i am really angry now..damm angry...don ask me why..i wont say..but i am really angry..shit...idiot..damm it..haiz...argh...why am i so gullible...i hate ppl who never keep to their promises..i hate ppl who failed to do what they said..i hate them..jus simply hate...argh..nothin more to say but damm not happy and angry...why am i so easily bullied??forget it..guess this is somethin i should have done and do and think and whatever earlier...fine..forget...don wanna think..the more i think the more angry i get...haiz..disappointed...one moment thot will be closer...the other moment the ideas were crashed...what is this man? fine...fine...

jus now watch a korean drama...named Lovers In Paris..wooo....why everytime, the actress in the show is so fortunate to have being loved by two handsome guys...really handsome charmin smart lookin..hahha...and whenever the girl is in danger or is sad, either one will pop out and help and lay a hand..and lend a shoulder....jus simply do anythin to make her happy...how nice it is? hhaha...
i guess i also should go find ppl to make me happy..i am so tired ready...guess heart is freezin back again...shall stay as ice until the time us right..tired ready....too tired to think bout anythin..hardly had time to really take a good good rest...nothin beats more than this...i hate it...i hate now..i hate everythin...haiz...i am tired..nothin more to say....haiz..want a good holiday alone...relaxin alone...doin everythin alone jus by the beach..should i jus give this a plan?? sounds like a good idea....yeap...i should...hehehe...okie..great...

liftin my heart up,
without failin to break it apart,
each time it hurts knowin the truth,
each time it pains more than previous,
knowin the truth again and again,
i should have seen the clearer and bigger picture,
let my heart be free again...