i realise that this world is really very big, though singapore is a good country, but is also a small country. unlike other country. i watch "Destination Week" and it showed alot of different countries and their culture. definitely, it made me realise that this world is really big. there are so many places i haven or will never have a chance to go to. like spain,germany,england,new york,greece. this places are very interesting places. i wonder what if i were there, what would i feel? a sense of dis-belonging. but of cos i want to go around the world and see.

there are common places that we heard before. like japan,korea,new york, australia, canada, switzerland. but out there there are still alot of other countries we hardly even hear about them. i really would want a chance to travel around the world. looking at different countires and their culture. every part of the world is different. they have different living style and definitely differnet culture. i really love to being like that..able to go around the world and have a good look.

maybe i can be a friend only..training was bad for me as usual yesterday.. i can put in a lot of effort during training. but it seems like when it comes to game, i felt at loss. i don know what i should do or where i should run.. i lose my sense of game... thats bad....


i have been having alot of dreams recently.. similar dreama.. same people..different storyline.. is so scary.. same people keep appearing back in my dream...
so what is dream? people always say that because u think alot thats what u dream bout this, u dream bout that.. is this true? how can dream will appear? what makes dream? isnt it interesting to find out..
great, i think i am crazy....

i know i shouldnt..but was forced to.. and yet have to suffered myself...................
am i thinking too much?



5 more weeks - 23 more days to end my morning suffering!!!!! god!!