hmm....had a talk with mariam after our closin which surprisin was damm early...we finished everythin by 11.15....and we sat down waitin for the cab uncle..and thanks to her...we finished damm fast..thanks...we had a talk ....talk about work,sch and of cos relationship....hmm...she asked me"chunpei whats ur ideal age for marriage?" then i repiled"for me i think is 25 which i don think is possible to realise it" that time i was thinkin ya..my ideal age for marriage is 25...cos by the time my child is ten years old i might only be 30 plus 40....still young isnt it...but right after today..i change my thinkin..sorry...i swear i change my point of view damm fast..after watchin the New Japanese Drama "GOOD LUCK" by Takuya Kimura my fav jap actor..he damm handsome charmin...perfect..just the perfect man..i love his hair..hehe...oh ya...after watchin this show..i change my point of view...cos in the show...he is a pilot...hmm...guess everyone have their own dreamin of becomin what they want to be when they grow up..till now i have yet to find mine..but in the show i saw how persistent he could get...and stubborn he is...i mean why he want to be a pilot...of cos he likes flyin...but most importantly, he wants to get all the passengers in the plane arrived to their destination safety...thats what he always have in mind..he has his dreams and is nearin to accomplished his dreams..then what about mine? and in the show...there is this plane technician..a lady...woo..cool...why she wants to become a plane technician? cos both her parents are killed in the plane..thats why she wants to make sure that the plane is safety for take off....yeah...they have their goals in life..they know the direction they are headin...then know what they are doin...they know the reason for their life...they saw how important to work hard and make their dream come true...ya..so now..i am in search for my dreams...

so i was like thinkin bout what i told mariam..." my ideal age of marriage is 25" if i really want to get marry at 25..why am i still studyin now? might as well i quit school and work and inserach for my husband instead right..stupid me...i should have a goal in my life...a goal for me to work towards...always wanted to do somethin meaninful and good...wanted to have a good goal in life...thats excatly what i shold be searchin for...like i bet my frens around me have their goals in life..what they wanna be...i know one of my fren is really workin towards his goal...can see...can feel..yar..why didnt i learn from him?
so sometimes watchin tv means no harm or like what the elders would say WASTE TIME..it isnt..sometimes it makes us realise some important things in life...isnt it?

i have been wastin time thinkin of stuffs that will never happen...why didnt i think bout what i should do and my goal in life?? hahahha...

hmm...did i grow up overnight? hahaha..nahz..jus kiddin...hahha...

lost of memory will change a person,
then allow me to lose memory,
cos i need a change,
a new start in life,
a new goal in life,
then will my life filled with meaninful reason to live on.....