tired..real tired? why am i torturin myself?

i am really tired today..super..i also not sure why i torture myself so much...i am not in need of money or whatsoever..why am i workin so hard for? for nothin..mainly jus to keep myself busy..aint i doin that?havin whole body ache...backache espcially!!*wish someone could help me message my back* hahahha...(dream on CP)...hahah...then tml startin the first day of school but i am arent excited at all...haiz..why is that so?cos i am goin to a new enviroment with strangers that i am so tired of..keep makin new frens in life...i can even maintain still havin my old frens by my sidee then i want to go and make new frens...what for??have to put on a smile when i don feel like...have to go along with some crappy joke when i think it isnt worth the laugh and the effort..havin to put some happy face when i am arent happy at all...have to go along with everyone when sometimes i want to be alone...now,feel like peace is the best...then today work tired sia..haiz...then waitin for the match which i think i gona sleep by then before the match even started..then tml i really scared i could wake up...wish to have a wake up call...hahah..have to wake up..now my eyes closin le..hahaha...then jus now msg some of my frens who reopen sch tml..then i msg bani too..the same msg ah..then i don understand how come all long his replies are all short...could he type somethin longer...haiyo...haha..but at least he replied...hehe..better then he heck care...later the match jus hope . greece will win..i wouldnt want portugal to win!!haha..then today also nothin much happenin..i think i will give the match a miss..cos really very sleepy...haha...hmmm...lets hope greece win..and hope tml i will have a great day in school..*headache...thinkin of what to wear to school tml....haiz..got uniform better right..no need to think..haiz...then somemore tml after school workin sia...from 6-11..i really sia ah...i am not in need of money but work so hard..but i also hope to buy the adidas real madrid sweater..jhehehheeheh..okoko..stop here...wanna go sleep...check out my blog tml about my sch!! hahahahahah....