do what i want with no worries, i would be a free person, living a free live, but then again, do i want this kind of life? ha! i know i have been blabbering and rattling on this topic for like months, but then this is something important isn't it?

i love hongkong alot, their lives, their language, but then will i be comfortable living there. again, adapt is the word to use here, we have to adapt to everything. To get use to something, we have to adapt. i am lost once again. freaking hell. don like. i am depressed. i always wonder, people always don tend to realise they got depression until something serious happen. so i always think, what if i actually got depression but i don know, isn't it scary? don even dare to think about it.

anyway, this trip brought my friends closer together, and i am happy about it. we shared alot of things, maybe my mood during the trip wasn't that pleasant, but i really had fun. regarding my mood, i also don know whats gotten into me. i apologise for that. but maybe i am too familiarise with hongkong, i don feel that i am having holiday at all. cos i know hongkong, i been there twice, and i like hongkong, maybe thats the reason why i don't feel that i am actually having holiday, it doesn't seem like a holiday. it just seems like a shopping spere! we walked and walked non-stop, we had some misinterpretation of the people.
during the trip, i get to walk alone myself while they are doing their hair, i should have adventure out more. i regret i didn't. but anyway, it was really a good and fun trip. i really love my friends..dears!! please lets do another trip together!! yeah!!

holiday is the time where we just slack and think about our future, i hate it!
and i even hate doing FYP when we are back in school! Sucks!!