haiz...things have not been goin right...this is the term break ready..and my
blog is still spolit...maybe i should change my blogskins..but i hate to..i am
really attached to this blogskin..and i love this blolg...while bloggin while
seachin for a nicer and a better blogskins...haiz...things haven been
good..feelin so shitty....lost my meanin of bloggin..lost my meanin of tellin
things..lost the meanin of doin alot of things...i last blog on sun..that was
before i went to meet MY FREN FREN AH..RUZAINI!!!right ruzaini? he is indeed a
GOOD fren...what the!!he did somethin that i never thought it will..he will..or
whatever....indeed i am burnin inside...indeed i am angry at him...but i don
know why i jus never lose my temper..maybe i am more worried how the other party
will react...huh...SO DAMM SHITY...of cos ruzaini will jus anyhow ah....HE IS A
GUY...is normal for a GUY TO GO FOR GIRl..i also know now is normak for GIRL TO
GO FOR GUY..BUT what he did....certainly is not my way of handling things..maybe
he like everythin to be answered quickly...and whatever...while i am those who
like to take things slowly..that why..maybe he said somethin about the wasted
thingy right...RUZAINI!!!i regret meetin u!!! ARGH!!~~~now i don know how to
face ready lahz..been thinkin of avoidin the person!!!see......sch have been
sucky..now sch is even worse...ruzaini ruzaini...i wont have happy days in
school anymore!!!haiz..this is the continuation of sun...i am so bothered by it
k...then on monday i went to school for maths lesson..was okie..then after that
i met nette to buy some sports thingy..and i am happy that i bought a puma
skirt!!yeah...then after that we headed to school cos we ahve a competition IVP
in school...we are playin agasint NUS...wahz..man...they are damm strong...i don
know whether i played well...but i know when i played WD ic certainly SUCKS at
it...i am not a good WD....i am sad..i am bothered i am angry that i played so
sucky..and it wasnt a good fight..it wasnt s good game..it was BAD!!! wasnt been
happy and hyper after that game...then i was only happy cos i saw my netball
seniors in dunman sec sch one..OH MYH..i miss them so much..i wish we could be
in the same team and playhed netball together again..i believe we will be so
strong that it will be a tough fight to beat us down..HEHE...yeah...then after
the netball match i went to WORK!! ya..work....cos not enuff ppl..what
the...then i was damm tired and werent happy...work isnt fun anymore..it was
fuun and happy like last time....jeremy wasnt funny...everythin is
different...now i don felt like workin aymore...is like i cant quit anytime and
i don F**K care...and then i went home in the mornin after work and i didnt
SLEEP..but bath and go out again..i went for CIP...giving tuition...haiz..was so
damm shity tired...then after the CIP...me,jiayi,cher and ting went to KBOX and
sing our lungs out..hehe..was fun...but after few hours the hyperness isnt
there..haha....then i was damm cold and had a flu..and nose block..yesterday was
the day that i took the most cab in a day..twice..i went to CIP by cab and went
home by CAB...cos i was jus too tired...and when i reach home i settle for
awhile and slept at 8!!slept at 8!!!thats was early wasnt it? i was jus too
tired..then i woke up feelin sick...so damm sick....feelin the whole body
achin...wasnt myself...little fever..bad flu...but i cant be sick..cos later i
got GAME agasint SMU which we will have a chnace in winini...so i really don
want to be sick....i can get sick how sick also can after the IVP but not durin
the IVP....haiz..please...please..feelin so sucky...i have been avoidin phones
call...i have been avoidin meetin..i have been avoidin ppl..WHY?cos with or
without me they dont make a differencec...same in sch..same in netball...same in
everythin...ARGH~~~~~ i need time to losen myseldf...relax myself..have been too
tense..have been too hectic..never had a good good rest since poly starts!!!!
oh ya..i wentt to match 13 goin on 30...was DAMM NICE.....out of ten stars i
gived it NINE!!! the one stars is not given cos they never showed that she won
the battle against her "BEST" fren lucy.....that will be nice if it was
included...but i guess the returnin back to the past shows it all...jenna was
lucky..she is damm lucky that she can returned to the past and changes everythin
..includin love,life,family,everythin...she is given one more chance to do
so....she been to 30 when she was only 13 to see how sad,bad,how flirty she
really was...but she wants to change for a better...and wish things would go
back to when she was 13 so she can changed everythin....and there it goes..the
wishin dust brought her back to 13 jus what she wanted...and be with the guy she
feel comfortable with...is her soulmate...thats it...they had a long
relationship it lasted and they get marrried in the end...and they are still so
sweet and lovin..what a touchin and sweet movie..i love it to the core...how
nice if i can turn back time..but even if i turn back time..nothin much will
changed....haiz....
Fly to the future ,
Knowin things arent the same,
Everythin changed,
You changed,
He changed,
We changed.
You hate your future,
Hate everything single things that changed.
You had a chance,
You flew back to the past and
Changes everythin u knew was wrong
You treasured the chance given to you
And was happy in the end........
Everythin was right
Everythin is jus wrong,
Never had this kind of feelin
Never will i knew i had,
Afraid to admit,
Afraid u will know,
Nothin will changed,
Nobody will know.
lastly added...WE LOST AGAIN...and i play like shit...shit again...I am
nothing...cannot communicate...haiz..sorry girls...i wish carely was there....