i was being bored so i started browsing my friend's blog..so i came upon wei's blog.. i read about the stuffs that she blog about the games tour..this time i choose to give it a miss..i am more of a stubborn person..there are many reason behind it..one year ago, the same thing happens..GAMES TOUR..HONGKONG!! the starting of a friendship, all the memories and fun...this time i wasn't part of it, i missed alof of their catchin up and times together.. so in turn i asked myself "do i regret?" i actually have no answer to it... cos, of cos i want to be a part of the bond they are building...but .................


once again, i pulled myself away again from them..once in my heart, their friendship is kinda of on the surface. and i realise i am good and happy enough to have jiayi and cher...i am not sure is it my one-sided thinking that we are very close, but i seriously hope that we are and will be..

havin semster starting soon, they will start havin trainin, it will be hard for me to go back trainin isnt it? and i am not sure whether the trainin will be a waste of time or will actually brush up my skills..

i realise i like to pull away from friends..i have this habit..i got no idea why..first was my sec sch girlfriends, followed by sheena and guys,slowly i sense it will be meijie and gang and netball..i don know why i like pullin myself away...damm sickening...why am i such a bad friend...damm sian..

anyway,meetin jiayi soon next week!! cos we gona go shop shop shop and shop!!

i spent my day off just like that..doing 'NOTHING'.. i have done nothin the whole of this holiday except complaining and working my ass off..workin has start to become a thing that i wish to avoid..i lost the sense of courtesy and i lost my smile...i lost my patience and lost my friendliness... it is gettin tired.. maybe a long attachment for me will be good to pick up myself before returnin to the store again.. i know there will be alot of changes when i am back in store..the people will change drastically, the environment will change..everythin will change..but i hope i will jus hold on for awhile more uuntil i finish my poly studies..yupz... i am gettin tired to get out of my house, gettin lazy to walk around..but "SHOPPING! SHOPPING! SHOPPING!" has been in my head non stop..i guess i will be out on streets next week!! have to pull myself back.. rotting and stoning at home is not good, change my mood, change my emotions and make me a unpleasant person.. speak of shoppin, i wan get " clothes; shoes; skirts; bags; shades;!!" i wan all of them..new to store in new clothes for my wardrobe...thats a typical LADY...hahha. always takin a look at other people's blog, they seem to have fantastic english and sentence phrasing..i admired their writing and their english and their formation of sentence... though boring still haven killed me, i think my mind kill me first...........