hmm...today..damm sad..damm..cos wasnt in the mood...monday blues huh..maybe woke up from the wrong side of the bed...nvm...then went school..hmm.school was bored..guess everyone is gettin stress we havin less fun and laughters...i don like....then slack at club today...wanted to go home one..but meetin mj..hmm..then saw kenny...keep arguin with him...always believe what he say but always kanna cheated by him...am i really so gullible or plain stupid? haiz...nvm..oh yeah..thanks Sir(victor)....thanks for his present..my color shirt..hahhaha...nicec stuffs he got huh..hahhaha..okie...happy to see him back..hahha...then nvm...went home..on the way..jasmine..Once my best best fren in sec sch msg me...then she msg somethin like that" to be really honest,i dun feel close to any of u actually,has been like this right from the start" wahz....my i felt damm sad...she mention don feel close to any of us ACTUALLY...then what bout me? the shit and stuffs we went thru..oh so we arent close in the first place...all the time i spent listenin to all her shits..all her stuffs...wahz...i admit..we arent close anymroe now...but in the past we were close...we WERE...but guess she got memory loss...she forget about it...nvm..so i reply her"right from the start? not at all? then she mention after netball we arent close...NO!! is right after netball then we got closer...is after she left school then we got close...is after that so manyy many things happen..and she says"is okie..guess this is life" okie...maybe this is life for me and her..but i don want this kind of life..i don want to be jus close for the period of time then after no more schoolin we became strangers...but i got reasons when we arent close...think back those things she somehow did...she never know...cos i never tell...i was truly hurt by what she said.."don feel close to any of us" wahz..wahz...FINE!!! then what about all the past things...wahz..really damm...what has happen to me for this past 2 weeks..nothin is goin smoothly..ahiz...feel down..depressed...i used to laugh and laugh about...but this week...ppl kept askin me why i so sad? i don know..many things in my mind...haiz..
i think my feelings so damm accurate...everythin i feels or somehow guess...turns up always correct...really damm accurate...haiz..why sometime i cant be innocent and know nothin...
know nothin is better than knowin many things...but cant help it..i feel it...hahhah....i hope i will then..........haiz..
oh ya...bao seems like really wanna perm his hair...huh..don want lahz.z.then i know anyother matthew..hahahha....but now matthew's hair no more curly...hahhha....