actually i have alot to say but i kept everything waiting for a time for me to write it down, but eventually everything slipped off my mind. anyway, recently i realized i have short term memory.

i feel that i lose the sense of liking..liking..many way to explain liking.. liking towards a person, liking towards an animal or even liking towards certain things...
but somehow i feel that i lose the sense of liking towards people...i dont mean people in general. those crushed likes... somehow i forget those kind of feeling..what kind of feeling should i have if i met someone i like? what kind is the feeling that i should feel if i found out i like someone... suddenly, i forget all this feeling.. i forget how i should feel, or how i felt in the past.. i lost all this feelings... is it because i gave up? or is it because i am just being sensitive? haha..
who can tell me how is it to feel if u like someone? cos i totally lost the feeling....

i only know that my feeling is towards dramas..god..who am i man? i should have married to drama...sometime being an artise, there is good and bad.. in my way of defining them is that, they lost their freedom, their every move is being watched, is difficult to find someone who really love them for who they are.. some might be lucky,but not all..but in return they gained something, besides the fame and wealth, i bet they are enjoyin what they are doing, and they got themseleves alot of friends. they might lost the freedom to love in reality, but they still can chose to love in a drama. they are constanly having different love stories in every drama, but best is the other half is always different. so in a way to them, maybe they did have alot of relationship.. different kind, some gave them best, some being loved... so they tasted all different kind of relationship. and who knows, they might have being great couples in real life..


california¬ it all started with me sayin california, and we had alot of fun in the car. ya, didnt know that AYE -> ECP that expressway is so beautiful, next time i shall drive there as well... i always believe that Jfren,Cfren and me together we will have fun...i cant wait for the trip my girlfrens....love u guys...

i am such a hypocrite.............hate myself.......

alright, 3 more weeks to end my misery and suffering..wish me the best......