hi..mornin...i don know why i am up so early..cos i supposed to be in bed now...cos i slept very late last night...i feel a heart pain when i woke up..i don know why...but somehow i feel so emo the moment i wake up...cos i had a dream last night...a dream of .......i am not thinkin about .....or neither am i wonderin about .....but why am i dreamin about ........oh my god..i feel like that is my only dream last night....is all feel with......and my frens..somethin that is so unbelievable.....somethin jus so hard to explain...is like when i woke up the dream is still inside my mind..the dream is like still goin on....and this mornin i went thru some things i wrote last time..wahz..the pain i felt last time is really terrible...somehow is like i can cry any moment...there are letters and letters that i wrote out of anger..out of saddness...and never will i imagine i could write those out..ahha..so fuunny..thats why sometime u have to write down somethin..and after a long time u read it..u will go like "am i really the one who write it?"i think i was once in a pool of tears and a mood of saddness..a world of unfaced reality...ask me if i have the chance to change somethin what will it be? the answer will be -->change every single things that happen to my fren...and stop anythin from happenin to my frens as well.....i realise i only know how to talk but no actions at all......the dream last night is what i never thought i will dream....so scary so funny..so shockin...izzit hintin me somethin?wooo....hahhaha.....i think i am more crazy over lookin at guys..hahah..i am CRAZY!! haiz..i remember that there is a period of time when i can cry at small little things...small little memories...and somethin that supposed to be happy i also can cry..how fragile i am?but...time really fades memories away.........but it took me long........not only time..but ppl around u...anyway,i feelin like updatin cos i have somethin to say..and i doubt tonight i have the time cos i will be workin later..then the next day i work mornin..so have to sleep early so that i can wake up early....later don know who workin...but i know fad surely workin....