i lost the sense to write..i lost the mood to write..what have gone so wrong into me? caramel lost her sweetness...she hate herself to be like this...she jus isnt herself...she always find excuses to tell herself that"oh maybe i am jus tired, i will be okie after i have enough of rest" but it always doesnt work..it doesnt...no matter how hard she try to find soem excuses to cover her unhappiness and moodiness, she cant seems to convince herself...crackin up some lie to cover herself...she went crazy figurin out stuffs that was a past tense...she doesnt want to go crazy again figurin out the problem this time..last time,she got a crazy fren be there to help her figure it out..but this time,there a distant between her and this fren of hers...is always difficult for her to meet up with him..there goes another fren again...thats why she hated makin new frens..cos they wont last...sometimes it isnt that they hated each other, but inconvience or time drove frens apart..no matter how hard tryin to meet up, it jus doesnt allow...she is really tired this time...ppl came knockin at her door and broke that ice.....but once she opened the door,the person knock on the wrong door and went away...can u imagine how tirin it is for her to keep openin a wrong door for a wrong person? she wish she could jus stay away from the door and findin someone to guide that door for her....but she knows that the more she wish for, the more it will stay away..but she also cant stop herself from wishin,hopin and everythin...thats jus her..or should she say that jus human being..never fails to think,wish,fantasie..sometimes is hard to figure out what a person is thinkin,actin and the motive behind everythin he/she does..she is always bad is figurin out...already been 2 years and she still failed...what a failure can she be....jus a caramel for decor...and not a caramel for consume.....haiz...
was super sad, was watchin a korean show jus now..i am addicted to it partly because of the handsome guy inside the show...ooo..he is really very handsome and cool...he is a guy that doesnt show his feeling..when he cares, he shows that he doesnt care but deep inside his heart, he really really care but doesnt wanna show it...a person who look hard outside but is soft inside...i love him...seriously,although he never really did alot of things for the girl but i love him...and if i were the girl i will chose him instead of luxury...but i guesss the girl choice luxury instead of him although the endin haven been showed...
is fusrating to see two person are in loved yet no one wants to make a move or whyh they jus cant be together..is circumstances around them make them cant be together..is so heart pain to see them not together...is not easy to find someone u like and at the same time like u too...so whats the hesitation for? idiot...i hate this kind of story..i really really pity that guy...although he never show how much he care for her...but behind her back, he did alot of things too...it hurt him to see those things she did...it hurts him to see she crys...it hurts him to hear her being called name..it hurts him to see her throw her pride...it hurts him the way it hurts her...what a show..i love that guyh.....but don know his name..hehehe....cool guy..hehe..but i really hope the endin is the girl with that guy although i know the chances are slim...haiz...

you came knockin at the door of my heart,
break the ice,
and melt the coldness.
the moment the ice is broken,
you opened ur mouth,
and told me,
you knock on the wrong door.
jus walkin away without closin the door,
leavin it to close itself.
leavin the ice to see the back of urs!

Shag-Tired-Confuse-Sad----Chunpei signin off.....