hey..what am i doin here at this hour? should be in school at this time..hahha..but i never go sch...oh gosh....guess how lazy i can get....haiz....but nvm..am here to blog about somethin....
haiz....i don know whats gotten into me this few days..seems like i arent myself...i guess tired isnt the reason anymore....guess my mind is back into thinkin and more thinkin....mj really trigger back some past memories...didnt realise it until she mention it...and didnt realise how bad am i...gosh..even i cant forgive myself....how else am i suppose to be forgiven....guess liking wont last...and tired of a No ending,ending....whats the use of likin anyway? when there wont be any ending...only waste time lookin out for that person....only wasting time to make him happy...only wasting efforts to impress him....hmm..i think in the end is jus purely a waste of time..but if in the end get to together..then congrates...but theres a chinese song that goes like this... "I am tired of the NO ENDING,ending...in the end we are back at the same point again" yupz..isnt it quite true...am i too persistent to keep on hangin onto a No ENDING thingy...yupz..i think feelin is slowly fadin....and i wish it fade away soon....but i know right now i still care....at the very least i still care....
i know i got alot of things to write last night..but it was jus too late to write last night cos i reach home at 1....we at kallang playin a friendly and had some physical trainin..then in the end i never take a train home...i took a bus home..my second time takin bus no. 80....i remember my first time takin bus no.80 was took startin from sengkang all the way to the endin point harbour front...then take back again...thats was my first time sittin on a bus ride from one end to the other....hahha...that was a funny experience though...took it with one of my fren...but yesterday, the ride home was quiet and could see the outside cos it was pitch dark....alot of things ring a bell in my head now...guess i still love the sec sch periods...i no need to put up a face infront of ppl i don know in sch...cos in sec sch,almost everyone know each other..so everywhere i go...i jus put up a smile and say HI..but in this sch...i gave a look, and walked away....Wahz..how unfriendly am i..... that shouldnt be..hahah..hmm..anyway,suddenly things came crashin back....have yet to take a breath..guess tml i will catch my breath while spendin some time alone....guess i am thinkin too much again...stupid me...

never knew the truth hurts,
never knew the reason is useless,
never know how stupid i can be,
ruinin somethin i couldnt,
but no use thinkin again,
cos i couldnt turn back time.
happy the way it is now,
happy that we are happy now.
smilin everytime,
hidin the sorrow in me....

hahha..arent i talented to write this stuffs..hahhahahahhahaha....no lahz..jujs jokin...ojkok...enjoy my short poems...things around me gave me inspirations for all the poems i wrote .....:)