wooo..never blog for so long..yupz..busy is once thing...but nothin to blog is also another thing...is sort of boring to blog what i did today...like i say..who the hell wants to know..if only the day,somethin special happen? or i have some strong feelings or somethin in my heart i really feel like screaming out!!! now i do....
been talkin to mj and wei yesterday about some stuffs....we talk bout our past...our hongkong trip...everything...talkin back again brings me back to some stuffs..suddenly i feel like goin back to sec 5 ...not for my friends this time...for somethin i regret doing...YAR...now i regret....regret for not being consistent...cos i might never know the outcome...and now i will never....now i deeply felt the phrase which goes like"u will only regret when u really lost it" yar...i am regretting now....but isnt it abit to late or very late for me to realise..hahhah..what a joker am i..never knew how much things we went thru and time spent...now i realise how much i missed...now i realise the interruption of some stupid asshole ruin everythin....but why it took me so long to realise what i have really lost? sincee yesterday talk...the memories keep flowing in my head..remindin me how much and what we went thru...i am not thinkin of what...but the memories flew back again...actually,never once did this memories came flowin back...after so long..this is the first time...funnny how...i think is bcos mj asked me that question...it caught me thinkin...today i am thinkin ...yesterady i was thinkin it to sleep....and saw how foolish am i...but it has gone...became a past which cant be changed..and maybe there is really always a reason behind somethin that had happen....i shall knwo it someday or i will never know...
see what i meant by gettin tired of always fallin in love which there wont be any outcome, cos the feelin inside started to fade.....cos time fades everythin....i believe so...only how long u take...long,short,fast,slow....up to u....for me..i guess it takes a long time...although feelings haven faded totally...but it is fadin slowly...maybe i realise soemthin that makes my feeling fades....always never had a good endin when i like someone...so it gettin tired again..once my heart was made of ice..but now is slowly icin up again...maybe is good icin up again...cos is always tirin to love someone...and always hurrt to know the truth...is always sad to know that i am not good enough....see..suddenly feelin so much...hmm...guess feelin this kinda of things are really unexplainable...searchin deep and never will find an answer....curious to find but always end up disappointed...whats got into me feelin so emotinoal once again....
mj read my blog and say she read alot of sad stuffs..yar..truthfully speakin, it hard to find me writin somethin happy really happy about myself...cos all things happen aornd me arent what i thought it could be at least mostly arent .....but was hapy seein how happy my retarted ones are(jiayi and cher) they area always the one that really make me happy....and jus hope that green gang and netabll gang be happier again...and i haven been meetin up with F4 for so so so long..guess is time to meet up soon..i hope i will stand up again....

things never occur to me,
never did i knew ur existence,
it took me 2 years to see the truth,
took me 2 seconds to realise the past,
took me 2 days to refresh the memories,
took me 2 minutes to remember u....
that hold on to me....
but things are happy as the way it is...
cos this is the best endin it could ever get....