caramel is sick...but isnt feverish sick but is sick of things and stuffs...sick of work..sick of almost everythin..sick of puttin it effort..sick of gettin nothin in return..yar...so i don know...but she is jus painly tired...no idea what to do...so what she gona do next? no idea...she is always thinkin..really thinkin of those never will happen..but she can do nothin bout it..she cant stop her mind from thinkin..it jus thinkn like that...she hate herslef for that...she thinkgs too much..she jus hope that she wont think too much..she thought 2005 will be a good year..cos 2004 is definitely not a good year for her..but never did she know that 2005 is also not a good year..so now what she can do is to compare which year is the worst...2004? or 2005? we shall see...yar...she had a bad start in 2005 so the rest of 2005 wouldnt be any better..haiz..and she is exhausted..she thought feelings can be control..but now..she doesnt think so...feelings cant be control...heart jus go with the feelings..there isnt any way to stop it..any way to prevent it....everything jus need time!!! time to fade away..time to like..time to do everythin..time is everythin...yar....haiz...caramel is speachless....


Was PISSED!!PISSED yesterday..damm idiotic...is like what the helll...argh...i was nice to jus ask somthin nice and simple....and ahmad gave me a hell of shit..SHIT!!! what the hell he tryin to tell me!!! tryin to take revenge..thanks for that man...AHMAD u have always been so SHITTY...wahz..damm pissed off..what is that...IDIOT...gave me all the shitty things...wahz..i got no idea what he is up to..is like i am jus askin some question..is fine u don wanna answer..but spare me all those shit...fine..shall not talk to him..thanks for the lecture..but spare me man!!


and yesterday i chatted with sheena...guess is better that we talked online...ahahahha...so jus wanna ask her to pls stop what she ought to..hahha...yar..she can do it..pls do it...hehehh...

i am tired...
tired of walkin
tired of smilin
tired of everythin single little things..
i wish i could fly
fly freely in the air
nothin bothers me...
nothin worrys me...
jus me and myself...
me and i....
but i yearn for somethin happy things to happen..
some happen and i hope it will last..
for those that didnt happen..
i jus have to forget it...

tired--sleeply Chunpei...--signin off....