haiz..nothin for today...never see my cool guy in school..and never see someone...then my fren say i crazy cos i tell them"wahz..today i wear so nice to school never see my cool guy sia"..they say"siao ah u"hahah...they i jus laugh ah...they keep askin me to get his no..but no lahz..he is jus someone that i can keep a lookout for in school...so it make school more interestin rather than borin...now in school i have this two good fren ...is nicec bein with them cos we can joke anythin under the sun..hahah...we gossip..we joke..we talk..but we are also serious in work..ahhaha..haha....but so sad..never see cool guy sia..haiz..never make my day...it will be better if i met someone else too..but no...but nvm..i met farihan...finally...saw farihan..he was at my block..quite shocked to see him..haha..then now left dibah i haven meet in school...haha...poor him workin tonight..haha..haha...forget to ask him what cca he joined!haha...then finally SP is doin some funn event..STELLA is comin to SP for a small music concert..and i want to GO!! and i hope manfred can help me get the tickets..please manfred..hahaha...ahhaha...then today my fren in school..good sia..she really super super duper Jerry's Fan...she gave me alot of poster and stuffs..and u let me feel the feelin of my past while i am still crazy over them..miss that time...when i occupied by them...in my mind is all them...so i was happy at that time...haha...then now i am once again goin alittle crazy over them..hehe..ANYWAY,Jerry's album comin out..Finally,after so long..miss him alittle..hahaha...thanks tingting..ahha..then i jus finished watchin the Room in my heart..9pm show in channel 8...so sad...so fraustratin..so idiot...i think kaixin love jiankang..and vice versa...but for some reason they somehow cant be together...so sad...is like i jus don understand why when two ppl like each other cant be together but somehow must forced urself to be with someone u don really like...arent u torturin urself?maybe this is love...this is emotion...this is feelin..anyway..love sucks..so do emotion..and feelings..they all sucks...too bad..human cant live without it...am i correct?but it is so heart pain to see both ppl love each other but one arent selfish to go for it..noe i unnderstand the meanin of "Love is selfish..if u chose to be kind u will be the one to sufffer"wow...seems like i am some love expert when i never been into one...maybe i think alot too...hahah...haiz..sometimes we really have to take things easy and accept the fact....sometimes i also wonder whether i am livin in a world of reality or in my dreams??everythin seems so fake...i cant believe i am in what so ever STuPid POLY....cos sec sch days jus seems like yesterday....see..i am gettin emo again...but jus feel like i jus joke with ahmad yesterday,talk with nad durin F&N lesson,havin janice sittin beside me and stay in class durin recess...talkin with vishal,ena n ruzaini durin maths lesson..and havin MR GAN tellin us"study lahz..no much time left"everythin jus seems like yesterday..........wearin my brown uniform..so proud of it..ahha...hahha...and wearin my nice school shoes...wearin my army bag..havin my silver shinin badge...tiein my hair...walkin to school..meet benny and ruzaini in bus...reach sch...standin in the parade ground...singin MARI KITA...sittin down for readin..walkin back to class..havin lesson..walkin pass 5A class for science practical...havin mother tongue lesson..havin english lesson..havin mr bernard PE lesson...OHMY...why am i missin sec sch more than ever now...hey guys!!really miss the FUN!!!take care ppl....stop here..if not i am goin to write non-stop...haha...